We went to Nysma majors today. I thought that we sucked but we got a gold medal... i don't even know why they call it a medal it is more of a sticker on a piece of paper.... actually that it exactally what it is..... Well, i don't know what to do about everything... the world is just spinning around me. I know what i am talking about. I want to step out side and watch in sdted of being a part of it all... there is so much to see and it will pass me by because i wasn't spinning my head quick engough to see it. i know that there is something out side of this box that i have made for myself and i am currentlyliving in but i don't think that i will see it now. My box is cozy, in here i have all my comforts. The things that i don't want in here i just leave out it is as simple as that.
I don't want to move.. i mean i just got settled here. i hope that i can get away with keeping my old address and pretending that i never moved in the first place. wow if we do move it is going too be really soon. my dad already put an offer up on the house. i don't know... i think that the house itself is really kool and i really like the yard and deck and all but it will be too much of a change if i change schools too... Althought i will se my friends out side of school... it just won't be the same.... my relationships in that school will only be as strong as the relationships that i currently have. although i do have great friends and all who knows what the people there are going to be like.....its different starting as a freshman its like you are ALL in a new school and you ALL need to find your way around... but starting in a new school next year! i just don't know about that one... well i wrote a lot today... bye
~Jordyn |
