| ...As I mentioned previously my mom was very egocentric. I think it may have had to do with the things she suffered in her childhood. In time she got herself kicked out of there as well. She always found a place to stay, but no place was like a home. I guess the worst think for me was that let sin get in the way of my relationship with God. Instead of living according to the Scriptures, I turned to the comforts of the world knowing that they only satisfy for a season. Pride, lust, envy, and simply not doing the things I know the Word commands. I feel in such times I have brought more shame to Christ Name than glory. |
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| My next year of life brought about many changes that changed who I am today. God used so many people to shape me, in accordance with the Scriptures, into the man that I am today; from those who were of |
| great significance to my coming to know Jesus, to new friends at Alexandria High, to the family that I supported me for over two years, and to others who have constantly been a reminder of God�s love for me. I shall never forget you all; as it is right for me to do so because I hold you in my heart. Now I want you to know, dearly loved, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel. In this I rejoice and I will continue to rejoice for I know that through your prayers and the help given by the Spirit of Jesus Christ, what as happened to me will turn out for my ultimate deliverance. I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. My prayer is that I might be counted worthy to suffer for the sake of Christ. I yearn to say like Paul said, �Why are you weeping and breaking my heart? I am ready not only to be bound, but to die�for the name of the Lord Jesus Christ� (Acts 21:13). |
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| Even in my impertinence God has been faithful to me. I cannot comprehend this love that God has for me. I have committed adultery with the world and God still remains devoted; His loving kindness and grace are unwavering. How hard it would be for me to love my wife the same way if she was inconsiderate, fickle and unfaithful. Yet this love God has for me has. |
| never changed God has been my provider. In consideration of my circumstances, I was in no way able to pay to go to the school that I felt God telling me to go to. Even if I took out loans it still would not be enough. God provided a way for me to go to the University of Mobile. Life had come to a point that all I could do was trust in the Lord and know by faith that if God had called me to go to school their then it would be nothing for Him to provide the resources to make it happen. Even after having to change chools for my senior year |
| of high school I still received over double the scholarships of any other student at my new high school. I say this to the glory of the One who is able |
| do more than we could ever think, hope, or imagine. God�s blessing did not stop there. All my other disbursements were taken care of by my job at Lowes. I was able to transfer to a store over 350 miles away and keep my job. I must point out that my freshman year of college was not easy, but God was more than enough for all I needed. There are so many other ways God has provided for me that I will not comment on here. I state this just as confirmation that God daily endows me with multitudes of blessing I could never earn or deserve. |
| My sophomore year of college has definitely been the one of the greatest years yet. Throughout this year I have began to somehow grasp what it may truly be to love the Lord my God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength; And to love my neighbor as myself. I have learn how important it is to talk to God about my problems. He cares for all our needs, hurts, our success, our failure� God has shown me how to manage time, finances, relationships with friends, and ministry opportunities and many other things in life (customer interactions at work, washing dishes, school work) so that they all reflect His influence and guidance. There is one thing that I read, in John Piper�s Don�t Waste Your Life, that I will share with you: |
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