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Loves Lies Chapter 2 She slammed the door hard and started running to her car as fast as she could. She was a little startled at the cold wind hitting her face at first but soon forgot about it and kept running but she heard Nick screaming at himself which made her stop for a second. "Fuck. Damnit. Why the hell did I do this to her? Why?" He screamed at himself over and over as loud as he could. She could hear the tears in his voice. She knew he was sorry but was sorry enough? She wanted so bad to go back and just be in his arms and just forget about everything else but she knew that there wasn't even a chance she could forget about what he had done to her ever. The pain was too much for her to bear this time let alone even what it was going to be like if she had to go through it again. She heard him yelling and pleading for her to come back but that was the last thing she was going to do. She knew she couldn't take him back because she knew he would do it again and as much as she loved him she just couldn't go through it again. Even being with him after he had been with someone else behind her back hurt her too much to think about. Soon she realized she was still standing there and began to pick up her pace to her car. She didn't want to face him again. Even the thought of looking at him made her cringe with anger and hurt. She was going to go out of her way to see that she never had to look at him again even though that thought hurt her too. "Why did it have to come to this? Why this bad? I have to get out of here." She ran faster, she just wanted to get away from him and all the pain he brought to her. Finally getting to the end of the driveway to where her car was parked she began to finger through her purse looking for her keys. When she finally fumbled around enough through her purse, she found her keys and quickly pulled them out. She glanced at her hands and noticed how bad they were shaking but shrugged it off and quickly got into her car. Pulling the door closed hard she started it up but as she was about to pull out of the driveway she glanced at the house with nothing but sorrow and hurt in her eyes. "This is the last time I'm going to be here, the last of me and Nick. Why her Nick, why?" She softly let out sadly starting to cry a little more but held it back and pulled out of driveway not turning back. "What am I going to do and why the fuck can't I move?" he let out trying to get up but couldn't. It was as if his legs were stuck to the ground. He wanted to run and try to stop her from leaving him forever but he couldn't get up. "What the hell is wrong with me? I can't do anything right. I have to stop her." It all hit him when he heard the car start up and not pull out. He quickly snapped out of everything and ran out the door faster than he had ever ran in his whole entire life only to catch her pulling away not even looking back at all. "I just lost the only girl I've ever loved and it's all my fault damnit. Good job Nick, I have to say you did a really good job of screwing this relationship over." He spat to himself angrily. The drive home became unbearable really quickly, it was too quiet and being that quiet was just a trap to think about it. She didn't want to think about it anymore so she quickly turned on the radio to try and forget about everything. The song that was playing wasn't helping any at all, as soon as she flipped the switch she heard, 'All I Have To Give' which brought more tears. Nice song, only wish it wasn't a lie. She thought trying to hold the tears back even more. She was so sick of crying she just wanted to go home and forget about everything and be happy even though she knew she couldn't be happy without Nick. There was too much love for Nick in her and being without him she couldn't even think about. He was her life before and she just couldn't see the future being happy; without his love, without his embrace, without his kisses, without his reassuring smile, without him. All the little things he had done for her and how he always went out of his way to make her happy. Everything he said, always the sweet one, she thought. How he always skipped things he had to be at just to be with her and not even caring about the trouble he might get in he just wanted to be with her. "I miss him." She let out sadly. All these thought rushing through her head only to bring her to the thought of if he had done all this for her. She didn't even know who she was. Well, she knew what she looked like and a little about her but not really that well of everything else about her. "I have to stop this." She said aloud to herself. She was almost home. She hoped that her Mom and dad wouldn't be home she didn't want to have to deal with them right now. As soon as she got home the tears started again. She felt as if she had cried so much that she was going to dehydrate herself from it. She noticed that her parents were gone and with so much relief she quickly ran to her room only to cry more. She noticed all the pictures of him and them together, everything that was in site that he had given her. She put on a sweatshirt and some of his boxers. She felt so comforted just being in his clothes. "Why is this happening to me?" She thought. She crawled onto her bed and began to cry so hard and after about two hours of straight nothing but crying and sobbing she finally fell asleep. Nick lay in his bed trying to come up with a way to get her back. He couldn't just give up and let her go he had to at least try to get her back. He quickly sat up and grabbed the phone to call Brian, he might know, he thought. "Hello?" Brian said groggily and tired. "Hey Brian, can I talk to you about something?" Nick asked hoping that he wasn't mad because it was so late butreally hoping that he could help out. "Nick, what do want? It's two in the damn morning and your calling me for help? Oh wait Ash found out didn't she?" he managed to get out before Nick could say anything. "Brian, man I don't know what to do. She came over and she was crying. It hurt me so much to see her like that and I just....I don't know what to do" Nick let out feeling the tears coming on. "Look it's two and we have a photo shoot tomorrow really early so just get some sleep and we'll talk about this then ok?" Brian said pleadingly knowing that he wasn't trying to blow him off, he was just really tired. "ok, I guess." Nick said sounding hurt. "Nick listen to me ok?" he said. "Whatever I'm listening, go ahead." Nick spat out knowing that Brian didn't want to help. "I know how bad you want Ashley back but your going to have to give her some time. I mean shit Nick you did have sex with Sara knowing that you were serious with Ashley. She's going to need some time. All the trust she had in you she just lost when she found out about it. It's going to be hard on her. Damn I can't even imagine how bad she's hurt now. Just give it some time ok?" Brian said trying to comfort his friend as much as he could. "ok....Brian?" he said. "Yeah Nick?" Brain asked frustrated. "Thanks." Nick replied. "For what man?" he asked. "For everything." He said with a little relief in his voice like he knew what he had to do. "Get some sleep Nick and we'll talk tomorrow." Brian let out. "ok night man." "Night Nick." He hung the phone feeling a little better and finally dozed off.......Next: Chapter 3 |