Howdy!
well summer's almost over. jeez where has the summer gone to? it's gone by so fast! it feels like just yesterday that i was getting out of school and going to piano camp and all that. but now my brother's coming home for an 'end-of-summer' visit, i hav to start swim team, and pretty soon i'm gonna hav to start school. i SO dont wanna start school, for oh SO many reasons!!!
it kinda sux, this summer was not a great summer at all. i mean the moving thing kinda ruined it u know? sure like camp and JEL were fun, but the majority of the summer sucked. i mean, being stuck in a house for a couple months with my parents is enough to drive anyone insane. then i had to go to summer school... ugh major drag. and i've spend the entire summer just running around doing errands with my mom. grrrrrrrrrr. i hav not gone to the pool just to hang out or whatever all summer except for the one time at camp. i havnt gone to the mall with friends at all. i havnt been to a single movie. wow my life sounds like it sux duznt it? lol.
it kinda hurts tho. i mean, i'm here, no friends, nothing to do, no one to talk to face to face. all my friends r back home, running around doing normal summer stuff. it's like i'm stuck in a rut while the whole world keeps going on its merry little way. starting school's just gonna make it worse. well i'm not gonna pour out my whole depressed soul onto this page, so i will see u all laterz!
Hey yall~
wow last night was one bad night, not gonna go into details. i guess i just felt lonely, an extreme loneliness. it was scary.
today i got my hair cut. i look so bad now. stupid lady should go to haircutting school or something again. i hate shaggy haircuts. i would actually take my old hairstyle back, at least i could get that to look pretty decent most days. and it was so nice and loooong. now it's so short... *sob*
my brother's coming home day after tomorrow. for the first time, i'm actually looking forward to seeing him again. i guess there really is a truth to the story that as you get older, you get along with your siblings so much better! i dunno if he grew up or if i did, or maybe both. i just wish my parents would leave so i could b free of my mom for a lil while.
i'm being left behind..... it hurts so bad. everywhere around me there's so much change. i mean, i realize that change is a part of life, i've known that all my life. but lately, there's just been so much change, and dramatic changes at that. ppl chaging, not always for the better, friendships changing and fading, everything's changing. lol i could write a song from that probably, but i wont try now and spare u the torture. wow i just realized that i'm really putting my heart and soul out on the internet, where anyone can happen along and read them. lol bet yall reading this (esp if u dont know me) think i'm insane. ur probably not too far from the truth. lol.
Happy BDay Yoon Hee!
k gotta keep this short cuz i dont hav much room and i'm too lazy to start a new page. i'm SO tired. swim practice is so draining esp since it's at 7 AM. but 2 more days of AM practices! i had orientation today, uhhhh scary freshmen! too many lil slutty preps running around.
all my friends start school tomorrow... i cant believe it. summer's over! i looked at my ames sched that i should b going to tomorrow... its so sad cuz i'm not gonna b going to those classes in that building. i'm gonna miss running around the halls with all my friends, seeing who all would b in my classes, trying to find new cute guys, searching out ppl like andy and tyler lol, going to choir and joking around with mr linn and ms stewart... so many good times that i'll never hav. *sniffle* i mean it's not like i wont hav good times here, i already hav had some, but it's just it's high school, and i should b spending it with the ppl i care about most u know? i dunno... this kinda sux.
