One drunken night
Changed me, shattered me
Destroyed my world
Virginity stolen
Though you knew I treasured
Waiting is what I wanted
Thought you understood
How wrong I was
In my haze, you were clear
Abandonment of my trust
You took my pride,
My existence
Pushed it down, along with me
How Dare You!?!
You were sober!
You should have known better!
Perhaps chose not too
Or didn't care...
You killed a part of me
Wish it never happened
Wish we never happened
I should have seen it before
Forceful, Controlling, Brutal behavior
Now I fear another like you may be
Afraid to get close
I will learn to love, to trust
You put my life in ruins
But I will pick those pieces up
No matter how slow
I won't let you ruin me any longer.
~Shana~
October 3rd, 2001
This poem was inspired that guy who, in the simple 4 months we were together, managed to destroy the rest of my life. I once thought I had been in love, now I realize how stupid I was, because you never loved me.
