| koriru (learn by experience). how do you know what you can or can't do? if you sit on your ass for your whole life you have to go out and do what you feel like doing. in life there are things you need to know to survive. you have to learn by going out. you will get hurt, get rejected. you will feel alone and you will feel used. thats what you need to know in life. these things help you because if you don't what it feels like. how do you know when you are getting stepped on , being taken advantage of. and how will you know how to stop people from using you. their is something in life you need to know and do. and things you will need to learn. that no school, no books, no teacher. there is nothing that will teach you these things. you will just to figure it out on your own. learn by experience. vacant. i need a place to go. a place to hide. a place to find a reason to make me come back. i need a place to fit in. a place to feel like i belong. the only place i want to go is in my mind. i'll still be here, but then again i wont. so i want to vanish. i want to fade away. i want to non-exist. i want to disapppear. i want people not to know me. maybe i wont be bothered. maybe i wont be used. maybe i wont be teased. maybe i wont be let down. no one knows me, and that is what i want. not to be noticed. just some guy, that other person, um, you know that person we saw before, but we forgot his name. just an extra in a movie. take the picture, not in the picturesl. another face in the crowd. in a world that does not want me. somedays, sometimes i want to be vacant. clueless people are taking over. as if is what they say. to pass the day, when things don't go their way. spoiled brats with credit cards. running to their parents when life gets to hard. 7 mansions in the hills. life is really that hard when daddy's paying the bills. fancy cars, armani suits, i'm going to laugh hard when your parents give you the boot. it's really funny when you try to make it in this world. when you feel like a loser, i'll be laughing my ass off when you're flipping burgers. money in your pocket books, don't care about the future just your looks. driving around in your brand new benz. by the money in their banks, you make your friends. living the life, having a ball. spending your time shopping at the mall. from your parents hard working jobs. you still act like retarded slobs. getting everything you need. music, movies and mtv. made for t.v. movies and beverly 90210. they own the world and everywhere they go. race breeding, money power, futuristic guides. laughing at the poor world with there million dollar lives. tori can't act for shit, but her father owns the show so it's a hit. she got the job because she works hard, not. she got the job because her dad is the boss. a million dollar bank account. got their whole life mapped out. so what is it all about. clueless people are taking over. downwrecked. no time to finish, no time to start again. one after another, no time for a new friend. the timing was off, never getting it right. waste not want not. the day turns into night.lost for words, gagging on the truth. words of wisdom, i will never hear it from you. misery seeks the pain. it is always too late. the answers always the same. the changing of your faith. nothing will come back, your're reliving the same scene. never had what you thought you had. your life was just a dream. everyone thinks you are standing on the edge. no one saw you take a step away from the ledge. you tell people what they want to hear. your dreams of the future is going nowhere. the downward spinning in an unmentioning motion. you're drinking away with an unwanting potion. but their is happiness in the pain. cause it's been with you for so long. you seek comfort in the emptiness. not knowing why it is wrong. heading down the hall with the loneliness still inside. knowing in your heart you can never hide. you dream of the past, when the happiness is all around. remembering the memories, but you still don't know you are falling down. once you crossed that line, their is no turning back. now you know you are going nowhere fast. |
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