Sorry I feel so bad at what has happened I�m sorry I wasn�t there To offer support when you needed it Oh why is life so unfair? I�m sorry that you hurt so much And wish I could have taken it away You didn�t deserve what you went through Every single awful day. The person at the end Wasn�t the Dad I knew You were so kind and caring It wasn�t really you. I�m sorry I didn�t show you Just how much you meant to me In the fourteen years I knew you You were my irreplaceable Daddy. I�m sorry that for so long I totally blocked you out of my mind I didn�t know how to cope with life And what I might find. I hope you accept my apologies I really hope you can I loved you more than anything You were such a gentle man. |
The If-Onlys So many ifs and buts Keep flying around my head Ever since the awful day that I found out you were dead. If only I had been A better daughter to you Maybe you wouldn�t have needed To do what you decided to do Or maybe I was so insignificant It wouldn�t have mattered at all Whether I existed in your life or not And you regarded me so small. But even if you did You still meant the world to me And I can�t help but think That I should have helped you see How special you were to so many And how many people cared for you Who would have only been too willing To help you if only they knew. But maybe that�s just being selfish Because we didn�t matter to you Otherwise you wouldn�t have let us Go through what we�ve had to go through. If only I had known how you were feeling What you were thinking deep inside Maybe it may help me to see How your choice was somehow justified. Because at the moment to me It makes no sense what you did I realise now what an act you were living To keep your feelings so well hid. |
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