| Chapter 14 |
| "J-Joshua?" Lance whispered unable to believe he was really seeing the man he loved awake. Joshua smiled, "Yeah." He frowned, "Am I in the hospital?" Lance swallowewd and finally found his voice, "Yeah, you were in, you were in, you were in a coma." Joshua's eyes widened, "For how long?" Lance looked down at his watch, "For 7 hours." Joshua raised an eyebrow, "Can you really call that a coma?" Lance looked up with tears in his eyes, "Joshua...You. Were. In. A. Coma. Do you know how worried I've been?" Joshua looked at Lance and he could see how worried he is, he reached out and ran his fingers down Lance's face, "I'm sorry James, I really am. Where's Ashley?" Lance felt anger well up from deep inside at the mention of HIM. "Why the fuck do you care? He did this to you!" Joshua jumped at the outburst and looked at Lance in shock, he would never admit it but he was scared, "I just wanted to know. I haven't got fucking amnesia you know I do remember him hitting me BY ACCIDENT." Lance ignoring the small, scared tone in Joshua's voice went on, "Yeah instead of Bobbee, why do you care Josh? He cheated on you, and almost killed you." "I think your overstating a little don't you think?" Joshua glared at Lance. Lance glared right back, "No I'm not! I was there he hit you, he put you in a coma," Lance rolled his eyes, "Ok he knocked you unconscious for 7 fucking hours. Whatever, you wanna see that loser fine but don't come crying to me when he breaks your heart. Again." Anger was almost glowing from Joshua's eyes and his voice was filled with fire, "Leave." "What?" Lance asked confused. "Get. Out. Now." Joshua hissed, glaring at Lance. Lance's eyes widened realizing that he'd hurt Joshua, "Oh my gosh! Joshua I'm..." "Get the fuck out and don't come back. I don't want to see you ever again so stay out of my way." Lance's eyes filled with tears and he reached out and put his hand on Joshua's, "Joshua," He choked on a sob when Joshua moved his hand away, "I'm sorry." Joshua looked straight ahead, "I don't give a shit, go." Joshua turned his head to look at Lance, "GO!" Lance jumped out of his chair and ran to the door he put his hand on the knob and pulled it open he hesitated at the door and turned his head to look at Joshua, "I am really sorry Joshua, I never meant to hurt you. I have been so scared and so angry that I took it out on you and for that I am sorry. I love you," Lance swallowed letting the tears fall, "Even if you never speak to me again I will always love you." Joshua's anger faltered a bit but he was still very hurt he looked into Lance's pain-filled and whispered, "Go...please." Lance silently left walking like a zombie all the way to the exit and once he was outside he began to sobbed. "What was that about Joshua?" Justin asked, waking up when Joshua yelled 'go'. Joshua jumped in fright, "Nothing. Go back to sleep." Justin was about to say something when he realized Joshua was awake. AWAKE. Not in a coma anymore. "Joshua you're awake." "Yeah." "Are you okay?" Justin asked. Joshua sighed, "As good as I can be I suppose." Justin frowned at Joshua, "C what were you and Lance yeling about?" Joshua's eyes clouded over with pain, "Nothing." "Josh..." "Nothing!" Joshua exclaimed, he didn't want to talk about it. "Ok, if that's what you want..." "It is." Justin smiled, "You really scared us for a minute there Joshua." Joshua smiled and opened his arms, "Come here baby brother." Justin ran over to Joshua and hugged him with everything he had, "I love you Joshua." Joshua hugged back just as fiercely, "I love you too Justin." Justin and Joshua were so wrapped up in eachother that they didn't notice Chris slip out the room. Chris looked everywhere for Lance and eventually found him outside huddled against the wall crying his heart out, Chris's heart broke at the sight and he ran over and embraced Lance, "It's okay Lance, it's okay." Lance turned his face and sobbed into Chris's chest, "I hurt him! Oh God I hurt him Chris and now he won't speak to me." "What did you do Lance?" Chris asked he only heard part of Justin and Joshua's conversation and it didn't tell him much. "I yelled at him, I was mean, and I hurt him. How will he ever forgive me?" "He loves you and he will forgive you. You've been hurting since he was hurt and you needed to let some of your frustrations out...unfortunately you let it out on him. He'll understand Lance." Lance took a deep breath and tried to calm down, "I hope so." Lance looked up at Chris with hopeful eyes, "You think I should go and see him?" "Sure. I'm sure he, I'm sure he's cooled down." Chris said, wincing as he'd almost said 'I'm sure he'll love to see you'. Lance got up and walked back into the hospital and now stood outside Joshua's room willing for some courage. Finally he opened the door and tentively walked in, "J-Joshua?" Joshua's head snapped up and he whispered, "You really hurt me James." Lance whimpered tears filling his eyes, hearing Joshua say what he already knew broke his heart he just wished he could get Joshua to forgive him, "Josh..." |