Me info about me

...this is me...

hmmmmmmmm, i've kinda disliked writing about myself in the past, and i guess i dont really like the idea right now. my sister has been making her page and that kind of motivated me to update mine for some reason. i changed it back to the totally simple and pretty much common way of doing things..... oh well. now let me seeeeeee, me me meeeeee. well my name is Chris Hoffman blah blah blah. I live in Croydon...... suburb of Melbourne...... city in Australia. im [pretty much] jobless, and lack motivation which i must say is SOOOO much fun *roles eyes*. a lot of people seem to think i "have it easy" or "have it made" coz im not working and think that im just really lazy. they think im this careless person who never puts in a worry about anything.

...but its not true.

one of my bestest friends, kim, told me that i take life too seriously. at first i was unsure, buts its so true, and its actually a relief that someone actually noticed.

hmmm, im kinda stuck on this now.... not coz i cant write anymore, just coz i dont really wanna share the rest.

i'll move onto something else....... something more "physical", coz i have to try to get more involved in the physical world or else im going to be left behind.... ack, i already am. anyways, physical stuff, well im almost 6 foot and im thin..... and god who cares about that crap?

i play guitar. well.... hmmmm. i play music, guitar is just one of my favorite methods of doing so. i also like to "whack" the piano, although no-one really seems to understand my piano music. to them its just a whole lotta annoying noise. i like to "sing" along too but technically im not the best singer, but its the only way i can really let it out sometimes. its a big release for me, music.

i also like to listen to music. sometimes music is my only friend. sometimes it can take you away, you like, drift away from everything and you go somewhere else. my dad reckons im like my auntie wendy..... living in space. i so often wish it were so.

a lot of people think im a drugo, but thats not true either. it maybe because i have a blank [dopey] look most of the time. i guess thats coz i kind of distance myself from the world a lot. or it maybe coz im always increadibly tired and cant really concerntrate on anything. whatever the reason people think so, im not a drugo.

i see myself as a thinker. i see myself as rather intellegant.... more intellegant than most. i remember telling kim that i think too much and she said "me too". we both have love/hate relationships with our own minds.

hmmmmmm, what else...... im big on honesty. actually im HUGE on honesty. im always trying to be the most honest as i can, to myself and to everyone else, although im often crap at it. its the way to pure happyness with yourself, and its fuckin hard to do, but its very rewarding. to a good friendship with me you gotta respect honesty, and if you dont, you'll never really be my good friend, as there'll be a problem of trust. i kinda have big problems with trust, but lets not get into that.

i kind of keep a journal. everyday i write on my small calendar a few notes on what happend. i find it very satisfying to do so and i love to look back on previous days.... and it also shows me how every day counts, and has stopped the "blur" effect i've had over the past few years.

hmmm, right now im thinking "why the hell am i making this page?" and i have no godam idea. i'll probably feel ashaimed of it soon and tear it down...... oh well. i guess its a way people can get to know me better without having to talk to me in person. i dont really have many "net" friends.... so the people who read this are probably people who i know and i've gone to them "hey go to my page, here is the addy".

anyways i think i'll leave it at that. if you want to read a few of those surveys i've filled out that come over email go here. otherwise....

"all i can do is just pour some tea for two, and speak my point of view but it's not sane" - blind melon [ro rain]