Tortured, maimed,and beaten..
Left lying on the floor.
To weak to crawl away...
You stand there and watch me whither..
The blood trail leads to you dear. ..
The one i loved.....
You leave me here cold and dying...
As you fret about ur loss..
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The knife pierces the muscle...
It�s scarlet fluid flows outward..
The movement that once was isn�t
And the darkness unfolds....
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Shove me down...
Leave me here..
Walk by and dont say a fucking word..
Look at me with pity in our eyes..
And go on with your perfect life..
Who cares if I Live or Die??
I sure as Hell don�t..
Im here to be thrown away
Here to be placed out of sight..
Where i belong..
Alone again..
As I will forever remain.
08-23-2000
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I speak out of pain
Out of dying dreams..
I lay my heart out on this block..
Praying that you will bid it stay..
Hoping that you will bundle it up..
And allow it to live..
Swaddle it in your loving arms..
And protect it from harm..
But I know it not to be so..
You can not know my motives..
You shall treat it as if it where already dead..
And cast it down in a heap..
Leave it in its solitude..
Let it quiver and yearn..
As you leave it there to burn...
08-23-2000
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No feeling ecapes me..
Exept the feeling of madness..
Enraged by rumours.
By whispers barely audible...
Lies from the tounge of the deciever
Falling on deaf ears
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Everlasting shame ...
Tearing my very soul apart...
How can I escape it..
This unconscience feeling of hate?
It knows my every move....
My thoughts, my feelings...
How can u escape... yourself?
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Silence is blaring in my ear
Mindaltering silence
Consuming my brain
Why cant he see
What his words do to me
Ripping, tearing, my pathetic soul...
Growing numb again...
Please feel this
Open up and let it all in..
Digest this rancid ambroisa
That�s ripping my brain to pieces