SemiCharmedCH6

(Pen�s point of view)

�Wait! We need to stop.� I managed to say. My heart was beating rapidly and I was out of breath. My body was aching from the passion between Kevin and I. I wanted him so bad, but I was scared. Just being in this sexual position gave me flash backs of what happened with Justin and me. �I can�t do this.� I said, right before pushing Kevin away and getting off the couch. I was preparing to run outside for some fresh air, but Kevin grabbed me. �Kevin let me go please.� I said. I managed to make it to the back deck. Kevin followed me and made me face him. He noticed that tears were rolling down my face. He tried to see if I was okay.

�I didn�t mean to rush you. Just don�t cry okay.� He said.

�Kevin it�s not your fault. I�m just scared.�

�Scared of what? Are you scared of taking the next step with me? We don�t have to do this. I mean I did kind of rush things, it�s just that...�

�He raped me!� I screamed. I felt my body tremble as I uttered those three words. Kevin looked alarmed as he heard me say it. I turned away and tried not to face him. I took a deep breath and tried to fight back my tears. �I was down in Mexico doing the shoot for �Give me one night�, and I was one of the extras. During one of the night shots Justin asked me out for a drink after the shoot, and I agreed. I mean I was just being friendly. So like around one or so, Justin and I went to a bar and had a few drinks. And I was a little tipsy, but I was still able to handle myself. And so on the way back to the hotel, Justin tried to get me to go back to his room. And I tried to say no because I was with AJ and it would be just trampy to spend the night with him. But he wouldn�t take no for an answer. By the time we got to his room, he pulled me in and threw me on the bed. I tried to get away, but he punched me and pinned me down. I mean he was so strong, and I couldn�t get away. I screamed for help, but no one answered. He slapped me to try to make me shut up, but it was hard. Then he spread my legs and...� I said right before sobbing uncontrollably. My body trembled even more, and I got weak. My knees gave up, and my body fell. I managed to land in Kevin�s arms. He held me close and allowed me to cry. He carried me back into the house and into the bedroom. He wrapped a sheet around me to try to get me to stop shaking.

�Oh my god! I can�t believe he did that to you.� Kevin said softly. He continued to hold me close to him, and kissed the top of my head. As he held me I heard his heart beat. That seemed really soothing.

�And after it was over, I pushed him away and ran out of the hotel room. I guess it was the next morning because I noticed AJ was walking towards my room. He had a like a bouquet of roses. He noticed me leaving Justin�s room. He looked at me, and gasped. I tried to explain, but Justin came out and said he wasn�t finished with me. AJ was so pissed that he started to beat the shit out of Justin. I tried to pull AJ away, but it was impossible. Eventually AJ stopped, and he called me a slut. He really thought I slept with Justin. He thought I cheated on him. I chased him to my hotel room, and from there he just dumped me. And since then, we�ve hated each other.�

�He just left you like that?� Kevin asked. �He left you when you needed him the most. I just have a question though. I mean since Justin raped you, how come you didn�t bust him and get him arrested?�

�After the whole thing with AJ, I took a long shower and cried myself to sleep. So I washed the evidence away. I swear if only I could only turn back time, I would get him back. And to this day I haven�t been able to trust anyone. I mean the one person I loved the most turned his back on me. I haven�t been able to trust anyone.� I said. Suddenly I glanced at Kevin and noticed a single tear falling from his face. �Kevin I�m so scared that you�re going to leave me too. I don�t want you to hurt me.�

�Pen, I�m not going to do that. I would never do that. You just got to trust me. I mean you trusted me enough to tell me that stuff. You can trust me enough to know that I would never hurt you.�

I looked at Kevin and looked deep into his eyes. I could see that he was truly a genuine man. He was honest and caring, and would never hurt me. I placed my head back on his chest and sighed �I do trust you.�

�You do?� Kevin asked softly. He moved his fingers though my hair, and took a deep breath.

�Yeah, I trust you.� I responded softly. Suddenly I wasn�t scared anymore. I felt protected being with Kevin. It was like all of my fears went away. It was like I knew that Kevin wasn�t going to use me. He wouldn�t judge me. He trusted me, and I could finally open up to him. �I trust you with all of my heart.� I said again, right before kissing Kevin softly on the lips. Kevin squirmed a little and made me look up at him. He had a lost look in his eyes, and got up from the bed.

�Maybe I should go to bed. I mean unless you want me to stay here with you.� Kevin said. I can tell he was nervous for what was going to happen next, and I was nervous too. But I decided that I shouldn�t be scared anymore. I just wanted Kevin with me.

�Can you stay the night in here with me please?� I asked.

�Sure! I�ll do anything to make you feel better. I�ll sleep in here with you.� Kevin said. We both lied down on the bed and faced each other. We both looked like we were lost, like we didn�t know what to do. But I couldn�t take it anymore. I needed to break this sexual frustration. I slowly got closer to Kevin and kissed him passionately. Kevin didn�t hold back and held onto me. His hands roamed up and down my back, resting finally on the round curve of my body just below the small of my back. �Tell me what you want me to do right now.� He said softly.

I rolled over on top of him and slowly took off my shirt. I moved his hand to my left breast. �Make love to me please.� I said softly.

�You sure? I mean I don�t want to rush you...� Kevin said right before I interrupted him with another kiss. Kevin didn�t really respond after that, but instead kissed me.

We both kissed passionately for a few minutes right before Kevin moved down to kiss my breasts. Just the feel of his lips on my body made me shake a little. I arched my back at the pleasure and closed my eyes. Kevin kissed down to my stomach and blew into my belly button. He kissed back up to my body and kissed my neck. My hands moved down from his neck to his chest, to the top of his jeans. I started to undo his jeans, when I noticed Kevin having a nervous look on his face. I tried to slow down, but I just wanted him inside of me. I yanked his underwear down along with his boxers. He waited on entering me, taking his time to kiss and taste my fiery skin. Kevin kissed me again, and took off my shorts and panties. He looked down at me and smiled to himself. He told me how beautiful I was, and he placed he hand on my stomach. �You really think I�m beautiful?� I asked. Kevin said yes and described how I looked at that very moment. I grinned and pulled him close for another kiss. I wanted him inside of me at that very moment, but somehow he was procrastinating. �Kevin what�s wrong?� I asked.

Kevin had a scared look in his eyes. He moved my hair away from my face and said �I�m just scared that I�m going to go too fast and hurt you. I mean that�s the last thing I want.�

�You won�t hurt me. I just don�t want you to stop.� I said. I kissed his shoulder and suddenly Kevin thrust himself inside of me. My mind was flowing with sexual energy from his touch. I tried to suppress my cries of pleasure when he did push past the fragile folds of skin. He entered me with a sensitive force as he could without causing any pain. He moved slowly, driving me wild with each stroke. I gasped and bit down into his shoulder. I pulled him down on me as he kept thrusting himself into me slowly. I moaned softly as I felt him complete me. I cried in ecstasy as he filled me. I closed my eyes and held onto his shoulders. I moaned a little louder as the pleasure continued. �Oh my god!� I said as I felt a wave of pleasure go down my spine. I dug my nails into his shoulder as that happened. I noticed Kevin wincing at the pain, but he continued. He made me beg several times for a release before increasing his pace. Finally after one final thrust, we both were pulled into a supernova of ecstasy. After coming down from our high, we looked at each other with desire in our eyes. We both rolled over and held each other. I felt Kevin tremble underneath me. �You�re the one that�s shaking now.� I said softly.

Kevin sighed and looked into my eyes. Somehow I saw his soul. I saw a gentle side to him. �I guess I am.� He responded softly. He then took the blanket on the bed and covered us both up. He put his left hand on the small of my back, and a chill went down my spine. Kevin noticed my body quiver a little and smiled. �I guess I have that same effect on you.� He said. I smiled back and kissed his cheek. �What was that for?� He asked.

�I don�t know. I guess it was a thank you.�

�Thank you for what?�

�Because I�m not scared anymore.� I said. I tried to fight back my tears as I said that, but Kevin noticed.

�I�m glad that I can do that. I just wanted you to know that you don�t have to be scared of me. I would never hurt you.�

�I know that now.� I said right before kissing Kevin again. I kissed his neck right before rolling over to go to sleep. For the rest of the night Kevin held me in his arms, and lied right next to me.