| "I love you, angel." He repeated. "We are starting over." She said dryly. "Oh." He laid down with her once more. He held her tightly in his arms and cried harder. He wanted to hear her say she loved him. He knew she did. Her feelings didn't go away that quickly. He just didn't know how to get her to say it. He took a deep breath and let it slowly. He laid there trying to think of ways to get her to say it when there was a knock at the door. He answered the door to find all the guys there. He walked back over to where Tiffany was. He leaned down and kissed her forehead. "I have to go now. I'll be back for lunch. I'll try atleast. Bye, Angel." He walked out and she fell asleep. She had had too much to deal with in a short time. Her mind shut down and she fell into a deep sleep. She kept seeing Britney look at her on the dance floor. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "She looks so peaceful, maybe you should let her sleep." JC whispered. "No, I have a better idea." Justin pulled them all into a huddle. She woke up to the sweetest sound. She had five men seranading her. "A little more time on you." Justin finished as he joined her on the bed. All the other guys left as if on cue. Justin leaned toward her for a kiss. She tried to kiss him but she couldn't. She pushed him away and gave him an apologetic look. "I can't I just keep picturing you kissing her." "I understand. We didn't kiss the first day we met anyways." He said trying to lighten her mood. She gave him a half smile. "So how was your morning?" "Pretty good. We still have rehearsals, sound check and the concert. Will you come?" He gave her his puppy dog eyes. She couldn't say no. "Ok." She stood up and stretched. She looked down at Justin. He must be real tired. He didn't get any sleep last night. As the reason why hit her she fell back onto the bed. He looked at her. He was very worried about her. He knew she wouldn't tell him if she didn't feel good. She would try to let it pass. He knew he was the reason though. He didn't want to push her then have her blow up on him. He decided to watch her closely for the next couple of days. He helped her up and they had lunch. They walked into the rehearsal room and all eyes were on them. She took a seat while Justin joined the others. They had the dance moves down already. They had learned them before thier vacation. They were just refreshing thier memories. She watched them intently. In no time at all they were goofing around. "Come here." Justin called to her. As she walked over she heard him say "Watch, she will pick this up in no time she is a great dancer." She was touched that he would say something like that about her. "Yeah." She said once she had reached him. "Try this, Angel." He did a dance move and she mimicked him. Pretty soon she had done all the dances with them. Johnny walked in while they were dancing to Pop. He watched as they danced. He waited until they were done. "Come on guys, sound check." They all followed him out of the room and into an awaiting limo. When they were done with sound check Tiffany pulled Justin aside. "I am going back to the hotel." "Oh we aren't going back. We are leaving right after the show. They picked up our stuff from the hotel earlier." "I am tired. Where can I lay down?" "Well backstage may be too loud. Go to the tour bus, you can sleep in my bunk. I'll see you after the show." He gave her a kiss on the cheek and she left. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- He crawled into the bunk with her. He was tired from the concert. He felt like he had been dancing for days. He curled up to her and fell asleep. She pushed him away from her minutes later. He had woken her up. "Come here, Angel." He whispered to her. "No thanks. I am comfortable." She said in a sleepy voice. He curled up to her once more. "Please don't, I don't feel comfortable with you touching me." She let out a sigh of relief when he let her go. He felt bad but he understood. He was just happy she had forgiven him. He turned the other way and fell asleep. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- He rubbed his eyes to get the sleep out. It was early in the morning. The sun was just barely coming up. He climbed out of the bunk and walked into the kitchen. He was looking for Tiffany. He found her laying on a couch. He laid a blanket on her and lifted her head to put a pillow underneath it. That's when he realized she was crying. He pulled her into his arms and sat down in one motion. "Angel, what's wrong?" She wiped her eyes. "Nothing." She walked back to the bunk and crawled in. He was intriqued. He followed her into the bunk. "Tell me what's wrong, please?" "I told you, nothing." "I know something is wrong." "You are very perseptive then." "Will you tell me." "No, I don't feel like it." "Is it me?" "Yeah." "Will you tell me anymore?" "You wanna know?" "Yeah, that would be nice." "I don't like you touching me, no offense. I just think about you touching her and it makes me sick. I really want to forgive you and move on but I don't think I can." "It will take time. And I am willing to wait, as long as we can be the way we were sooner or later." "We woud be the way we were..." "I know, I know, and I feel horrible about it." "You should. I would have never done anything like that." "I know, and that's why I love you." He was in tears. "Yeah that's why I loved you. You would have never done this to me. You wouldn't have. I don't know what came over you. I feel like I am with a completely new person." "I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you." "That's the problem, I don't know if you can. I mean I don't know if I will ever be able to look at you without thinking of her. I don't know if my mind will ever let it rest." "I sure hope so." "Sometimes I think I do, too. Sometimes I think I want to leave and never see you agian." "Please don't. I would go crazy, and I wouldn't be able to find you for another three months." |
| Chapter Thirteen |