| Luke smiled at the site in the backseat of the car. Kaylee and Kevin were both asleep...heads touching...and hands held. He hoped he wouldn't scare them. They were in Kaylee's driveway...and he needed to get them inside. "Kevin....c'mon buddy...wake up," he gently nudged his boss. "Awake...yeah...I'm awake," he mumbled as he tried to sit up and focus. She came into his line of sight and he smiled. "Hey beautiful," he whispered into her hair, "we're here. Gotta move this party into the house now...c'mon." He kissed the top of her head and she lifted up her face to his. "Wow....was I asleep very long?" Kevin chuckled as he gently pulled her from the car. "Baby, you could hang with me when it comes to sleepin'....you didn't need too long to fall asleep on me....my company must be really exciting." He hugged her close to him, as she opened the front door. Luke did a quick check of the street, and followed them in. Luke remained standing with his bag as Kevin tossed his to the floor. "Where ya want me Kaylee," he asked. "Hmmm...Luke...you come along with me...you'll sleep in the extra bedroom," she motioned up the steps. Turning around she realized Kevin was following her right up the stairs. "Kevin," she stopped him with a hand on his chest. "you stay down here. I'm going to show Luke upstairs to his room..then I'll be back down to deal with you." Kevin stood, with his mouth open, as he watched Kaylee lead Luke up the stairs. "Stay here.....Luke's room.....back down for you.....for ME..deal with ME, his voice rising. "What the hell did I miss," he asked outloud to no one, as he plopped himself on the couch. "Well...look here would'ya. ME and the couch......," he patted the cushion next to him. "Yep...gettin' to know couches real good. I guess I'm sleepin' on the couch....AGAIN...me...me and the couch. Damn...." After getting Luke settled, Kaylee stopped in her room to change, and headed for the steps. What she heard made her stop in her tracks. "Oh my God," she whispered as she clutched her hand over her mouth. She took a few more steps down and stole a look in the direction of his voice. This is good, she thought, sitting on the steps, biting her finger to keep from laughing outloud. "Yeah Kev...she'll be back down to deal with you...uh huh...here's a pillow...gee thanks....how's about a blanket...naw...don't need one....well...maybe I do...I obviously ain't HOT enough...," he continued to mumble, unaware of his audience on the steps. Kaylee put her face in her hands, laughing so hard that tears were falling now. If he only knew how hot I really think he is, she thought. "People magazine would LOVE this now wouldn't they....sexiest popstar alive makes habit of sleeping on couches......" Kaylee heard some shuffling and when she snuck a peek through her fingers, her breath caught in her throat. Good God! At some point during his rantings, Kevin had slipped his tee shirt off, tossed it on the floor, and was now standing and unbuttoning the top button of his jeans, mumbling the entire time. She gasped When he heard the gasp, he slowly turned around. BUSTED With cat-like ease, Kevin quickly crossed the room and was now standing at the bottom of the steps. His chin down, he looked up at her from under a thick mass of hair, not saying a word. His eyes never breaking contact with hers as he slowly and deliberately climbed the steps toward her. When he was close enough, he bent down and placed his hands on the step, one on each side of her. His face so close to hers, she could feel his breath on her face. God help me....I want to run my hands all over him...crap He gently pressed his lips to hers...a sweet, tender kiss. "Do I at least get a pillow, baby girl," he asked, his voice deep .. his words a whisper against her lips. She looked into his eyes, and ran her fingers through his hair. She sighed deeply while questioning her sanity at that very moment...but there was one answer..only one..... "Yes....," her voice soft... her hands shaking as she touched his shoulders, "you can have mine." His eyes widening, not sure he understood. She braced her hands against his shoulders and slowly stood up... holding her hand out to him. He pulled back, tilting his head to the side, as he looked from her face to her outstretched hand. "C'mon...let's go upstairs," was all she said, as she took his hand and lead him up the steps. "Wait," he stopped..dropping her hand. He turned and ran down the steps to grab his duffel bag. As he started back up the steps he looked at her standing at the top .. waiting for him. She had on a pair of shorts...short shorts...and a matching tank top. She had pulled her hair up and off her face. He sighed deeply. Her beautiful face...she truly is beautiful...genuine...not put on...not fake. She laughs at me...and with me, he thought. She makes me laugh and smile...alot. She cares about me, Kevin Richardson...and dammit to hell...I do think I love her. So why are you standing here, looking at her...get the hell up there jackass. Taking the steps two at a time, Kevin grabbed her hand again, "let's go." Kaylee led him into her room and then sat on the edge of the bed, watching him. She watched him move around her room .. wanting to pinch herself. Everytime she looked at him her heart did backflips. How could one man be this beautiful. His face...his hair...and that body. She blushed and thought back to the very first night she saw him on the street. Yep...from where I'm sitting right now..., she thought, that's one damn great body. Kevin studied her room. He saw the pictures of her mom...pictures of her and Ali. His heart ached when he saw the picture of them...the picture that Jeff had ripped. He had wanted to cry when she told him what happened. There were pictures of him performing....pictures of them together...and his tour schedule with red x's and a little countdown over each completed date. He smiled and looked back at her...catching her watching him with a strange look on her face. "Umm...guess I better change," suddenly feeling very shy and awkward. "Yeah....ok...," she stammered, flustered that she had been caught staring at him...again..., "the bathroom is right over there," she pointed to a door next to the bed. Kevin disappeared into the bathroom and came out about 5 minutes later, in nothing but a pair of UK shorts, with his hair pulled back into a ponytail. "Sorry...most of my clothes are with the wardrobe people being cleaned...and...it usually isn't a problem cause......I normally sleep.....," he started to blush. "Yes darlin'...I know you normally sleep...you're a damn good sleeper," she giggled, "so why you blushin' handsome?" "Because...woman...I was going to say," his voice deep, "I normally sleep in the nude." "Oh," was all she managed to "squeak" out, as she watched him look around the room. Shit...shit....shit....he's all legs......SHIT! This was not a good idea....... He smiled as he reached into his duffel bag and took out matches. He walked over to her dresser, lighting the candles that were there, and then proceeded to light all the candles she had in her room. The scent of vanilla softly floated through the room, as he walked toward the bed. Kaylee stood to watch him, as he pulled the comforter down and folded it at the foot of the bed. He climbed onto the bed, and reached down to where Kaylee appeared to be frozen. "C'mon...I won't bite," he whispered. Kaylee took his hand and as she scooted up the bed toward him, he laid back onto the pillows, pulling her down with him. Kevin turned onto his side, and propped himself up on his elbow, his head in his hand. "Kaylee...baby........I need to know something....in the car......," his voice becoming softer, as he gently brushed his knuckles over her cheek. "Did you really hear what I said," he asked, "I mean....really hear me." She studied his face and stared deeply into his eyes. This was a night for remembering...she remembered the night they said good bye in the hotel..... "Look at these eyes....I can't hide anything. I never could. They give me away at every turn. Don't matter what I try to do or say.......they give me away." He wasn't playing games...his eyes were very serious. "Yes...yes Kevin...I heard you...I heard what you said...and I meant what I said...." He let out the breath he'd been holding, as he ran his fingers through her hair. He bent his head to her, as he placed a light kiss on the top of her head...keeping his face in her hair. "Kaylee....," he swallowed hard and continued, "as soon as the tour's done...I want to take you to Kentucky...to my house....where Kevin Backstreet disappears and I'm just Kevin Richardson...Ann and Jerald's boy. I want you to see where I'm from...I want to share this part of my life with you...I want....," he stopped suddenly, overcome with emotion, his eyes filling with tears. Kaylee pulled her head back to look at him. She gently caressed his face as she struggled to keep control of her own emotions, wanting him to keep talking. "Go on baby...I'm listening," she said softly as she placed her hand on his cheek...her eyes searching his face. He let out a big breath and continued. "I thought I knew my feelings before.....but I didn't. I almost made the biggest mistake of my life. I should thank Trish for turnin' me down....she saved me from a marriage that would've never worked...hell, she's the reason I'm laying next to you right now. In her own way...she showed me what love really is.....," the tears sliding down his cheeks. As he reached up to brush away his tears, Kaylee took his hand in hers and then gently wiped his tears with her other hand, "Kevin....sshh...," she said softly. He wrapped his arms around her tightly...pulling her close to him...tucking her head under his chin. "My heart ...do you feel that...can you feel how my heart is beating? YOU are the reason it's beating again. You're in there, baby. You made my heart come back to life...you made it wake up to what's real," his voice becoming just a bit steadier. "When I go back home with you Kaylee...I'm not just physically bringin' you home....I'm bringin' our hearts home. Yours......and mine.....they're going home.....together." Overcome with emotions, Kevin was unable to continue. They held each other close...exchanging gentle touches and whispered promises. When Kevin finally felt able to continue, he placed his finger on her chin and lifted her face to his. "We'll be together in every way....you understand that, right? You know what I want....I want all of you...mentally...emotionally......," he sighed, "and physically.....that is when we'll be home Kaylee." He tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, kissed her nose then let out a deep breath before continuing.... Go for it Kevin.......now it's right......tell her "Kaylee....do you trust me...us?? Do you trust this?" "You know I do Kevin...nothing in my life has ever felt so right...nothing. You mean the world to me...you've made me feel things I never felt before, too. Why are you asking me this? Can't you tell how I feel..." Kevin pulled her close again...wrapping his arms and legs around her .. wrapping her in his love. "Don't say a word ...," he whispered into her ear, his breath sending shivers through her body. "I want to say this again while I'm sure you're awake." She nodded her head...waiting. "Kaylee...when we get to Kentucky...if you'll let me...I'm gonna make love to you with my whole heart and soul," he took a deep breath, "....you see...God help me.....I'm falling in love with you." Kaylee felt her heart pounding in her chest. Those words...the words she hoped to hear...she dreamed of hearing. He laid his heart out for her...all she had to do now was take it. She could feel him trembling..or was that her? "Kevin....," she pulled her head back to look at him..his eyes were closed. "Sssh..not a word...not now..." "Yes...now....open your eyes," her voice a shaky whisper. When he did, she saw the vulnerability there. "these eyes......they give me away" "Your eyes...they're so beautiful Kevin," she whispered as she gently placed a kiss on each eye. He let out a shaky sigh as she traced her fingers over his cheeks and along his jaw. He watched her every move. He didn't need her to say it...he could see it in her eyes...feel it in her touch..hear it in her voice. "I know you said no words..but ..," she drew in a deep breath, "do we have to wait until Kentucky...?" His eyes widened, but never broke from her gaze. "I mean....we could....we're here....right now....Kevin....I wouldn't say no this time...," her voice trailing off as she slowly kissed his lips. Slowly...gently at first....tentative...she slid her tongue along his lips. He moaned against her mouth and seperated his lips...allowing her access. To Kaylee...it was like kissing him for the first time....a transformation had occurred in both of them. Did he always taste this good? As the kiss deepened, their tongues met sending currents of electricity through them both. Deep passionate kisses....kisses to last a lifetime. He pulled her closer to him...wrapping his leg tighter around her. He rolled onto his back, gently lifting her on top of him. She felt his growing arousal as he pressed his hips to hers. He slid his hands under the back of her top, gently running his hands across her bare skin, as he slowly lifted it. "God Kaylee....," he muttered as he felt her bare skin against his chest. Her breasts pressed against him. He pulled her mouth down to his...devouring her...his kiss hungry...needy...yet demanding. If this continued, he wouldn't be able to stop. This wasn't supposed to happen ... not here ... not now....but his hips, and hands, were moving with a mind all their own as he continued to slowly move against her. And, with the way she was responding back, he knew he wouldn't be able to stop if they went much further. He opened his eyes and looked at her face. He knew that she meant what she said...she wasn't going to turn him down again. She would give herself to him right now if he continued. With an inner strength he certainly didn't know he possessed, he turned back onto his side and pulled her top back down. "What....what's wrong Kevin," she said breathlessly. "Nothing baby...nothing's wrong," he mumbled. "I just don't want to do this here....I don't want to love you and then leave in a day." He gently took her hand and placed it on his shorts. He slid her hand along his growing erection .. , "this....it's all for you," his voice husky and filled with desire. He continued to stroke her hand over him as he spoke softly................ "It has to be my way....much as I want to take you....right here....right now...to make love to you....I want you so much baby it hurts....but it would hurt more if I got to know your love....how you taste....how you feel......and then I had to leave. It wouldn't be fair to either one of us....ya know what I'm sayin?" She just nodded. She really did understand him...and as much as she wanted to feel him inside her...to taste every part of him...she understood. She wanted it the same way he did. He turned her onto her side, as he pressed his body against her back...wrapping his arms around her...and tossing one leg over her. "No more talking....just sleep now....and when we wake up," he burrowed his face in her neck...breathing in her scent, we're that much closer to goin' home." "Kevin.......I.....I know no more talking...but....you have to know...what you just said..and did...my God...I've never known anyone like you...and...I want...I mean really want to give myself to you in every way... I think I always have...from the very first moment I saw you." He pulled her tighter, knowing this was not something she said easily. He basked in the warm feelings that washed over his body. This was right...this was so right. "Sssshh....I know baby....I know...cause...see....your eyes don't lie either. And, please understand me...I don't ever want to hurt you..ever...that's why we have to wait...shit...I can't believe I am the one saying this.....," he said as he started to chuckle, "maybe I should be sleepin' on the couch." They both laughed softly as Kaylee tightened her grip on his arms, "don't you move...no more couches for you......I like you just where you are." "Oh baby....so do I........so do I." Not another word was said..as a peaceful sleep gradually fell over them both. Each of them sharing dreams of a trip to Kentucky...a trip where they truly would be 'going home'. BACK HOME NEXT |
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