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| My Story Part One Where do I start? The begining is the best, I guess. I have been wearing girls clothes since I was 3 or 4. My aunt satrted this, she dressed me in my cousin's clothes when I was at her house. I should mention that my family, including my aunt and cousins, are all girls except me and my dad. I don't see much of my dad, he travels a lot and is only home for 1 to 2 days a week and spends most of his time sleeping. So, this leaves me with a lot of time around females. Anyway, my aunt started putting me in my cousin's clothes one day after we got soaked in the rain. My cousin and me are only 5 months apart in age and about the same size, actually she's a bit bigger. We came in that day and my aunt told us to get out of our wet clothes, we did and she told my cousin to take me to her room and find me something to wear until my clothes were dry. She did this and that moment changed my life. My cousin (I'm leaving out names to protect my family, until I come out to them) gave me an old pair of her white cotton panties (yes we were naked, we'd been running naked around each other's house's for all our lives and hadn't yet developed the uneasiness between boys and girls yet). I put them on and then the rest of the clothes she handed me. She gave me and old printed white tee shirt with a daisy on the front (like the ones to the left!) and a pair of faded denim flare bottom pants. My cousin giggled and said I looked like her! I went to a full length mirror my aunt had in her bedroom and sure enough I did! I've always worn my hair long because my mom says I won't sit still long enough for my hair to be cut. This resulted in a "bowl" cut, "Prince Valient (my mom's name), or a "page boy" cut. Regardless, it was long and beautiful, yes I am vain about my hair! We played the rest of the day and I quickly forgot about my clothes, so that when my mom got there to pick me up she was shocked! My aunt explained the situation and all was well. My mom took me home and made no big deal about it. She did make me change and I was depressed to do so. I didn't know why at the time but I enjoyed being a "real" girl for the day. The next week was the first time I asked to wear my cousin's clothes. My aunt found no promblem with this, I guess because our family (at least my mom and aunt's side) likes to try new experiences, and said to go to it! The years that follwed were golden! In stead of being a cowboy or a pirate or a soldier, I was a fairy princess, or the beautiful career girl. In all of these fantisies, my cousin was always my girlfriend, not a friend who was a girl, but a GIRLFRIEND. Yes, as in a girl-girl relationship. We never did anything sick, just polite little kisses cousins of either gender would give. When I was 6, my baby sister joined the fun, she was only 2 but kept our dress-up secret from our mom. I don't know how mom would react to this, but I am afraid to tell her I just recently spent the BEST weekend at my aunt's home. This weekend was the first weekend were I went out in public as a girl. By the time this weekend happened, I had been hinting around to my aunt (who I forgot to tell you, is closer to me than my own mom) that I would like to be a girl. When the weekend arrived and my sister and me got to our aunt's house she said she had a surprise! The suprise was my first very own sets of girl's clothes, not a lot, but MINE! (Pictures taken on this weekend are the one above and on my picture page!) I had a beautiful floral dress, more daisies (my favorite as you may already know), a very cute skirt and top combo with a matching sweater. She also got me my own panties and bras, 3 matching sets! I was in HEAVEN! The fun was not over, she then told me to get dressed and said we were going some where. That some where turned out to be a beauty parlor! Here I got a manicure and had my hair (which I have grown out past my shoudlers) styled, unfortunately not a permanent! I have never felt so happy in my whole life! The weekend past with a blur, and I was SOOO upset when the time for my sister and me to go home come near. I had to change back into my dull boring boys clothes, at least styles today let boys wear earrings, necklaces and bracelets, so that hasn't been a problem! Before I left my aunt pulled me aside and told me when I was ready to tell my mom I wanted to be a girl full time, she would support me in any way. I was shocked, I had never told ANYONE about this wish. I guess the dresses and play acting never really fooled her. I love her so much, God bless her kindness. I guess you would say at this point I have had it good all my life, well not entirely. The times at my aunt's only come every 2 weeks or so when my mom and dad have a couple of days togther. They "honeymoon" on these occasions that my dad has a break from work. Also, as you may already know, I am NOT very big. In fact I am the shortest boy in my school. I get picked on some, not much, but more than I would like. The usual stuff, sissyboy, pansy, etc., because of my slight build and long hair. The only thing that keeps it from being all out torment is the fact I am an excellent swimmer. In fact, about the best on our high school team. This also allows me to shave the ugly body hair off me to "reduce drag", yeah right, I just don't want it (thank goodness I don't have much anyway!!). So, no one thinks I am weird because I have no body hair, no beard or mustache yet either (thank goodness again!). I plan on telling my mom soon about my desire to be a girl and have been to hundreds of TG sites to get advice and think I can do it! Pray for me and Thank You for your time. ----Hugs and Love, Jessica :-) |
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