|
Wishing On Nothing Chapter 7 I pulled up to the cemetery and drove right over to the place I should be not him. It was my fault he was dead and I knew it. Everything was always my fault. But he took everything I had away from me. I used to be like the others. I used to want to be the girl who everyone loved. Until he got a hold of me. He took it all away and I knew it but I just blamed it on myself because I was used to that. I walked over to his grave and sat next to it. Who is he? Keith Rillton. I met him three years ago but he changed my entire life and being. I already knew I was different but with him I wasn�t good enough but I still loved him. He used to treat me so bad and I would wish every night for him to leave but I realized that I was wishing on nothing. He hit me and the words he said to me were unbelievable but I believed him and in a way I still do. I guess I always will. One night he came over to my house and Cassie and everyone were out. He was drunk and beyond angry at something or me I suppose. I don�t even know anymore what I did. But he started to hit me and hit me and right before I blacked out I grabbed for it. It being the gun that Cassie�s dad had in the basement. I grabbed it and I pulled the trigger right at Keith. It was my fault he was dead. I wasn�t good enough for him and he got angry at me. Then I began to realize I wasn�t good enough for anyone. �Why did you make me think this way, Keith? I mean now I am afraid if guys come near me and for once I blame you and not myself. But in the end I am sure it will be my fault as usual.� I said starting to cry once again. I heard a rustle in the bush behind me but no one was there. �I don�t know why but I wish you were here then maybe you could keep me in check or something but I killed you. For some reason it makes me feel better but you would have killed me. Now I am starting to think it would have been better if you would have killed me. Then I wouldn�t have to worry about my life or myself anymore.� I said as again I heard a noise from behind me. I turned around and I saw a figure standing there but I couldn�t make it out. �What do you want?� I yelled out. The figure came up and I realized who it was. Nick. Who could mistake that hair? �Why are you here?� I asked wanting him to leave because the more I saw him the more I felt. �Why did you do it?� He asked. �Why do you want to know and I asked you why you are here first?� I asked. �Because I was afraid I would never see you again.� He replied �Maybe that�s how it should be.� I replied looking away. �Well, that is not how I want it to be.� He said. �Is it always about what you want?� I asked. �You know that is not what I am getting at.� He said. �Then what exactly are you getting at?� I asked. �I can�t let you walk out of my life. I mean the second I saw you I knew I had to meet you and now that I have I am not letting you go that easily.� He said sitting next to me. �Why am I so important?� I asked. �Because you are and I want you in my life because you are you and not someone else.� He said. �You don�t know me and I actually don�t know myself, Nick. I will be a problem I always am.� I said. �We all are problems. Now quit being difficult and just let me in.� He said. �In time I guess Nick.� I replied uneasily. �Who was he?� Nick asked. �The guy that I loved and the father of my child.� I replied.Next: Chapter 8 |