| kids dont like to share #1 |
| le nouveau monde. moving to a different place. moving out, moving away, moving on. going somewhere where you don't know anyone. you're leaving everyone you know. the place where you are at got boring, got tired, got old. you need to search around. the whole world is out there. going to all the different places to meet all the different people. and this is what i need right now. my life is so dull, that i need something new in it. i want to move on. i am the kind of person that needs to get of this island. a nice place to visit, shitty place to live for eighteen years. in california or anywhere in america you can drive for days without seeing something you saw before. and that is what i want. some people like living all their life in the same place, thats not me. i have to live my life the way i want to or i haven't lived the life i want to live. put your faith in something else. you say that you get judged by everything you say and do. learning how to throw away all the things they gave to you. knowing it wasn't right you said it everyday. taking it all back everything you gave away. you have a new way of understanding things you can't deny. so many different reasons some you had to try. you're sick of living a lie not knowing how to laugh. but you know dreams will never last. throwing it all away finding another time. believing in someone is very hard to find. when your time is coming to a disappointing end. knowing in your fucked up life it'll happen again. i'm sick of living up a let down when nothing can be found. but knowing in my heart things will never come around. every single person has to have faith. something to live for in a world full of hate. so put your faith in something else. so put your faith in yourself. i want something better to believe in. ignorant beliefs, a way to live. why can't i choose what i want to believe in. for many there is a religion, a god to come down and save the day. an army, to make up a future for you, to fight there war. people believe in things just because they want someone to save them. someone to be guidance in their life. someone to help them find the good life. to me there is no good life. nothing will save you, except yourself. no one except you can help yourself. believing in what you see and read, but what you see can always be brought up to be nothing but a lie. and a word is what someone else thinks. what someone else believes in. believe in what you want to. i want something better to believe in. idiotic values. remembering back then, will it happen again. the time we had, it wasn't that bad. it was so weak, lasting a couple of weeks. two weeks i couldn't forget, all that time i"ll never forget. you knew it was over before you gave me a chance, and without a second glance. i knew you liked me three months before we went out, you knew who i was, i still don't know what you're about. having your friend break us up for you, you were probably scared too. i know now what i missed, i was another person on your list. going to your house after school, i never knew what to do. i let you down more than you let me down, i never gave you a reason to come around. waiting two years later to talk once again, asking if i was maf back back then. i felt happy that you still cared, it meant a lot. walking and talking, i know now what you thought. will you still hate me tomorrow? yelling, screaming, shouting. why are you angry at me? you say i'm nothing. you say you're better than me. who the fuck do you think you are. you rule, i suck, you're right, i'm wrong. so why are you so fucking better than me. you think just because your friends are all around you and i am all alone, that you're so tougher than i am. just because you have your friends backing you up. you think it's right to tease me because i don't want to fit in to your stupid little world. i really don't fucking care about being popular. so you proceed to call me names. and sure it hurts but what what can i do. even if i try to step up to you, you have your friends watching your back. and i am always outnumbered. so i do nothing about it. so when i'm with my friends and you walk by you do absolutely nothing. you just put your head down and walk the other way. and do i tease you when you walk by, no i don't. because i'm not that kind of person like how you are. a stupid fucking person who cares more about being cool and fitting in and being superior to some person who could careless about you and your petty way of living. |
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