Emotionless
Surrounded by others
More alone than ever
Desperation for a welcomeness
Friends don't see my invisible tears
I hide my face from them
Acting like everythings perfect
That I'm happy with me and my life
Trapped in my life
Two homes, each more isolated than the first
One filled with so called friends
Who ignore and take for granted
Other filled with family who do the same
They shun and their close mindedness blinds them
I travel from one to another
Moving through the motions day by day
I'm traveling through this time emotionless.
~Shana~
November, 2000
Just an update, now that I've rededicated my life to Christ, I haven't felt this way in a long time. My move down here to Whitewater changed a lot in my life. I feel welcomed and loved by my Campus Crusade for Christ friends, and I couldn't be happier. Thank you Lord for guiding me to this school.
