Oh my god, our baby was getting to her so she had to use drugs??!! I kept asking questions about our son�s future, retardation, needs and another kind nurse, Leanne (I think was her name) said she went to get the midwife; she would be able to answer my questions better. The midwife came into the nursery. She said how pretty our son was. I thought, geez, he is laying her possibly dying and you are commenting on how pretty he is??!! My mom came in shortly afterwards; my mom said GS would like to see the baby. Was she kidding?! (She new nothing about the methaampthetamines at this point.) Let this person who I had grown to love and trusted with my most precious thing, that hurt him so badly, now she is suggesting I let her see what she was done to our son? NO WAY!! The midwife asked me questions. She asked if we honestly thought GS was a drug user? No, I would never have thought that until now, after what they had told me she had done. She said these tests come back with false positive results all the time. Herbs could have done it. Although the nurse Sally had said it couldn�t be herbs with what was showing up in the drug screen. She said they had asked GS about drug use and she admitted to having taken a prescription percocet for pain. They said that percocet wouldn�t show up in the test they did like this. So, she said they had told GS this and asked was there anything else that she had taken? She said GS had admitted to taking an herb. She said as they asked her more defining questions more information seemed to be mentioned. This was not a good sign. The nursery nurse said, if I had a good relationship with GS that perhaps I could ask her what kind of drugs she had used and for how long and this would help get a better idea of how Mitchell was doing and going to fair. The midwife said basically, I would treat this as though it is not positive. Because until they did a more accurate test in the morning we wouldn�t know for sure if/ what she had used. Okay, this made sense to me. I loved GS. My son, although having problems, looked beautiful. He did not look like what I have always imagined or have heard a �drug baby� looked like. GS is so innocent. I don�t think there is a sweeter person on the planet. She has two small children, a husband that worked on the volunteer fire dept, a sweet mom. Was she really a drug addict and her DH, mom and children sat idylly by as she used? Okay, innocent until absolutely positively proven guilty.
They finished in the nursery checking Mitchell out. My mom came back and said GS would like to see Mitchell and talk to me. I started to go and they said if I could wait one second they would be completely done with him and we could all go to her room. We walked into her room. The nurse that had been so cold was sitting there with papers spread all over GS �table asking her questions like what time the pain started, how she would have gauged the pain. She wrote in GS� paper work as GS answered the questions. She needed to rest and the nurse just kept asking her questions that seemed to us should have already been documented or really not GS� worry at this point, she needed to rest, she had just given birth. She had tons of paper there that she was writing out. GS� husband was sitting at her side. GS was in bed, sobbing. She looked like a part of her had died. When we first got to this room hours earlier I took a tummy picture for her. She looked so happy and beautiful. Now, as I saw her in the bed she sobbed and cried and the nurse to her side kept asking her questions, feeling out papers, not seeming to care and just seemed to keep picking at GS. Her eyes looked so sad. I know when you have a baby it is exhausting, but, something about her seemed to have been glazed over, killed. |
