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| For Debra You came and you went like a dream in the wind, thoughts of your auburn hair are still blowing through my mind. So beautiful you appeared, and so seemingly insecure, as if a couple insensitive words may have bent you over in pain (even though they wouldn't have been intended to harm you or be that way). So I didn't approach you. I didn't want to take a chance of hurting you. HA! That was only part of it. The courage, it was not within me to near one as beautiful as you other than to engage in small conversation and secretly take in your essence and delight in the smell of your body after you shower. You came and you went like a dream in the wind. I hope your changes and teachings lead you to where you want to be, because I'd like to see you again if ever the time would come that you also chose to see me. copyright February 1989 |
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| For Betty The sun is ablazing and the sky is a wondrous blue. Can you feel it too? Are you out there? That old cottonwood down by the river is as tall and green as I've ever seen. It's been Spring for six weeks now. Can you see it? We've had some nice rains come down on these Kansas wheatfields. We sure could use a good yield this year. Can you smell them? Can you touch them? It about killed me when I heard the news today. We were so many miles apart. It wasn't easy hearing about you from a friend of a friend. But maybe I'll see you again, when my story ends. My little boy is outside playing. He doesn't feel my pain. Can you see him? Can you see yours? This Kansas wind is blowing through my window and across my face. Is that you? Are you trying to wash my tears away? They say there's already grass growing where they buried you that day, but you're not forgotten. Can you hear me? It about killed me when I heard the news today. We were so many miles apart. It wasn't easy hearing about you from a friend of a friend, but maybe I'll see you again, when my story ends. I hope I get to see you again, when my life ends. middle 8 There aren't too many people who had a life like yours. It wasn't fair at all. We all knew it. We all stood by and watched you wither away in your pain. A little more each day. Did you resent us? It's too late now to do anything at all but to be happy, because you're free from it all.. You never fell from grace. Yes, it about killed me when I heard the news today. We were so many miles apart. It wasn't easy hearing about you from a friend of a friend. but maybe I'll see you again, when my story ends. I hope I get to see you again, when my life ends. Would you accept me, would you take my apology when my life ends? copyright May 1994 |
| Another of the rockers I spoke of Your Bags Are Out Front I saw you out late last night girl, uh-huh. It was an awful, dreadful, terrible sight now, uh-huh. You were really lookin' rough girl, uh-huh, and I think I've finally had enough of you now, uh-huh. Chorus: You were kissing every guy in the bar. You went home in some other dude's car. You've hurt my pride now you've gone too far. I'm a little upset. Your bags are out front. Now I've gone out and gotten hammered before girl, uh-huh. But the only thing I ever kissed besides you was the barroom floor now, uh-huh. For that you called me an alkie and a loser now, uh-huh, when I caught you with others behind our bedroom door now, uh-huh. You were kissing every guy in the bar. You went home in some other dude's car. You've hurt my pride you've finally gone too far. You're a mess, and your bags are out front. bridge: Where was my mind at? Where was my self-respect? I'm not the kind that gets up to my neck in these kinds of things. I guess I am now, uh-huh. middle 8 I've got some wheels that'll take me away from here now, uh-huh, and your ugly ways and your cases of liquor now, uh-huh. So you have fun cause I'm running from here now, uh-huh, I hope you find someone new because the rent is due now, uh-huh. You've been kissing every guy in the bar. You've crossed too many lines, you've gone too far I've found my pride and I'm off in my car I'm a little upset, my bags are out front. My bags are out front. fade copyright 1993 |
| Just Quit Drinking I just quit drinking, it's gonna be a rough time, where'd that woman come from, in this bed of mine? I don't drink coffee, guess I'll have an iced tea. Yeah, I just quit drinkin', Lord have some mercy on me. Well my electricity's off, and I've got a busload of bill collectors at my front door. My brain's goin' south, and my beer belly won't fit in my jeans anymore. I've been drinking so long that i've gone and forgotten what I even started for. I've got this woman in my bed but I woke up this morning sprawled out on the floor. (Did she kick me out?) I just quit drinking, I hope things will turn out fine, even though I don't know, that woman in this bed of mine. I don't drink coffee, it'll have to be iced tea. Yeah, I just quit drinkin'. Lord show some pity for me. Well this girl's got several tattoos, and bobby pin stickin' out her nose. She ain't the kind that I'd take the extra effort for to go out and buy her a rose. She says she's gender-free, and she wants to know if I'd like to wear her pantyhose. No thanks, darlin, I'm just fine with my hunting socks warming my toes. spoken >Oh mercy. ..... play it boys middle 8 Well I'll get my electricity back on, and those bill collectors will finally start to hit the road. My brain will start to work fine, and I'll find the time to work off this heavy load. Yes, I'm gonna quit drinking, before I blow my mind. It'd be fine to have a nice girl, in this bed of mine. I don't drink coffee, it'll have to be iced tea. Yes, I just quit drinking, Lord have some mercy for me. Lord I'just quit drinkin'. I've gotta get back my sanity. copyright July 1993 |
| My Mexican Cutie Chorus: Oh mercy me, senorita. Oh mercy me, my my. Tu eres muy bonita, you've really caught my eye. Oh mercy me, mis amigos. Oh mercy me, my my. I've fallen for a Mexican cutie and she's taken this heart of mine. I'm just, a regular guy, I try to get by as best as I can. I've followed the rules, and I make my living with my hands. And you know, that I've been, with my share of women, but they always go, on down the road, saying I just don't know how to win. No, I've never owned a massarati, never set in a Ferrari, but I am who I am, I'm happy with me, and so is she apparently. Oh mercy me, senorita. Oh mercy me, my my. Tu eres muy bonita, you've really caught my eye. Oh mercy me, mis amigos. Oh mercy me, my my. I've fallen hard for a Mexican cutie and she's taken this heart of mine. We'd like to build us a casa, up the Tucson way. We'd be by the pool, drinking cervesas, and making the love all day. We're getting tired of dreaming, tired of scheming on my little pay, We've done what we're told, but it's makin' us old trying to it the regular way. So I put 10 dollars down on our favourite numbers, now I'm glad I've always stuck to my guns, because my honey she say, "Jeffie, it's our lucky day. we just won 20 million! Woooo-Hooooo. Oh mercy me, senorita. Oh mercy me, my my. Tu eres muy bonita, you really caught my eye. Oh mercy me, mis amigos. Oh mercy me, my oh my. I've fallen hard for this Mexican cutie and she's taken this heart of mine. I've fallen hard for this Mexican cutie and everthing's worked out just fine. She first loved the heart of this down on his luck gringo, and she'll always have this love of mine. spoken quickly > arriba, arriba, arriba! andele, andele! woo! copyright June 1994 |
| For James # 2 I picked my little boy up yesterday. He's just four years old. We were going to play kick ball. It was late Fall, and the leaves had begun to float down to the ground. "Kick it, Dad! Kick it! I want to play with you. I love my Daddy so much," is what he was always saying to me and others when I was away. "Look at that pile of leaves, Dad! I'm going to crawl into it and come out looking like a monster!" "And you'll be the best monster that ever was," was my reply. And I love you more than I did 30 seconds ago, I said to myself. "Does that mean we're not a broken family anymore?" he asked. "Maybe, maybe not, son," my eyes lied. "Kick it, Dad! Kick it up to the moon, and then we'll go into my room and play with my ninja turtles. Is it noon yet? Is it time for samwiches?" I love you. And we played and ate and went on and on with all this fun until I had to say, "The day's about done. It's time to go back to Mama's, son." "Will you be there in the morning, Dad?" "If I can," I remember saying, dieing just a little bit more inside. "But now it's about time for you to go to your dreams and imagine all the good things you're going to be when you grow up." "I love you, Dad. My Daddy." "I love you too, son, more that you will ever know." copyright 10-25-1997 |
| in progress she doesn't go away. she hasn't for a thousand days. her spirit lingers in the air, and her fair presence is everywhere. they say it's supposed to get better, but i'm still writing letters i can not send. when will this yearing begin to evaporate, this rain coming down on me? she's married, they say she's happy. thank God she's alive. a good wife she's made and a once in a lifetime lover. another man knows how it feels to be lucky and to have finally found the special woman a man can wait for all his life. so move on gentle spirit, and enjoy the journey, i hope your heart still burns with desire every morning you arise. live on kind spirit, the world is a better place because of you. even though we're apart i've found out because of you i'm always learning... how you've changed my life. i need to stop feeling this a burden i carry through my days, i shouldn't regret being once begotten of your love. you're happy, that's what's most important you've found your way in a world that can't seem to get enough or jealousy and envy. it's time for me to start enjoying the rain, and begin to see it as a blessing. stop this second guessing, and be taking wisdom from the love we once knew. it took a long time for me to finally come around, and see that without you i can still go on. maybe we'll meet and fall in love again, if there's another lifetime. so move on gentle spirit, enjoy your journey. i hope your heart still burns with a desire for living every morning you arise. live on kind spirit. the world is a better place because of you, and even though we're apart i've found out because of you i'm always learning how you've changed my life. my love, it's gotten better, you changed my life. my love, hmmmm,oh yes. my love, forever, i'll love you. copyright October 21,2000 |
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