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Loves Lies Chapter 3 Ashley rolled over and glanced at the clock after rubbing her eyes. She jumped at the sound of the phone ringing. "Shit, who could that be?" she asked herself aloud and quickly picked it up. "Hello?" she asked hoping on everything that it wasn't Nick. "Ash, where the hell have you been girl? I've been calling you like all week." A voice let out. She soon recognized who it was and sighed. "Hey Emily, I've been around. What's up?" she stated trying to sound happy like nothing was wrong. She didn't want to talk about it right now and she knew that if she even hinted around that something was wrong that Emily would go on and on about it and not let it go until she knew every little thing about what happened with her and Nick. Her and Emily had been inseparable since they were about two years old. They had grew up together and were best friends. They told each other everything literally. Ashley felt kind of bad not telling her at first but soon let the feeling go away because she knew it wasn't like she wasn't going to tell her ever, it just wasn't going to be right this second if she could help it. She knew she just needed a little more time to try and get over this as much as she could. She just had to try her best to get over the fact that Nick and their relationship was gone and never would she ever be with him again even though she wanted to be so bad. She longed for his arms around her since she left that night. Now a week later and nothing had changed. She thought that if she just stayed away from him that maybe her feelings for him would just go away even though she knew that wouldn't happen. Sure he sent flowers and candy but she just couldn't accept them. He called so many times but she never had the nerve to call him back. She would just let it ring then he'd always leave a message and never on not one did he not say that he loved her. Does he love me? She was so confused. He even came over once and that was a total nightmare in the making. All she could do was sit there and stare out the window watching him cry, crying herself, and wander what she was supposed to do and what the right thing to do now was. Her thoughts soon ended when Emily spoke up. "Ash? Hello? Are you still there?" she asked not knowing what was going on and a little frustrated by then. "Yeah, sorry about that, I..." she said finally breaking herself away from her thoughts. "Ashley, what's wrong?" she asked cutting her off with a lot of concern and sincerity in her voice. "Nothing, nothing at all, why do you ask?" she replied trying to sound convincing but knew that it wouldn't work, she was not the kind of person that would let you get away with a lie at all. Emily was good at being able to tell those kinds of things too especially when it came to Ashley. "Ash I know you and when something's wrong I can tell. You know you can't lie to me. Did something happen? Everything ok with you and Nick? Are you fighting with your parents? What? You know you can tell me." She asked so many questions without even waiting for replies, she just wanted to know what was wrong. "Em, can we not talk about it please, I mean I'll tell you everything later ok? It's just that I don't really feel like talking about it right now." Ash replied sounding helpless and hurt and surprisingly after all the sleep she had gotten since everything happened really tired. "Ash you know I'm here but if you don't want to talk about it now that's fine. I mean I wish I could say that I understand and that everything would be ok but if I don't know what's going on then I can't even begin to try to help out." She said hurt and confused like her friend didn't trust her with telling her about it. "Hey Ash? I'm sorry I just wanted to help." She quickly added in. "No Em, listen I'm sorry ok? You really want to know what's going on? I'll tell you. ok well...who the hell knows where my parents are, I mean they didn't even leave a note or anything about where they went or when they would be back. They've been gone about a week now and no phone call or nothing but that isn't even nothing compared to the real problem. Me and Nick..." she started and trailed off as the tears began to fall hard. "Ash I'm really sorry, you don't have to tell me anything I'm just gonna go. You don't want to talk to me about it so I won't keep you from anything. I mean I'm not going to sit here and talk to someone that doesn't want to talk to me. Call me if you ever actually want to talk to me." She said kind of getting angry towards the last words and hung up before Ashley could say anything. "Damnit first Nick and now my best friend, why is this happening to me?" She let out sadly still crying. "Ash you can do this, you have to get over this. I know, Emily can't resist shopping." She said to herself and picked up the phone to dial Emily back. After two rings Emily answered. "White residence." She said. "Em, listen don't hang up just listen ok?" Ashley said shakily. "No really I'm sorry I over reacted like that, it's fine that you don't want to talk about it. I mean I heard how upset you were and me pushing you to tell me like that couldn't have helped you any at all." Emily replied sorry she had acted like that. "Well, I just don't know if I'm ready to talk about it yet because I'm just doing everything I can to get over it right now as much as I can but enough about my problem of a life, want to go to the mall?" she asked quickly changing the subject. "Shopping? You know me too well. I'll be at your house in about a half an hour, is that fine?" she asked sounding cheerfully. "Perfect, see ya then." "Bye!" Ash hung up and quickly picked out something comfortable to wear and headed for the shower. Maybe shopping will get my mind off everything, at least I hope it will, she thought.Nick just sat there staring at AJ and Kathy kissing. He was so pale, and looked like he hadn't slept in years. No one knew anything except Brian though. Brian tried to help but he couldn't bring her back and that's all the help he wanted. It had been almost a week since him and Ashley broke it off. He dreaded everyday without her. He tried; calling and she never picked up so he left practically his whole heart by pouring out his feelings on the answering machine and always telling her that he loved her, flowers but she sent them back every time, candy, she sent that back too. Everything he tried didn't work really. He didn't blame her though. He hurt her so bad and he understood that, he was just doing everything he could to get a second chance and nothing worked. He figured he might as well just give it up but he couldn't. He loved her too much to stop trying now. One night he even went to her window and threw a rock and it tapped it lightly. She came to the window to look out and he tried to talk but she just left him there pleading. He just sat there in her yard all night crying. He didn't go home until he woke up the next morning in the grass, wet from the dew. He had cried himself to sleep. He saw her shadow in the window watching him leave but she never came out to at least talk to him. Snapping back to reality he just stared. Kathy and AJ were just so close and it hurt him to even be there, he didn't mean to stare it was just that he longed for that so bad. He just wanted to be with Ashley more than anything. He missed her so much. They were all loving on each other and cuddled so close. What am I going to do without her? She's my life. Look at them, that should be me and Ashley. Nick shake this your not getting her back get over it now. If you don't it's only going to be worse in the end. I can't just let this go though. I can't just not love her anymore, that's not possible. I want her so bad. I just can't live without her. What am I going to do? Everything he was thinking, he was just so confused as to what to do. He just didn't know where to go from that night. Everything out in the open, everything said. He remembered it too well, it's not that it was a really long time ago or anything it was just that it was something that if it wasn't remembered it would be better. He had just been sitting there thinking about Ashley and what had happened for a while now and not really realizing how bad he was staring at the two making out on the couch. "Hey Nick, it's a word called privacy, you know what that is?" AJ spat out angrily finally coming up for air. Nick didn't say anything just got up and walked out of the room leaving AJ and Kathy confused as to what was going on with him. I have to get out of here, he thought. He quickly got in his car and drove until he came to the mall. he got out of his car and went in. He thought maybe he could just walk around and try to forget about everything. He didn't realize that there was even a chance he might run into Ashley there though......Next: Chapter 4 |