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our Little Joey, forever |
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Mommy and Daddys Sweetie Pie |
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This is by far the most difficult page for me to even begin....I guess mostly I wish the story still could continue, but in many ways Joseph has forever, touched people in his short time with us.....Joseph Christian McGraw...God how I loved the name when we decided upon it..it was just destined for greatness...and so he was......
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Finding out we were expecting twins, was by far the most important news Lou and I had ever experienced..we knew our lives would be forever changed...I was scared, but I read so much |
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on the subject that when Joseph and Daniel arrived I felt more than ready..I looked forward to the challenge and I looked mostly forward to the interaction between the two of them...Daniel was silly while Joey was more the "straight man" of the two...but Joey developed quicker as far as motor skills...I thank God for every smile we captured...when he pooped he would let you know right away while Danny would sit in it..LOL...They were just perfect for one another...Joey's favorite show was Rugrats..he would sit every morning in his infant chair sucking his bottle in front of the TV...the theme song always caught his attention but he would literally continue watching until the end. This is why I chose this theme for his home page.....Joey was a little more vocal than Daniel..so following his death our home was just so silent...Joey always let you know if he was not happy with something...I remember feeding him was funny..I was literally the only one who could feed him faster than he could spit it out!!...We fed him spinach once and that was an absolute YUCK!!!..Our family is quite loud, and we would laugh because often Joey would sit in his infant chair laying his head in one hand...like he couldn't believe this was his family!!! I wish we could have captured a pic of that...I wish we could have captured so many moments...I remember being amazed at how straight and long Joeys fingers and toes were...considering I was carrying two, I thought for sure they would both be curled up but Joey had a very straight posture and I just loved holding him...if you had handed me Danny or Joey while blindfolded, I would have known who was who...Although twins, they were by far individualistic and I was determined to encourage that throughout their growing years...
Of course all of these dreams I had for Joey have gone on with him...He was such a beautiful baby and it hurts when so many people in our lives had yet to meet him until he passed...
JOSEPH WE LOVE AND MISS YOU MORE THAN WORDS COULD SAY....
mom, dad, michael, eric, megan,morgan and daniel..... . |
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CLICK ON THE TEDDY BELOW TO SEE A TRIBUTE TO JOEY MADE BY AMANDA, HANNAHS MOMMY....THANKS AMANDA |
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CLICK BELOW TO MEET MY MOMMY AND DADDY!!!! |
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MOMMYS
SWEETIE PIE.......
Happy 2nd Birthday!!!
JOSEPH CHRISTIAN!!!!!!!! |
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Happy 3rd Birthday Joseph Christian!!!
Love Mommy and Daddy and all your brothers and sisters.... |
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The following images were sent to me and if I could read the artists name clearly I would credit them immediately. These images convey what I hope Joey is experiencing.....Love Mommy |
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May Jesus Play with you...... |
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May Jesus Love You....... |
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May you have the finest teacher...... |
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I have often wanted to write to express the way I feel.....and even today April 18, 2003, my heart still longs even more for Joey to be back with us all....where he belongs.
I still try to make some sense of why he is gone.....the feeling of emptiness just goes on and on and never really fades with time.....Have you ever lost something? You know approximately where you put it and for those few minutes you go crazy looking ? That is how I always feel....I am always missing someone in my life, and even more so, a part of myself....You cannot escape a loss that is a part of you....you certainly cannot ignore it.
Our longing for Joey cannot be expressed in words such as We miss you or We love you and want you back....it is so much deeper than that....it is a constant sense of loss and wanting so much to change something we cannot.
I would put so much value into "things" that I would buy for him.....tributes to his life and even articles in the paper....but nothing is bringing me the satisfaction I crave; for my son is still gone....I hope some day I can be the me I was.....but without Joey back in my life I doubt it.
MOMMY LOVES YOU......... |
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september 29, 2003-
Your third Birthday has only proven that time does not heal all wounds.....We miss you very much in our lives Joseph.....dont think for a moment your life has been forgotten. |
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December 25, 2003
Hi Joey....know what Mommy just learned? The composer of one of the most famous XMAS songs, Irving Berlin, also lost a son to SIDS......this is why he dreamed of the "Ones he used to know"......Christmas will never be the same without you, honey...miss you very much and love you even more......HUGS....Merry Christmas in Heaven baby....LUV, Mommy |
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September 29, 2004.....HAPPY FOURTH BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN SWEETIE....LOVE MOMMY |
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January 21, 2005.....Hi Joey, I cannot believe you have been gone FOUR long years from my arms....I swear, there has not been a moment since you passed, that I have not thought of you. I just miss you so much....our lives are forever changed and it is just so unfair to have lost the chance to raise you.....I just don't understand it at all. I love you....I hope you know that mommy and daddy did not want to let you go.....love mommy |
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Septemver 29, 2005...Happy 5th Birthday Joey...Danny has begun Kindergarten, and I wish so much with all my heart and soul that you should be here with us.....I cannot help thinking it would have been just such an awesome, fun and wild experience...I miss you so much and hold you always..Love Mommy |
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