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I do not feel very calm and relaxed today. I usually feel really calm and relaxed on a Saturday. Instead I felt very moody, sad, worried and somewhat at a loss. And maybe even a tiny bit suicidal.

  I did not stay home all day. I had to get out as I am due for my once every 4 weeks haircut. The earlier parts of the day was very dull. I did not wake up at the time I wanted. The alarm woke me up but I slept some more that I missed most of my favourite cartoon. Then after breakfast, newspaper and a little more TV. I went online to find someone to chat with. And I found the person I wanted to chat with. And it was kinda fun. Then after chatting, I had lunch. I did not take a nap after lunch. I greased up one of my Mini4WD then I layed around and wasted some time. Then it was getting late so I decided to go for the haircut.

  Everything felt so amazing to me today. Everything seemed to have a life of their own. The world is full of colour and interesting. I wondered if others' life were better then mine. And I also kept thinking had I been making the best of my time since I ORD. I had many, many deep and profound thoughts about my life and life itself. Then when I reached my destination, it was time to get my haircut.

  The haircut went smoothly but it was awfully quiet. They did not turn on the radio today. The same barber cut my hair and washed it. I was pretty happy with the entire thing. But even when I was at the barber's, I could not put my worries aside. When the haircut was done, I went home. Chatted with a friend on the handphone while I was on my way home.

  I got home and I made myself a really nice cool drink. Then I played a computer game on the PC. But all I felt like doing was blasting the bad guys to pieces. And I failed the mission. Time passed and I worked on part of this entry before dinner time. Then I had my dinner and here I am completing this entry. I am not going to think of anything but racing tomorrow. I am going to do my best to win and have a good time.

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