A Brother's Love is Never Forgotten

SPECIAL WORDS FROM STEVEN TO JOSH:

When my mom told me she was going to help me make a page from me for Josh and asked me if I wanted to write something I did not know what to write but all I can do is write what I feel.

I honestly don't feel that I have been a good brother to Josh, I was never there for him and he was always there for me. I guess that is what hurts me the most when he needed me I wasn't there and I was always running and getting into trouble. I feel I took advantage of Josh.

Josh was such a good brother to me, he would have done anything for me, he wanted me to straighten out my life and I couldn't even do that for him. If I could do it all over again I would do much different, I would have listened to him because all Josh wanted from me was to do good and to live a good life.

In the past few years me and Josh were really starting to get close and doing things together. Ever since I started to get older me and Josh started to really hit it off but I still kept doing the same old stuff, but I can't change that now all I can do now is straighten out my life and try to honor him.

Josh I hope you like my poems they come from my heart, I love you Josh and I miss you so much.

Love Steven

I need you

I don't know what to do,
I don't know where to go.
I don't know how to smile,
I don't know how to cry.
I don't know how to move,
I don't know how to sleep.
I don't know how to breath,
I don't know how to see.
I need you Josh to guide me.

March 10, 2005

Love Steven
(copyright@2005)

I have this love

I have this love,
this love that will never go away.
This love is to special and it is so great.
This love stays with me day after day.
This love for my brother will never go away
but I want you to know Josh
it seems like yesterday.
Come back and be with us,
we need your love to stay...

March 10, 2005

Love Steven
(copyright pending)

I HaveThis Fear

I have this fear,
this fear to accept that my brother is gone,
because he is alive, he
will always be alive to me.
He will never die in my heart.

I have this fetish,
this fetish to tell everyone about Josh,
to tell people how wonderful he is
and how he changed my life.

I have this special love,
a love that will never go away
and will stay with me until I die
and can be with Josh.

I have a warmth,
a warmth that I know
my brother will be there for his family
and make sure we are ok.

I have this knowledge,
a knowledge that I know
Josh is ok and will be ok.
I have this knowledge that Josh
is with God.

I might have all these things
but I don't have you physically.
Josh we all need you,
I miss you, I love you Josh,
please tell me it is a nightmare,
please wake me up.
Josh, please come home..

Love Steven
(copyright pending)

Josh,
If you were alive
would you be there through the hard times?
If you were alive
would you be here by our sides?
If you were alive
would you tell us everything was alright?
If you were alive
would you tell us right from wrong?
If you were alive
I know you would be there through those hard times.
If you were alive
you would be there by our sides.
If you were alive
you would tell us everything was alright.
If you were alive
you would tell us right from wrong.
just like you always did.
You know how I know this Josh?
You're the best brother
anyone could ever have and
Josh all I want to know is
are you alright?

I love you...love Steven
(copyright pending)

THE LOSS OF A BROTHER

To lose a brother is to lose oneself,
for a part of me is gone...
and now I'm left to reminisce
as I try to carry on.

The thought of you not being here
has torn my world apart...
yet everyday I feel you near,
a blessing to my heart.

Your memory comforts me today
in ways I wish you knew...
but tears are falling from the pain
that comes from losing you.

I see your face in the morning sun
and in the moon at night...
I wonder how you're feeling now,
I pray that you're alright.

and one day when my time has come
to soar with eagles wings...
We'll be joined forevermore
to laugh, to live, to sing.

(Author unknown)

I love you Josh
he aint heavy, he's my brother
Love Steven