NotWhatHeSeems1

*Lance�s Point-Of-View*

�You know you want me,� Josh whispered in my ear, his voice sounding like pure sex. He pulled back with a sly grin.

�Wh-what?� I stuttered, wondering how Josh could�ve figured out my secret.

�You heard me, Lance,� Josh replied, winking at me.

�Yeah, but h-how you�d know?� I questioned, realizing that Josh didn�t seem mad. I couldn�t help but hope that maybe he wanted me too. He sure was acting like it.

�You make it so obvious,� he said, his hot breath on my neck before flicking his tongue out and licking my ear.

I felt my whole body shiver with want and found myself unable to speak.

�So where you just going to pretend not to like me forever?� Josh asked me, tilting my head and forcing my to look into his eyes.

�I dunno,� I mumbled, trying to look away.

�I think you do,� Josh replied, placing a soft kiss on my cheek before walking away, his hips swaying.

I stood in the same spot for a few minutes, trying to process what had just happened. Josh had somehow found out that I want him, he�d licked my ear, and kissed my cheek. And it just made me want him more.

After breaking out of my daze, I sat down on the bed in the hotel room I was sharing with Justin. Suddenly, I wished that Josh was the one I was sharing a room with. And that led to thoughts about what could happen if we were alone, sharing a room.

I looked up as I heard the hotel room door open, blushing that I�d almost been caught daydreaming about Josh. Justin walked into the room with a smile on his face. �Hey Lance, what�s up?�

�Not much,� I replied, smiling back.

�Cool, want to go swimming?� Justin asked, rummaging through his bag, grabbing his bathing suit, and heading towards the bathroom.

�Uh, sure,� I answered, standing to find my bathing suit and trying to forget about Josh for a while. But it wasn�t that easy.

When we got down to the pool, I was surprised to see Josh already in the pool, swimming laps. �Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you that Josh was meeting us down here,� Justin told me before pulling off his shirt and diving into the pool.

�Yeah, you did,� was all I could think to say. I wondered if Josh would act the same way around me as he did before if Justin was there. I hoped not because I hadn�t even told Justin or the other guys about being gay yet.

�Hey Lance,� Josh greeted me, winking at me when Justin wasn�t looking.

�Hey,� I replied, pulling off my shirt and jumping into the pool, trying to calm my nerves. Thank God the pool was cold, because with Josh looking at me like that, I didn�t think I could stop myself from becoming really �excited.�

We splashed around in the pool for a while, and I tried not to look at Josh very much because he was always winking at me, or running his tongue over his lips when he knew I was watching him. I wanted him so much already, and that wasn�t helping at all.

Instead, I tried to focus on Justin, who was in a very good mood. He was smiling and laughing a lot. And it made me want to know why he was so happy. I figured I could ask him later. At the moment, I had to focus on not wanting Josh or the situation could get very embarrassing very quickly.

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I got my chance to ask Justin why he was so happy later that night. We�d gone out to dinner as a group, and Joey, Chris, and Josh had gone clubbing afterwards. I�d told them that I was tired and just wanted to go back to the hotel, and Justin had come back with me. I wasn�t really sure why, but I just figured he was tired too.

�Hey Lance, can I ask you something?� Justin said to me as I collapsed on my bed, exhausted.

�Sure,� I mumbled into the pillows.

�Uh, nevermind� You said you wanted to sleep, so I�ll leave you alone,� Justin said shyly.

�No, it�s ok,� I assured him, lifting my head up to look at him. He looked miserable.

�Are you sure?� he questioned.

�Of course I�m sure. Hey, J, are you ok?� I asked, concerned.

�No,� he admitted.

I waited for him to say more, but he stayed silent, so I broke the silence by saying, �you can talk to me, Justin.�

�I know, Lance, but this is hard,� he told me.

�Ok,� I replied, wondering what he was having such a hard time telling me.

�Would you be disgusted if I told you I like guys?� Justin asked carefully.

�You like guys?� I questioned, surprised.

�Well, yeah. Do you hate me now?� he mumbled quietly refusing to look me in the eye.

�No, of course not,� I replied, trying to get him to look at me. Finally, I took his chin in my hand and titled his head up so he was forced to look at me. �Being gay doesn�t change you, Justin.�

�I know but, I just thought that� well, your parents are so against gay people so I thought you would be too,� Justin explained. He was obviously very relieved that I�d accepted what he�d told me.

Now he was giving me such a good opportunity to tell him that I was gay too, but I wasn�t sure if I really wanted him to know yet. I wasn�t really sure why. �Ah, what the hell. He�s going to find out sometime, right?� I thought to myself.

�Lance?� Justin asked me, �you still in there?

�Yeah, sorry,� I replied, shaking my head to clear my thoughts, �anyway, I�m not against gay people because��

�Because what?� Justin questioned.

�Because I�m gay too,� I finally admitted, saying it aloud for the first time. It felt good

His eyes widened, and his mouth dropped. �Y-you� you�re� really?� he stuttered.

�Yeah,� I confirmed, smiling at him. His expression was priceless.

�Wow,� he sighed, looking very happy.

�Justin, you daydreaming or something?� I asked, seeing a far-off look in his eyes.

�Huh? Oh sorry, I was just thinking,� Justin told me, a smile appearing on his face.

�It�s ok,� I told him, smiling back.

We sat there smiling at each other, not saying a word, until I started to feel my eyes droop. I knew I was going to fall asleep soon, so I winked at Justin before heading to the bathroom to get ready for bed.

Before I turned around, I caught Justin with his head down, and his cheeks a bright pink. I wondered what that was about.