| kids don't like to share #9 |
buried alive. is this real or this a dream. it seems like i crossed the line of reality and make believe. i see nothing as my eyes are glued shut. as much as i feel the need of having my eyes as a second option. i feel a dedication towards them as i need them more than ever before. my wrist are sore with a pain i've grown to accept. so i kept the rope on as my flesh peels with blood escaping from my skin. i've been tring to scream as loud as i can for the last hour. as my blood that remains feels sour like it's poisoned with liquid drano. i still don't know what you are doing to me. as i keep telling myself maybe this is what i deserve today. my mind is slowly fading away as i hear worms crawling underneath the dirt. my whole body hurts as i am covered with bruises and soon to be scars. i hope i fall far enough to run out of breath. as my inevitable death is reaching toward my very soul. my body is turning cold as i feel my last breath fading away. i lay here as i can't move myself enough to yell for help. i felt my body decomposing as i stay here. i fear the ropes around my wrists and ankles are too tight. i can't fight as i begin to accept the fact that i am going to die. it is hard to try and lie when you are buried alive. as i ask myself why i feel alone i accept the fact that this coffin is now my home. tonight. i see it your eyes as i feel it in your bones. the reflection in you mirror keeps you alone. as you struggle to hold onto everything you missed. it hurts me to see you live like this. some attemps on your life had been made. as a tear falls silently, the realization of all your scars won't ever fade. with every second of your life you seem to lose a little faith. as it seems to kill you inside everytime you wake up for anothre day. so you lose yourself in boredom and self mutilation. trying to bleed out all the pain of your depression. you're getting drunk enough to blind yoursel from the world today. as you try to drink your apathy away. you're losing sight for tonight might be the night. you're losing hope on life giving up on the fight. your vision is getting darker than ever before. crushing your face into the very same mirror even more. now your reflection shows you in a distorded view. nothing new as your emotions overpowered you. refreshing red blood falls from scars awakening for the first time in there brand new life. a long overdue smile in your reflection from a sense of feeling as a new beginning starts tonight. forever worth the wait. it's been a long time since i've been waiting. waiting for the day you come back. back to my lonely arms thats sick of holding onto air. air that we breathed in the night you left. left out in the rainand i'm drenched with confusion. confusion on if or when you will return. return back to my grasp that will never let go this time around. around the clock is when i'm thinking of you because i will always count down the seconds until you're here. here to stay by my side today. today might be the last day to wait for you. you will have to tell me maybe, no or yes. yes ans no i can understand buti can't rely on a maybe. maybe isn't an answer i can depend on. on and on the days keep dropping dead like my heart that only wants to hold onto anything worth waiting for. for i believe you are worth the wait tonight. tonight i will dream of us two. two more reasons just appeared in my head. head straight through the night as i'll be here when you wake up tomorrow. tomorrow seems like it is forever. forever is only worth waiting for if i know in my soul you will return. return back and revive a heart that died the day you left. left me here alone for all i can do now is wait. wait for you to come back so i can breathe again. |
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