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Farewell , Farewell !
Its' party time ! ---
the WANDERER , by Nietzsche
I
have finally decided to do what I have believed all along to be my
destiny in life: Allah’s willing, to lead myself to freedom from
all needs : to be a martyr. That is my life mission. Acquisition of
wealth and power has never been my goal in life because I know
it’s fake. Nor do I want to do it because I look to it as an
achievement, a religious sacrifice: I have to do it as a duty, an
obligation as a moslem, and a debt that must be paid because of the
past and the future of my life.
I
assure myself, only a few people could understand what I was talking
about, or maybe none : when I say to the world “this is my pride,
my dignity in life, you call it death” and some of people
just forget that ‘death’ preffered means heaven rather
than hell; Allahuakbar, I don’t need to be so cruel by making any
reason for myself to start my action, I have it all, Allah knows. My
vision and all in this world means very much to me, for its’ tears
also happiness, however, I exactly know where I would end, what I
should take or leave behind
I stumbled over TengKu Muhammad Hasan Di Tiro work in his book of diary ”the price of freedom”, He also took Nietzsche's words, Thus Spoke Zarathustra, the chapter heading is : "The Wanderer". I read :
"I
am a wanderer and a mountain climber.... And whatever may yet come
to me as destiny and experience will include sane wandering and
mountain climbing: in the end one experiences only oneself. The time
is gone when mere accidents could still happen to me; and what could
still come to me now that was not mine already? What returns, what
finally comes home to me, is my own self and what of myself has long
been in strange lands and scattered among all things and accidents.
And one further thing I know: I stand before my final peak now and
before that which has been saved up for me the longest. Alas, now I
must face my hardest path! Alas, I have begun my loneliest walk! But
whoever is of my kind cannot escape such an hour - the hour which
says to him:"Only now are you going your way to greatness! Peak
and abyss - they are now joined together."
"You
are going your way to greatness: now that which has hitherto been
your ultimate danger has become your ultimate refuge."
"You
are going your way to greatness: now this must give you the greatest
courage that there is no longer any path behind you."
"You
are going your way to greatness: here nobody shall has effaced the
path behind and over it there is written: impossibility."
"You
are going your way to sneak after you. Your own foot you,”
"And
if you now lacked all ladders, then you must know how to climb on
your own head: how else would you want to climb upward? On your own
head and away over your own heart! Now what was gentlest in you must
still become the hardest. He who has always spared himself much will
in the end become sickly of so much consideration. Praised be to
what hardens! I do not praise the land where butter and honey
flow."
"One
must learn to look away from oneself in order to see much:this
hardness is necessary to every climber of mountains. But you wanted
to see the ground and background of all things; hence you must climb
over yourself - upward, up until even your stars are under
you!"
"Indeed,
to look down upon myself and even upon my stars, that alone I should
call my peak; that has remained for me as my ultimate peak!"
"1
recognize my lot.... Well, I am ready, loneliness has begun."
Now
my ultimate
"Alas,
this black sorrowful sea below me ! Alas, this pregnant nocturnal
dismay! Alas, destiny and sea! To you I must now go down! Before my
highest mountain I stand and before my longest wandering;to that end
I must first go down deeper than ever I descended - deeper into pain
than ever I descended,down into its blackest flood. Thus my destiny
wants it. Well, I am ready."
"You I advise not to work, but to fight. You I advise not to peace, but to victory. Let your work be fight, let your peace be a victory!"
champion, champion !
peace, I pray you , peace !
