Johnnie and I met on line years ago.

I had been chatting on ICQ when this guy messaged me. He seemed very nice. He told me how handsome I was. How he liked my profile. He said all the right things. He seemed to good to be true. I told him how I was going to Florida in a few months. He wanted me to stop in North Carolina to meet him. Well to be honest I was alwas told if it sounds to good to be true is isn't. To make matters worse I found out he was married with children. I was not going to try to split up a family for some quick romance. After that wre chitt chatted when we saw the other on line. At times I felt he was a pain in the neck but always came back to talk to him. Then for awhile we lost touch.
Months went by and suddenly there he was again. He had changed his user name. We began messaging back and forth. He would tell me his troubles and I would tell him mine. I had been dating someone who I though loved me only to find out he was using me. This guy was only in love with the things I could buy him. He ended up dumping me for someone else. I was crushed. All I did was cry and feel lonely and used. John listened to me and tried to cheer me up. He made me feel good about who I was. He was the first guy who did not want me to change to be with them.  I grew to want John but still the family thing bothered me. My wife had cheated on me with other guys and I could not do that to his family. I really did not believe him when he said for the right guy I will give all this up.  He needed a man in his life, not a woman.
About three years passed and john and I were still friends. Most guys on line would stop talking to you after six months or so. Thats just the way it was on line. When John or I would see each other on-line we would say hello and ask about the others family. I remember it was about Nov or Dec 2000 we really started talking for hours at a time. John was really going through a low point. One night he told me a man was comming to meet him in a few days. If all went well they were going to move John to Georgia and they would live together. DAMN, I have lost my chance. John was really serious about finding someone. How could I be so stupid. Here was someone I really liked and he wanted me and I tossed him aside. Now he's found someone. God I wanted him so bad. I wished it was me comming to meet him.
Durring this time I had other friends on-line and asked one of them why do you think God never sends me someone for me to love. I try to do the right thing and help others out? Joseph , the man I was talking with had a father who was sickly and he was carring for. He asked me if I had ever asked God to send someone for me. I said no, I did not think it right to ask for something for myself. That night I asked God why I could not be happy. I asked him to please send me someone for me to love and be loved by.
On the night before the guy was due to arrive John's son had taken ill. He was taken to the hospital. I learned that his son gets sick and the only way to cure him is a short stay in the hospital. John called the man to tell him that he could not meet him as his son was in the hospital and he would be spending his time there. When John tried to phone him someone else answered the phone. The guy told John the man who lived there was on his way to meet someone. This made John wonder who the guy answering the phone was since he lived alone. The next day the man called John from his hotel room. John said I do not want to meet you because I an at the hospital with my son. John asked him about the man who answered the phone. The guy made some lame excuese and told John if he cared about him he would meet him. John said My SON is more important to me. (I loved John for putting his kids ahead of himself)
That night after John got home from the hospital we chatted on line. He was upset and asked me if he were right. I told him he did the right thing. He said the guy is an ass and he wanted no more to do with him. My hear started to pound in my chest. Was God giving me a chance at John?
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