hey yall!
well i'm back from camp, wow was that fun!!!!! that was like one of the best weeks of my life, i swear. i was in ames, my home, so that was awesome. i got to see my camp friends, allison and nathan, and make new ones, scott and matt. and like my ames friends visited me every night, which was awesome. i saw jenny i think every day, kathy like every day but one i think, and then i saw steph and rachael and andy at least once each. i'll get to the whole andy thin in a bit. me and allison were roommates, so that was so much fun. but the clowns were after us! the first night, we werent thinking about the clowns tho, but we just couldnt sleep cuz it was too dark and quiet. so we called the guys' room and scott brought down a cd player so we could hav noise, and it was like midnight. then the next night, the guys were talking abotu clowns, and we got scared, so nathan brought us a tv at like 2 in the morning (damn midgets lol) so we could hav noise and light. there were a lotta weird ppl there this year. 44 campers this year, almost all of them took the camp WAY too seriously. "isn't it so cool we're all obsessed with music here?" please.
andy came to my concert on friday night, and i was really looking forward to that. but i dunno, it was kinda weird being around him again, i dunno i think i'm just insane. then like i had started to like nathan, so having the 2 of them around was just weird too. but when andy left, he gave me a big hug and i almost cried cuz i realized that was the last time i'd see him for a long time and i'd kinda wasted the night not talking to him too much. *sad* but yeah, if ur reading this andy, i'm sorry i didnt talk to u more but we'll keep in touch.
after camp ended, i spent the day at jenny's house on saturday, almost fell asleep there. then i had a nice long drive back to stupid nappyville, which i slept for the entire time hehe. and yesterday, i was really sad cuz i missed everybody, and today i've been so bored. i mean i havn't been by myself in a week, and i havnt had to open my own doors for so long (thanx guys!), but now i'm all alone opening my own heavy doors. *sniffle* but good news, nathan likes me back. and now we're seeing each other, or in my vocab, dating, and all that is really messed up and it makes me confused. (nathan if ur reading this stop laughing at me) i get confused really easily.
all in all, the week went by WAY too fast, and i havn't even mentioned some stuff, like our gay counselor. haha that was amusing but disturbing. AWAPN! i miss camp and ames and yeah i'm gonna go cry. maybe. *sniffle*
hey yall~
wow today was a crazy day. i went to sleep really late last night, i just wasnt tired u know? so i went to sleep at like 1 or 2, but then we got our new fridge delivered this morning. wow those ppl were loud. so they woke me up. then my parents decided to keep being immature lil brats for the rest of the day. *sigh*
so the thought for today is, y is life so unfair? especially in the relationship area. i mean, my first relationship was a long distance one. that was kinda screwed up. but like with nathan, i finally find a guy i like who likes me back, and we can just chill and hav fun. but of course, he cant live anywhere close to me. argh. and like allison cant hav her guy where she lives either, he lives about 3 horus away from her. and kathy's guy is a few hours away, not sure how many tho. whats up wit this? Y CANT THEY JUST PUT THE GUYS NEAR THE GIRLS?! lol.
i'm in a weird mood today. i'm tired (thanx delivery ppl) and i'm bored and my parents r getting on my nerves, as usual. ooh saw a beautiful mind last night... good movie, but its kidna creepy. now i'm starting to wonder whats real in my life and if anythings just like made up in my head. and i read shadow people the other day. that is a very disturbing book!!! if any of u r gonna read it, i won't ruin the end for ya, but when i closed the book, i was baffled. haha funny word. and yeah, another book i got recently is conversations with god for teens. now this book made me think! i mean after u get past the is this really a convo with God? thing, its really thought-provoking. makes u ponder life in a whole new light...
