Part III: First Lesson
Author: Scarlet Kozi
Közi’s voice spoke next to my side. "Hai, Mana-sama?"
"It’s time for his first lesson." Mana’s tone was brisk, and he placed his hands lightly on his hips, his eyes focused on Közi, who was slightly behind and next to me. "But I can’t teach him myself if he’s doing it to me. So I’m going to use you as the test runner. Go over there and sit on the bed."
Immediately Közi seemed to realize what Mana was implying, though I didn’t understand yet. I heard Közi draw in his breath again, and he said, suspiciously, "But…"
"Do it." These words were simply spoken, an intolerant command.
Közi almost let out a small sigh of frustration, to have to do this. However, in defeat, he obediently lowered his eyes and nodded. He released my arm, just as Mana went around to take it in his place. Now Yu~ki and Mana were holding me steady as Közi walked out in front of me. He went to the fierce, iron bed and turned to look at us as though hesitantly, with a few strands of hair in his eyes. Then, with his legs pressed together, he slowly lowered himself onto the mattress, and perched on the edge.
"Good." Mana nodded, and glanced over my head at Yu~ki. The two of them released me again, and stood there silently. Apparently they thought that I wasn’t going to try to run away again. For the time being, I knew that I wouldn’t. The door was barred, and there was no other way out that I could see. I looked from one to the other timidly, moving away from them, but they just gazed back at me with penetrating eyes.
"Don’t look at me," Mana snapped, frowning. "Look at Közi."
I instinctively turned, slowly, in the direction that he suggestively inclined his head.
Közi was sitting, still with some grace about him, with his back straight. He had one leg folded over the other, keeping himself hidden, apparently hesitant to reveal himself like that. But when Mana stared piercingly at him and cleared his throat, Közi, subdued, slowly uncrossed his legs and spread them open. Since he was wearing nothing but the corset and the thigh-high boots, he was exposed to me. His face remained neutral, though a bit of a flush began to appear in his cheeks, whereas I turned pale.
"Knees," Mana ordered me.
The implication was fuzzy, but getting clearer. I shook my head.
"Get over there!" he said instead, annoyed.
Just to hear the degree of sharpness in his tone made me shiver a little, but I turned again and started to run for the door. I couldn’t take this, I was too afraid. I saw a flash of Közi’s eyes widening before I attempted to escape. I couldn’t do what they wanted, even though it meant everything to me to join their band. Could this really have been the only way? But then, wasn’t this a chance to achieve what I’d wanted for so long? They were going to accept me into their circle and teach me to be one of them. But I had never expected it to be this way…
Mana caught me by the shoulders and spun me around fast, and before I knew it, I was suddenly shoved forward. I stifled a scream and fell, my joints buckling, crashing onto my knees on the floor. I was kneeling roughly now, several paces in front of Közi, holding myself up helplessly on my hands.
I looked quickly over my shoulder. Mana and Yu~ki were right behind me, standing over me. Mana gave me a cold, reprimanding stare, and then disappeared out of sight, sitting somewhere on the bed behind Közi, out of view. I could tell that was where he went because the mattress on which Közi was sitting shifted slightly. When I turned again, I saw Yu~ki raise an eyebrow intensely at me. "Mana gave you an order!"
I didn’t know how to respond. This was Yu~ki, the one I’d known the longest, wasn’t it? But now I could barely recognize him.
"He told you to go to Közi-chan, and he told you to get on your fucking knees."
I winced at the profanity I’d so rarely heard him use in more normal times, and frowned.
"Don’t look at me like that!" His voice was savage now, although quiet, dissatisfied with my show of rebellion. "When you don’t follow orders, we’ll punish you. Again and again and again, until you learn."
With that stated, he came forward. He and Mana had both become entirely frustrated with me now, and I could tell that. It almost gave me a bit of self-satisfaction. I knew that I couldn’t get out of here, but the least I could do was fight back. Yu~ki’s motions, however, were rough and pitiless as he grabbed my chain and then started to walk, hauling me with his superior strength.
"Come!" he snapped, as though addressing an animal.
I gasped and started choking. My neck was being pulled even as I collapsed on the floor, clawing at my collar. Yu~ki dragged my body along the ground as I violently coughed, until, tears entering my eyes, I got up on my hands and managed to hastily crawl the rest of the way lest I be strangled to death. He was treating me like a dog now, a dog on a leash… I struggled to remain upright, kneeling between Közi’s open legs and still gasping for air.
"Good boy," Yu~ki hissed viciously at me, throwing my chain down and going away.
I winced again, even as Yu~ki disappeared in the shadows, probably going to join Mana somewhere on the bed. Instead of searching for them, I glanced up through the hair over my eye and saw that Közi was still gazing down at me. There was almost a quiver in the fullness of his lips, in the strands of his deep, rich crimson hair, and in his posture. He watched me silently, his hands tense. He was trying to keep himself composed, but clearly, there was disdain in his eyes for the way they were treating me, so early on.
Suddenly I saw Mana, arranging himself in Yu~ki’s embrace, a distance away behind Közi’s shoulder. Mana watched me for a moment, seeing my fear, and smiled a bit. "Now, for your first command, dorei-chan," he said. "Suck."
I stared at him, then at Közi. Another chill came over my body.
He wanted me to do… that? That embarrassing thing? I had barely allowed women to do that to me in the past, even when they’d wanted to. I’d always felt self-conscious, and somehow very selfish, when girls had wanted to do that for me, and now, another man was demanding that I do it? How could Mana have asked that of me? The very concept made me feel queasy, and I almost backed up. I shook my head, knowing that my eyes were very wide. "No! M-Mana-san, I can’t!"
Mana came forward, reaching around Közi, who knew to carefully move out of the way, and he slapped me. His slap was harder than before, almost as hard as Yu~ki’s blow had been. My neck practically cracked to the side as my hand flew to my cheek, while Közi let out another gasp.
Mana’s hands reached out.
One of them grabbed ahold of my chain, while the other disappeared behind my head. I felt Mana’s nimble fingers burrowing into my thick hair, and his grip both there and on the chain was tight and painful. He pulled my head upwards as he leaned down, and when our faces were only about an inch apart, he stared intensely into my eyes. I wanted to look away, but couldn’t. I swallowed, trying to fight tears.
As I stared up into Mana’s huge, dark brown eyes, I couldn’t move my own away, even as he started to speak. Through almost stationary lips, he whispered, "What did you call me?"
I felt too much pain now, from my scalp, face, and my neck, to be rebellious a second time. I feared for my own safety, so I immediately corrected myself, wondering how I had forgotten. "M-M-Mana-sama!"
Slowly, Mana’s mouth relaxed into a smile. He could tell that he had dominated me for the time being. Any of my indignance had dissolved into terror, and he knew it. He kissed my bruised lips, hard, his tongue exploring my mouth as I winced and knelt there, stunned, fainthearted. When he was satisfied, he pulled away, sucking at my lip one last time.
"Good boy," he purred. This seemed to be their common praise by now, when I actually did something right. "Now, suck him."
I swallowed, staring sightlessly. I didn’t know how to do this in the least.
Mana released my hair and leaned back up again, slinking behind Közi, making sure that Közi’s legs were still obediently open.
I did nothing at first. I just glanced from Közi’s face, which was pale and nervous, to Közi’s crotch, and then back up to Közi again. I knew that I was blushing now. This was making me come closer and closer to crying, and I hardly ever cried. I saw Yu~ki now, over Közi’s other shoulder, and he raised a fine eyebrow at me, surveying me with an almost warning expression. "Dorei-chan, who are we?"
Taken by surprise, I whispered, "M-My masters."
Immediately I put a hand over my mouth, shocked that they had brainwashed me into going along with this so far and actually believing it. For some reason, saying the words had almost seemed natural. But Yu~ki seemed pleased by my quick learning, and his smile was almost innocently delighted this time, although not for long. "Very good. And who is Közi?"
I thought back for a moment. "Your slave…"
"Excellent!" He pretended to clap. "And that would make you…"
Echoing myself, I murmured in shame, "Your slave."
"That’s right. Our despicable little slave." Yu~ki’s joking smile was dark, as he nodded and surveyed me. "Both of you are our slaves. But Közi has been with us for much longer than you. We used him to train all the others who have been in the band. And now, we’re using him to train you. Therefore, when we tell you to do things to him, you must do them."
I gazed at Yu~ki helplessly. Meanwhile, Közi looked so upset…
Yu~ki sighed at my lack of a response and changed tactics. "Do you want to be in Malice Mizer, dorei-chan?"
I nodded immediately. This was a question I could answer easily and without hesitation. There was no doubt about my response, no matter what was happening to me now. "Hai. More than anything." My voice almost sounded as though I was making a promise.
Yu~ki looked at me for a long moment as though searching for the truth of my answer. Then he just nodded once again, resting his chin on Közi’s shoulder to study me even as Közi flinched and shot a little frown at him. Yu~ki reached around him to take ahold of my chain and toy with it. "I thought so." He started to look at me in a strong manner, and I had to wonder whether he considered me prey, as though he was the hawk and I the dove. "You know that this is the only way…"
I knew it. I knew that they wouldn’t let me go now that we had come this far. I had to go along with all of this, if I wanted to join Malice Mizer, and I did, for nothing else was as important to me. Surrendering, I looked down and closed my eyes, clenching my fingers. "I know…"
Yu~ki stated, "As Mana said, this is your first lesson, dorei-chan."
"Lesson," I repeated.
"You have to learn one of the most basic skills that a slave has to know."
"N-Nan desu ka?" I still didn’t look up.
"How to please your master." I’d been afraid of that, and I felt my heart sinking, but he continued. "Now, we know that Közi isn’t your master, but we have to study you and instruct you, and we can’t do that while you’re working on us. But Közi is as pretty as we are, and he’s a good toy to practice on." He pinched Közi’s cheek, but Közi just sighed painfully and looked away quickly. "So go ahead, dorei-chan. Suck."
Lifting my eyes, I reminded myself that I had to do whatever they asked if I wanted to become one of them, and I braced myself even as my eyes darted around me. Just in case there was another hidden way to get out of here… I was almost frantic. Wasn’t there any way to escape?
Yu~ki decided to do me a favor and help me along. He pulled me forward towards Közi by my chain again, then frowned at Közi. "Come on, Közi-chan. You have to act like you’re one of us, if he is to get used to pleasuring a master and not another slave."
"I can’t." This was Közi’s soft response.
Suddenly, Yu~ki smacked him hard across the face, and my eyes flew open, watching intently. But Közi barely seemed hurt. He just recovered himself slowly and nodded, closing his eyes.
Yu~ki took ahold of Közi’s hands and moved them forward, reaching around either side of him, as though he was the puppeteer and Közi the mere puppet. Közi still seemed upset with him, only just hiding his frown, stubbornly forcing Yu~ki to move him because he wouldn’t do this himself. Yu~ki placed Közi’s hands on my head and made him guide me forward as he spread Közi’s legs even wider. Yu~ki made Közi force my head to where he wanted it to be, but when he felt me struggling to back away, he frowned. He tightened his grip on Közi’s hands, which tightened their grip on my hair, causing me to squeal. Firmly Yu~ki shoved my face to Közi’s crotch.
"Do it!" he ordered, pulling his hands away.
Közi’s hands rested uncertainly on my head, lightly, twitching just once as though he wanted to take them away. I was left to myself now. I almost felt as though I was going to die. I turned my eyes down, focusing them on Közi’s midsection, and by now, I was really trembling. It even seemed like Közi had suddenly grown very nervous also. I was terrified… Közi was by no means unattractive to me, but I couldn’t help feeling revolted at the idea of doing this.
What was that feeling? Oh, no! Tears! I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t cry, I told myself. Not in front of them. But I couldn’t stop myself…
Unable to control it any longer, I gave a great shudder and then began to cry, choking on a sob. I raised my unsteady hands to my face, hiding myself from them all, and I began to cry like a child. It was immature of me, but I couldn’t understand this, not any of it. I wondered to myself silently whether, if they knew how distressed I was, they would let me go. But I couldn’t think of that. I was too upset, and I continued to weep. "G-Gomen nasai…! I can’t do it! Don’t make me…"
There was silence at first, since my sobs were muffled.
Then I felt Közi’s touch upon my head again, suddenly, but this time, since Yu~ki wasn’t there to manipulate him, it was soft and gentle, shocked. When I glanced up I saw him staring down at me, his eyes surprised. "Klaha…" His voice was no louder than a whisper.
But before he could say anything more, or before I could control my crying and try to plead with him, Mana’s face appeared over Közi’s shoulder again. Közi felt his presence and fell silent, subduing himself again right away. Still sniffling, I looked up through my tears and my fingers with fear, and I saw that Mana was looking down at me expressionlessly. But there was a tinge of annoyance in him, at my weakness.
"Klaha-chan," he began, his voice tainted with haughtiness.
I stared up at him. He hadn’t called me slave that time, no matter how authoritative his tone had sounded. Could this have meant that he was going to let me go…?
"We gave you an order."
The words were harshly spoken, by no means kind, and told me nothing about escape, only about imprisonment. My heart seized, and then began to sink into my stomach. I felt utterly miserable and even panicked, as I choked down another sob, still looking up at them. Közi was avoiding my eyes again, gazing into the distance half-lidded. There was no way to escape this, and Közi was living proof of that. I would have to do this. I had to do it, had to do it. These words kept running through my head, trying to make me remember them.
I attempted to stop crying. After all, tears were of no use and only made me feel more frightened. I managed to succeed mostly in calming myself down, except for a stray sniffle that escaped from me every moment or so. I stared at what was positioned in front of me.
"Now, do it." Mana’s voice was sharp.
My body was torn between trying to move backwards and forwards. I silently ordered it to go forth, but it didn’t want to, and I lost my balance. Out of instinct I put a hand on either side of Közi’s hips firmly, trying to steady myself but startling him in the process. He also acted out of impulse, as his fingers slid over my own and held my hands there, accidentally digging his nails into my flesh. I almost cried out, and seeing that I was in pain, he bit his lip and started to pull his hands away.
But Yu~ki reached around him again, keeping his hands there. "Don’t let go," he ordered Közi. "Just hang on so he can’t get away, and make him do it."
"Hai, Yu~ki-sama," Közi responded softly. But he didn’t do anything. He was just responding because he knew it was how to defend himself from getting beaten. But in his eyes I could see that he wasn’t about to do anything actively to obey them.
Sighing, Yu~ki shook his head. "Now!" he told me.
I closed my eyes, fighting more tears, and finally was able to convince myself to lean forward.
Közi suddenly let out a rough little gasp of shock, which turned into a tiny moan, when my tongue first touched him. "Oh!" He almost recoiled again, but once more, Yu~ki and Mana held him in place until they were sure that he wouldn’t struggle.
I almost faltered, but forced myself to keep going. I ignored the taste and the sensation, even though they weren’t that unpleasant to me, not as unpleasant as what was going through my mind. I started to lick at him with less abandon now that I had started, even as nausea temporarily overtook me. A blush crept into my face, an ashamed, mortified blush, but it probably didn’t show through my makeup. My tongue-strokes were hesitant and repulsed at first, as I got used to the taste and the feel of someone else. In my mind I told myself to just get through it, and so, my licking became determined and rhythmic, as my tongue warmed Közi with the heat of my mouth.
At first he almost tried to pull away, but Yu~ki pressed his hands over mine again, on his hips, and Mana kept his hands on Közi’s waist, so that he couldn’t leave. Therefore, after a moment, the feeling took him over. His hips shifted beneath me and started to edge closer. Soft heavy breathing erupted from his mouth, as I proceeded more and more intensely. However, I continued to glance up at Közi with wide eyes once and again. I was afraid that I was doing something wrong.
It didn’t seem that way. Közi’s eyelashes were fluttering, and the flesh over his cheekbones was slowly turning more and more pink.
‘What am I doing?’ I suddenly thought, panicked. ‘I have to stop…!’
But when I started to pull away, Yu~ki tightened his grip on Közi’s hands again, making Közi’s fingernails dig into my skin a second time and keep me from pulling away. "Don’t stop," Yu~ki ordered me. "Do it faster."
I surrendered, and took more and more of him into my mouth, slowly at first because I wasn’t used to it, but Mana wouldn’t give me enough time to recuperate. I almost choked when he pushed Közi’s body forward, and abruptly Közi’s flesh filled my mouth and most of my throat. It was so quick that I couldn’t react well, but I suppressed my gag reflex while coughing violently, feeling Közi almost asphyxiating me. Should I have just bit him and been done with it?
Sensing my hesitance, Yu~ki seemed slightly annoyed and ordered again, "I said don’t stop."
Mana hissed at me, "Be a good slave. If you can’t do this, you can’t do anything."
I suddenly felt violated, rebellious, all over again. Not only was I forced to do this, but I had an audience, an audience that was threatening me. I felt so used, even as I struggled to obey them. My heart was leaping in my chest, and even though the mere idea of doing this was shocking to me, I couldn’t help but feel myself hardening again as I sucked at Közi. To fight the arousal that I didn’t want to feel, I tried to distract myself by sucking and licking even more fervently than before, just trying to end it quickly.
Közi knew that he was a tool. He knew that he was, in essence, only here as a scratching post, a practice dummy, and therefore, he tried to remain silent, biting hard on his lip. But then…
He was having trouble restraining himself any longer. Although he was still on the steady climb to an orgasm, he was losing the control to remain obedient. His body was twitching and quivering strongly, and when I intensified my sucking, he moaned, breathing deeply. Yu~ki frowned at him and gave him a little push. "Quiet," he commanded.
But Közi couldn’t obey him. I wondered for a moment if he could even hear him at this point. Közi merely gasped, his eyes very wide, and then something in him seemed to tell him that this was wrong, just what my mind had been telling me, albeit for different reasons. Through the pleasure, he started to struggle again, tried to pull away and move back from me. He jerked his hands away from mine, his nails coming out of my skin, fortunately, and he squirmed to escape.
This enraged Mana and Yu~ki. Apparently Yu~ki decided to take over, and he came closer towards Közi, sitting just behind him, and opened his legs so that he could pull Közi right back against his chest, without yet pulling him out of my mouth. I was fighting for air now myself.
Yu~ki slid one strong arm around Közi’s waist, keeping Közi’s back against his chest, while placing his other hand over his mouth. Közi blinked quickly, eyelashes fluttering, caught between pleasure and panic, but Yu~ki’s hand remained there in an attempt to stifle his voice.
But each gasp, each soft moan, reached my ears anyway, however muffled.
Mana snapped at me again, "Don’t stop!" which frightened me into quickly going back to sucking on Közi, glancing up at them nervously. If they were treating Közi this way, then I could trust them even less with how they would treat me. However, even though Közi was enjoying it, even though he seemed to be wrapped up tighter and tighter in his passion, he couldn’t help but try to escape, like me. To calm him down, Yu~ki lowered his head and began to lick steadily at Közi’s neck, his motions somehow in perfect time with mine, obviously on purpose.
Startled, Közi twitched and froze for a moment, and then looked even more conflicted. Then, slowly, his hands crept back to mine, but instead of clutching them with his nails, he merely rested his fingers on top of mine, almost gently, trembling in sync with his body as those moans continued rising into Yu~ki’s hand. Yu~ki’s tongue rolled over his skin, lips strongly sucking, so that I could see slight bruise marks the few times that he pulled away before continuing to lap at him.
Even though I was inexperienced, I began to realize that Közi was approaching climax. His gasps were starting to quicken. I slowed my pace, to catch my breath as I slid my tongue back into my mouth a little bit. All I could feel was fear. Maybe if I could pull away before it all happened… so I wouldn’t have to swallow…
But Közi reached that point on his own too quickly.
His entire body seemed to quake suddenly, and his hands with their sleek blood-red-painted nails dug into my own hands, again, since he couldn’t help it. His eyes widened, his back arching, and he cried out once, a shocked cry that disappeared into Yu~ki’s palm. His body started to relax a moment later, as he tightly closed his eyes, the last traces of himself temporarily purging themselves from his body.
I was unable to get away. When Közi suddenly came into my mouth, I was startled and unprepared for it, and almost choked myself again, with horror.
"Swallow it," Yu~ki told me fiercely, pulling back from Közi’s neck. "All of it."
As it flooded into my mouth, I stared up at all three of them, even Közi, who was still lost in his passion, who had not realized what was going on yet. ‘Oh, no,’ I could only think, unable to swallow for the moment. ‘Not his… in my mouth… I have to…?’
I almost began to cry again, right there. This was not fair. This would be in my nightmares for the rest of my life. I couldn’t believe that I was letting them abuse me like this. But I couldn’t cry, because my mouth was too busy. I hastily began to swallow, to avoid making a mess or forcing them to become angry with me, tears pricking at my eyes as I did so, paralyzed. I didn’t want to get hit again. It didn’t matter what this tasted like, or how it felt sliding down my throat, saltiness lingering on my tongue.
Közi came back to earth while I was swallowing, and he looked down to see me struggling to finish consuming him. He gasped, shocked, and immediately released my hands, looking aghast, ashamed, and angry, as though he never would have wanted this to happen. "Klaha…!"
"You shut up," Mana told him sharply.
As Közi immediately closed his mouth, still looking down at me, I realized just what an amateur I was. My inexperience made itself evident, for even as I tried hard to swallow it all, little rivulets of Közi’s semen began to flow out of the corners of my mouth, down my neck.
Yu~ki sighed and shrugged, shaking his head. "He’ll get used to it, after a while," he said to Mana. "Then he’ll be able to swallow it all."
Mana studied me for a long moment, as I gasped for air, aware of the mess that I had unintentionally created. He seemed to be trying to figure out what to do with me. At last, petting Közi on the head to get his attention, he said, "Közi-chan, you take care of it."
I wondered if, after a time of being with them, I would ever be able to read Mana’s and Yu~ki’s minds as Közi seemed to be able to do. He apparently knew exactly what Mana wanted him to do, and tensed up. But he had no choice but to obey. He turned his eyes back down onto me slowly, nervously, watching as I breathed heavily and stared at the floor.
Since Közi didn’t act immediately, Yu~ki reached down and found my chain, coiling it around his fingers, just as I noticed and looked up suddenly, afraid. What if I hadn’t done it right? It had seemed as though Közi had enjoyed it, but now, it seemed like Yu~ki might hit me, since I had been unable to swallow all of what had resulted.
Yu~ki began to pull me up by the chain. I was a bit weakened, and my body was dragged up against my will.
"Here," Yu~ki said now. As Közi sat there numbly, Yu~ki adjusted me so that Közi and I were at the same level, as I tried to regain my balance, holding myself on one knee. When Közi saw that I was about to fall over, he reached out, his arms going around me, clasping my lifeless body upright. Yu~ki seemed to approve of this, and released my chain, disappearing to sit with Mana and watch.
Közi appraised my face for a long moment, a bit of worry making itself evident in the careful expressionlessness of his eyes. I was helplessly trying to look away, trying not to grab onto his arms even though I needed the support. I wanted to avoid showing my shame, embarrassment, and grief… sitting here naked with his semen trickling down from my mouth… Közi’s eyes were drawn to that, to the glistening trails of himself still glowing a bit from my swollen lips.
"Stay still for a moment," he whispered, then started to clean me off.
His movements were almost calm. As I stared at him, he leaned forward, tilting my face slightly, and began by kissing me softly on my lips, apparently not even expecting me to respond. He was trying to get rid of his own mess, I could tell that. He kissed the corner of my mouth, his tongue snaking out to catch his own liquid, wherever it stained my skin, even though his eyes were sad and slightly disgusted as he did so. He’d probably been forced to do this before.
He kept going with these light kisses down my chin, on both sides of my mouth, until my face was dry. Then there was my throat to take care of, so he gently lifted my face upwards and attacked it, at least, the parts that were revealed around the collar. He licked slowly, passing his tongue again and again over my skin, determined to banish those stains… not knowing that he was torturing me. I could only think, as he absorbed the remnants of his semen, that he was licking me clean like a cat.
I let out a soft moan, and even I didn’t know whether it was from pleasure or pained fear. "No… Let me go," I implored him.
Közi swallowed and looked at me with a little twinge of something, maybe desperation. Though he said nothing, in his eyes I could see, ‘Trust me, I wish that I could.’
But before he could speak, I heard a laugh from Yu~ki, a low murmur in his throat. Yu~ki’s voice said, although I couldn’t see him yet, "Don’t stop there, Közi-chan. He can’t leave. This is only the beginning, and he still has so much to learn. Ano… kiss him, or something, at least."
Pausing, Közi brought me towards him and kissed my lips again. He knew what he was expected to do, and therefore, he leaned backwards, slowly drifting onto the mattress. I took this as a chance to run, but I couldn’t even get onto the ground, since his arms were loosely draped around me. Once he was laying on his back, and I was trying to pull away from him, Yu~ki and Mana came over.
"Stop struggling," Yu~ki ordered me, and pushed me down, so that I was laying on top of Közi.
I was nothing but a helpless, naked slave. A toy. This was so demeaning. I didn’t want to feel Közi’s body underneath mine… no… I really didn’t… I tried to convince myself. I squirmed, trying to pull away, but the chain and the collar kept me firmly restrained.
Mana took over Közi’s movements for him, just as Yu~ki had taken over mine for me. Mana slid Közi’s arms around my body more tightly.
"Don’t try to get away," Yu~ki said to me again.
I stared up over at him, shaking with fear.
Mana took a moment to think again, not noticing this change in me. Perhaps he did notice it, and just silently decided that not only was it something that couldn’t be helped, but something that he WANTED me to feel. Then, looking down at Közi, he commanded him, "Go ahead."
Közi gazed up at Mana, for a moment. Then at me.
"And make it rough. You’re being too soft with him."
I couldn’t guess at what was going through Közi’s mind. Somehow it seemed as though he was enjoying this, for his body was quivering slightly beneath mine, his arms almost instinctively tightening of their own accord, and he was already growing aroused again, his erection against my hip. But at the same time, it was as though he didn’t want to have anything more to do with me.
Nonetheless, he couldn’t defy Mana’s orders. Therefore, pulling me down to him carefully, he started to kiss me, softly at first. Then when Mana cleared his throat, he kissed me more intensely, so that I couldn’t even pause for breath. I had never thought to myself, after months of knowing the three of them, that Közi could make me feel dizzy like this, and not just because I couldn’t breathe. For some reason, as his lips worked with mine, I felt as though under a spell.
But then, deciding that things had to get even rougher, Mana reached out and put his hand on Közi’s wrist. He slowly moved Közi’s arm, so that his hand glided down along the curve of my back, making me shiver. Közi didn’t stop kissing me, even as he allowed himself without surprised to be manipulated again.
Now, Mana slid Közi’s hand over my behind. I gasped, knowing better than to speak rudely to them, since it would land me in even more trouble. Even as my heart was thumping, I tried to restrain myself. "Stop it!"
"Shush!" Mana said.
Közi became utterly limp, and even stopped kissing me. He seemed to want no part in violating me like this, and obstinately yet quietly looked away.
Mana saw that I couldn’t stand it, but seemed quite angry that I would dare try to escape his touch, even if Közi was the tool between us. But then he saw that it was no use. "All right, Közi-chan, I think that you may take a break. You’ve done enough for the time being, though I expect that after you have a few minutes off, you will be more enthusiastic." He shot him a glare. "I’m disappointed with you. When you order you, you must obey!"
"Hai, Mana-sama." Közi’s whisper was barely audible.
Mana seemed content with this, but slowly his eyes slid onto me again, and he smiled in delight. "My turn…"
---to be continued---
GLOSSARY
hai: yes
dorei-chan: "slave"
nan desu ka: what is it
gomen nasai: I’m very sorry
To be continued
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