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| 4/13/04~Well a new page..he he he... 4/14/04~Shew what a day...I went to court today for child support, on Aarons dad...oh hell and it was awful, we got in a fuss...i don't really want to talk about it...i have had a bad week so far. i tryed to be nice and i bought someone something, but they wasn't thankful...gosh it is the thought that counts!! oh well...well i went to the tanning bed again..lol..i am stupid..i dunno, i just feel like i can relax when i am in the bed...i kinda just get away from my life for 20 mins, it feels good..to get away ....i have had a very busy week, i need to clean my apt real good...lol...gosh and exams are in one more week..shew i am so worried...ha ha ha..oh well...hey 3...Drool. ...your a good friend, thanks for listening to me whine about my problems...it seems like no one really listens to me these days, but you do..thank you! I need to find me a job....oh my poor lungs hurt..it is about time to get a shot...i keep puttin off going to the doc..i don't like gettin my shot...i think i will go friday...we'll see....well i guess i am going to get in bed now..night...night...bye....bye....oh yeah one more thing..I HATE LIARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... 4/16/04~I am so tired..got up at 6:30...got everyone dressed and off to daycare, then went to a class...and then went home and cleaned and then got a call to come pick Aaron up from daycare cause he was sick had a temp...so went and got the kids and came home...Aaron threw up all over the place, Austin wouldn't mind me, John came over...we watched tv and got a pizza....Sorry about hittin you in the eye...opps....lol..and now it is 12 and i am beat...still not went to the doc, i will monday...lol..Been alittle depressed this week..just don't understand some things....just wondering if i am in a dead end relationship.......i hope not, just wish i could see into the future or even better make my future the way that i want it to be, that would be so awesome.....hum...dunno....oh well.....I guess i am off to my bed now...k...night...night...bye...bye... 4/21/04~Oh boy am i tired, I got one of my exams tomorrow and then the other two next week, and then i am done with school till Aug. But i get to look for a job...oh joy...well i guess it is ok though, cause i will get bored as hell sitten here...lol..It seems like i have had more to do this month than i have ever had...weird...Aaron's dad is giving me alot of stress..he is a very uncareing person, I care about all people in genreal,even the ones i don't like. But i was raised as a christian and to love your neighbor as yourself..so that is what i do... I just want to say..John lets just get along...that is all i want, no more fussing...please... The boys are doing good, Aaron is crawling all over the place, he thinks he owns this place now..ha ha ha..........I ordered food from Schwan's today and dang it is good, I got a mexican pizza, and let me tell ya i will get it again, you all should try it...lol..i got some ice cream also, but i haven't tryed it yet..i will have to let ya'll know how it is....lol....Drooool...that is for you 3..... Oh i can't wait till friday...well actually next friday, cause then it will all be over..maybe i won't be as stressed...Oh gosh i have lost my mind, i was driving today and i forgot whith was the gas and the brake, i had a major brain fart.....lol...well i guess i am going to go to bed now.. night. . .night...bye...bye.... 4/25/04~ Well had a bad weekend! Got in a fuss with my boyfriend, Don't guess things are going to well. Wish there was something i could do, but i have realized that there isn't, it is out of my hands! Oh well.... Felt like i was having a heart attack this weekend..lol...well i am still here so i guess i am ok. Welp this is the last week of school, exams this week. I'm not sure if i am ready for them, but i will try my best. I guess it is time to start looking for a job. Well don't guess i have much else to say, i am alittle down! I am going to bed...night..night..bye..bye..... 5/3/04~ Well ain't posted in a while, been busy...Got all my exams over with and got one of my grades, Math B...not to bad! I had a pretty good weekend, the ol boyfriend was pretty nice to me...weird...huh...lol...But some things aren't good, i am not going to see him for like over 3 weeks, that ain't cool at all...well i guess it will make us or break us, we haven't really spent alot of time apart, but we got the phone..oh well...we'll see!! Well i am going to school during the summer, shew i just want to get it all over with and get me a good job...lol....And dangit i need a washer and dryer :( dangit, i really do...lol...Took alittle drive this weekend...way back in the hill of VA...ha ha ha, hey you told me to drive so i did, and i told you to tell me when to turn around and you didn't so i just kept on going.....lol...it was fun though...better than sitten doin nothing...Well me and Christy went out for a while today, Went and ate at Cracker Barrell it was so so so good..yum...yum.... Welp i am going to start going to the gym, work off some of these rolls...ha ha ha...The kids are doing good, driving me crazy as usual...lol...Aaron is tryin to walk, lord and he just learned to craw, he is in a hurry i guess...lol...well i am going to go...later...bye...bye.... 5/6/04~Shew what a long day, I am so so tired....I mowed my parents yard, then pulled weeds, and then cleaned out there huge closet.. then took out the trash, which was alot, then after all that i went to the gym, and worked out...shew i am beat! Well I am going to bed..Night..Night...Bye...Bye.... 5/9/04~HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!! Well,i didn't do much today, just stayed home and relaxed with my boys. Well John almost brokemy neck friday night,lol..no more heads flyin into the couch...it don't feel that great...snap snap snap is all i heard and then i felt the pain...i thought it was broke, but i think i just stubed it up real good...i have been keepin ice on it and it is doing better.... it was my fault, i was horseing around...he he he.... But heck i found out that i have to get hurt to hear those 3 little words...ha ha ha..j/k Anyways, I had a pretty good weekend,had a yard sale at my moms and only made $30 but i got to spend time with her so that was nice, and then my hunny came over friday and sat night for a while, i was glad that you got off early, and thank you for the card.... And Travis i like your new bike...and i love you Misty.. yea us...GYM!...lol...we will lose weight, and look hot...ha ha ha..ok i will keep dreaming....ha ha ha.Oh yeah got a B in spread sheets class..dang christy you lucky girl you got the A.... Welp i am going to the gym tomorrow, and i am going to stick to this..i have promised myself that i will...ha ha ha...Humm hummm 3 you to busy now for you little ol drooly friend..well go figure, that is ok i will just talk to myself.....ha ha ha..thats ok....Well i need to go put some ice on my neck now, it is hurting again. I love you John!..welp..nighty...night...bye....bye.... 5/16/04~Hum well i have been going to the gym and i have changed my diet, and i feel better than i have in years, i havn't ate fast food or junck food in almost 2 weeks. well i feel like i have a long distance relationship with my man and that is sad cause we live in the same city...hum well, not sure what is goin on. Well i start school this week, Yea...ha ha ha....well it won't be to bad, i had a 2 week break. lol,,, I watched a scary movie all by myself last night, lol...i was so bored last night,it sucked.. I feel very alone these days, sometimes i just sit out on the steps at my apartment and think dang this sucks i am talkin to myself...lol.... Misty i am glad that you are staying thursday and then going to Gatlinburg wed, we will have fun... Your such a sweetie pooh, i love you... I hate seeing these people in real relationships, kinda like my neighbors they don't know how lucky that they have it!!! Dangit i need alittle bit of something.... Austin's daddy will be back next month, he is so excited, he misses him so much. My boys are what keeps me going these days. I wish my sister was normal!! My dad went to the doctor the other day and they doubled his meds, i am so worried about him these days, i have alot of stress but no one really knows the way i feel.... i need to do something.... not sure what.... Well i gotta go clean alittle...laters taters...bye....bye.... 5/17/04~Save a horse, ride a cowboy...ha ha ha...ok! Well went and did laundry today at the redneck laundry mat....hell i think my clothes smelt better going into that place than coming out, there are like 6 people in there smoking the whole time.....the only part of the place that is non smokeing is where the dryers are...well that don't help much...lol...oh well..ha ha ha...welp went to the gym and worked out today, and then drove around for a little while and then went home. yea fun!! there is so much to do in this wonderful town. hum i am not sure why i get fussed at so much, i don't even know when i do something wrong, dang.... I think that i like to joke around to much and some people take me to seriously.."i sorry"..but oh well...well time to go to sleep..nighty...night...bye....bye.... 5/19/04~Well i had a good time today , went to Gatlinburg with my best friend and did some good ol shoping, I had a great time, thanks!!! Then hurryed home and went to school at 6pm, I Had medical Term class...I think i am going to like it, but gosh there are some long crazy words to remember in there. Well i don't have very much to say today,so i am going to bed...nighty...night...bye....bye.... 5/24/04~Well spent the whole day with John, well most of the day. I had a great time, i really liked the farm and driving your truck..lol..and the cows were so cute....lol...Oh yeah and i am really glad that you aren't gettin a job far away and leaveing me...ha ha ha ha.. I am glad that you took the day off...And i want to say that i am sorry, very sorry, for the way i acted...i was wrong and i admitt it!! I am ready to put all the fussing, and problems into the past and look forward.. I have had a major anger problem lately, alot of it is cause of my sister and other family problems, but there isn't ever a good excuse to treat people that you love bad..so there is going to be a change!! for the better!!..lol...Well i gotta go to the redneck laundy mat tomorrow, yea... oh how fun it will be......lol...I hate that place...Oh gosh thanks for the new bed..i am so happy no more back pain in the mornings..yea!! Travis ..I hope that you had a wonderful Birthday!! And i hope that you liked what i got ya...lol..bling...bling....ha ha ha..Sheww i ain't been to the gym in like 5 days, i need too..lol..i will be ther tomorrow, workin my big but off, i hope!! lol....he he he...Well i am off to bed now...night...night...bye...bye... 5/26/04~~TORNADO HITS BLOOMINGDALE~~ that is what it said on the front page of the paper, and guess where i live...yep..Bloomingdale!!! Well thank god i wasn't here when it hit, cause i am terrified of storms anyways.. i was at the gym, but after we left we came up bloomingdale to go to my apt, and oh my gosh it was awful..the worst i have ever seen. It was like something that you see on tv..roofs blown off all the trees down and up rooted.. street lights gone ...well we saw them on up the road shattered into little peices....the schools got the worst part of it, all the windows broke out and part of the elementry school was distroyed...gosh it was so sad to see all that ..there were power lines in the road......Shewww.....it was just bad!!! ....... Me and the boys went and stayed with my parents... I didn't have any electricity....but it is back on now, but i am still with out cable...but i think i will live..lol...Well i gotta go clean all the ruined food out of my frige...i guess i need to go to the store and get some more too...shewww it supose to storm more, gosh i hope it don't...lol...well later taters...... 6/1/04~shewww i know that i can be a nagging bossy smartass sometimes, but that is just me, love me or leave me is all i have to say. No one is perfect we all have our falts.. And trust me all you all do too!!! Life is stressful!!! But Anyways...Gosh i am tired of being woke up everynight by rain thunder and lightning...it is not cool..lol...Well Aaron has got 4 more teeth, and i swear they poped out in like one day...he bit me on the leg though..lol..I think he will be walking very soon, i say that i can't wait, but i know once he is i will be saying gosh i wish he never learned how to walk...lol...but that is how it goes with babies...been there and done that before...sheww i am starteing to feel old.....Sheww my medical terminology class is so hard.. i am working on it every single day, it is driving me crazy... yea guess where i get to go tomorrow, yep the redneck laundry mat....fun..fun...fun...lol..hey but the got the air conditioner working so that is a plus...ha ha ha...oh well.. i am off to bed now..nighty..night...bye...bye... 6/3/04~Hum, I am alittle hurt by what some one didn't say....... No wait i am really hurt...My heart seems to be breaking,......" With out you, there would be no sun in the sky"....ok there would be, but i don't think i would enjoy being with out you..... I wish that we could actually talk but it doesn't seem to ever work...i guess that is probably a bad thing when you can't talk to someone, but i want to find a way to understand each other....... I know it can be done, if we want it to work..And i do!!!!!!.................anyways....on the other hand, I had a good day, I kept Austin home today and we went out and spent time together, it is the first time that it has just been me and him since Aaron was born, he is such a good big brother i think he needs to be rewarded. He helps me so much, i am so blessed!! I sometimes forget how wonderful my life is, i am blessed to have such a wonderful family, I am missing a few things, but i know that they will come my way, soon... This year is flying by, where is all the time going, it is crazy.. Well i start my other classes next week, shew i am not ready for them at all...ah i will be ok though, well it is time for bed...nighty...night...bye...bye....... 6/10/04~Busy..Busy...Busy..with all my school crap and the kids...sheww i should have took the summer off, but i am one semester closer than i would have been, so it will all be good!!! I got very mad today, boy was my blood boiling!! But i am ok now, i cooled down. But i tell ya what, one of these days someone is going to hit the wrong nerve and i tell ya they are going to get it... But anyways...i just wonna be stress free...lol....yeah right ...ha ha ha ha.....I just want a good man and a future and a wonderful life...but i will just keep on dreaming...well i kinda have one of those things, but the future thing don't go with it, so..i dunno what i am going to do about that...lol...just keep on drifting along...soon...soon...soon.....it will all come together....I hate spoiled brats!! and mean people!!! Oh and some people need to grow up!! You know when you get older you supose to make a life for yourself..but i guess some people want to stay the same...i dunno...weird....welp, it is night night time for me...nighty..night..... 6/14/04~ I just don't understand how someone can just break my heart into a million peices!! It hurts, it really hurts!!! My dreams are shattered and my hopes are gone!! The way i look at the future now is empty, and of course with out you!!! You have made that clear.... I don't understand it all, and guess i never will, but you will realize one day, what you have missed out on in life.....It is funny how i don't give those people ( that do want a future with me) the time of day. But then i spend a year and a half with someone who doesn't want a future with me... Ya know i guess the only one to blame is me, myself and I..., for letting myself think that there might be more and to keep holding on and hopeing, and praying!!! It is like i need someone to smack me around and wake me up...Well enough about that, i am learning as i go.....Shewww weeee....These kids are wearing me down, i feel so old....Austins daddy will be back in alittle over a week, he will be here for 2 weeks then he is off again..Austin is so excited, he misses him so much!! Well i am tired think i will hop into bed now, and not dream about the wonderful life that i thought that i would have one day...hell i will just dream about dale jr. .......... ..lol.......ha ha ha ha ha..or should i say ah ah ah ah.....lol....nighty...night.... 6/15/04~ Thank you, sometimes i need to hear that everything will be, ok!! It is nice to have friends that care so much.... your a sweetie.. Well i had a crazy time with my hair, ok everyone is going to laugh at me, yes i love UT but i don't think i should have turned my hair orange..lol...it was an accident, i didn't mean to..lol...but i fixed it ..lol...it is brown again, thank god.. i was alittle worried...ha ha ha...i am alittle crazy sometimes..lol..it was a case of hair coloring gone bad...real bad...he he he...shewww weee, thank ya misty for the supper it was yum, yum... and dangit i really didn't know it was Kitchen Fresh Chicken...lol..still don't beleive you all... well i am in a much better mood, now...and i am glad, no need to worry anymore...well i gotta get in bed..nighty...night.... 6/16/04~ (Sometimes you find out that you was never really that important, that what you did, didn't really help or have any effect) I am so confused... and really hurt these days .... i dunno what else to say.... Welp it is about time for a new page, i am tired of this ol dark page, i need some light in my life..i need something...lol... i prayed... so it is just time to wait, and see what happens..... well gotta get in bed, got class in the morning..nighty..night...bye...bye.... 6/20/04~ HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!! I had a pretty good weekend, Not much stress came my way. I got like 4 tests this week, and i am not sure how that is going to go....WOW John, we got along all weekend...lol...I am suprised...i am glad though, very glad! But i guess it comes and goes with us......I love ya....Shewwww i am so sleepy, Aaron got up at 6 this morning...i just wasn't ready to get up..... Well gotta go work on school stuff...bye...bye.... |