Dad
That day you really hurt me
When you chose to end your life
But you left so many other people
Including your parents, brother, son and wife.
I don�t know how you did it to us
To inflict so much unnecessary pain
I just hope that your whole life
Wasn�t all in vain.
I hope you knew I loved you
And would have helped in any way
But I know you were too proud
And kept it hidden until that day.
Did you ever love me?
I guess I�ll never really know
You said you did quite often
But was it just a show?
Thank you Dad for spending
Fourteen wonderful years with me
You really were so special
The best Dad you could be.
I guess I just want to say
Goodbye and see you again some day
Because we never got to say it
Before you went away.
I�m not so scared of death anymore
And wherever you may be
I know that I will go there too
Just you wait and see!
Guilt
Oh Dad I feel so guilty
About all that you went through
I really hope that I
Didn�t make it worse for you.
I really am so sorry
For all the times I made you sad
I wish I hadn�t inflicted
All this on my poor Dad.
I never intended to hurt you
I hope you knew the same
But I feel so sad and guilty
Every time I hear your name.