A Walk Through My Thoughts

Good Bye

When I opened my eyes this morning, surpqizingly I was wide awake. Wow, I thought to myself. I didn't have no headache, no hangover or even no guilt in my heart. For the first time after you, I woke up alone and without a heavy heart. Yes, it has been over a month since you were gone, but somehow now that I think of it, I had done my best to avoid this moment. A moment all alone. I had thought alcohol would erase your thoughts, being with other people would somehow fade your face away. But, yet I wake up with you in my head as clear as yesterday.

Put the coffee on and stared at nothing. Listened to silence arround me. My God! Its so bright, that my eyes hurt. The brightness of the day, the stillness of everything, why does it look so eerie. Now, I know why people have pets, to have something breathing admist all these non living immobile objects that surround you. To feel, alittle bit of life on this dead environment. Do I need one? May be....No, may be not.

The dripping of the coffee, did it always make this much noise? My computer, damn there were times when I couldn't take my eyes off this machine. Today, it just lost all its appeal. It looks so without anylife. I hear absolutely nothing. Then I wonder why I was so scared of this day. Its not that bad. Actually its beautifull and its not eriee at all, rather the word would be peaceful. A soft smile finally broke into my face as I sipped my coffee all alone in my silent home. Even with all its non life arround me, somehow I didn't miss you today. No, yes everything bothered me, but not the absense of you. Your memories will always make me smile, but your absence will not fade my smile away again. GoodBye Sweetheart.