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Wishing On Nothing Chapter 5 �Can I ask you something?� Nick said. �Yes you may.� I said. �Do you hate me or something?� He asked. �No, why? I am just not a big people person.� I said. �It just seems like you don�t want to talk tome or something.� He said. �No, I like you a lot. I�m just not used to people liking me.� I said. �Well, I like you. So get used to it.� He said with a laugh. �Ok but remember you are the one that said that.� I replied uneasily. �So, do you want to take a walk down the beach?� He asked. Great, how could I say no to that angel face? �Sure.� I said. He helped me up and we started down the beach. �It is so beautiful out here.� I said looking out at the ocean. �I know. I could never tire of the beach. It is an amazing gift of God.� Nick said. �Yeah. It�s the only place that I feel like I can actually belong no matter what.� I said. �I know what you mean.� He said. �What? You belong everywhere.� I said with a laugh. �No, I mean where I can actually be myself and not some pop star that everyone sees. I mean there is more than that.� He said. �Well, don�t you like having people love you and admire you. I know if I had that then I would be very happy.� I said. �I mean I love it don't get me wrong. But sometimes you just want to be yourself and not what everyone thinks you are.� He explained. �Oh, ok. I see what you mean now. I don�t understand it since I don�t exactly have the same problem. But other problems then you name it and I have it.� I said with a small smile. �Wow!! You know what?� He asked. �What? Why are you laughing at me?� I asked. �You need to smile more. It is so beautiful! It is like a star.� Nick said. �That is about the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me.� I said. I was starting to get a little more comfortable around him but it probably wouldn�t last. �I just think you need to give compliments when you believe them.� He stated. �Well then you are really sweet and I appreciate it a whole lot. Most people ignore me. But for some reason you came to me but I am starting to like it that you did.� I said with a laugh. �Just now starting? Man I must need to work on my charming abilities more.� He said suddenly facing me. �Now, I didn�t say that. You are almost like the prince charming that saved me from some evil time or something like that. Sometimes I have no clue what I am getting at.� I said. Nick just laughed at me then it was contagious because I started to laugh. �Hey! Let�s go up there!� Nick yelled and dragged me up to cliff off a small part of the beach. �Wow! This is an awesome view!� I said looking out into the ocean. �It is I agree.� Nick said and he took my hand. It startled me and I really didn�t want this to happen. But for some reason I had this feeling in me not to let go. We were quiet for a while and I couldn�t help but think of my past and how this all might affect it. Thinking about it made a small tear slip down my cheek. I hated crying in front of people. �What are you thinking about?� Nick asked quietly. �Just old stuff like my past.� I said. He looked at me and wiped my single tear but I pulled away from his gaze afraid of what I may do. �You can tell me if you need to.� He said looking back out at the ocean, too. �I can tell you one thing.� I said. �Of course.� He said. �I still think that it is my fault he is dead.� I said and felt more tears flow.Next: Chapter 6 |