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YOU NOT ME

"Get off that fuckin' chair" He snapped
With a growl like a bear
I didn't move quite fast enough
So he dragged me by the hair

"When I fuckin' speak" He said
"You do it straight away"
So he ragged me past the fireside
Smashing mums disply

"Now look what you've done you prick"
He growlled and walked away
As he sat down on his poxy chair
I thought "I'll have you one day"

He saw himself as a real hard case
But only in the home
Because in the pub with other men
He could never hold his own

Outside he was a weakling
As terrified as me
His father treated him like shit
The way he treated me

The thoughts of getting back at him
Really filled my brain
And then I thought
Getting back at him would make me just the same

I knew then that I would not fight
Because that goes on and on
So what I did was talk to folk
Doctors, counselors and so on

After years and years of talking
I know why I was abused
It wasn't me he was angry at
It was himself he couldn't face
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MERRY CHRISTMAS

Christmas has gone and new year passed
It's another year, just like the last
They tell you everything starts anew
Who believes that? Only a few

Every yearpoliticians
Babble out their resolutions
More cash for NHS institutions
But what do we get? More cuts in pensions.

They promised the homeless would all have flats
But they're still there living among the rats
Shutting hospitals down for community care
Where's all the money you promissed was there?

My best friend died out there
Because there was no cash to spare
He was suicidal in his lonely room
The doctors said "Sorry"
So he died alone

There's also this couple I see quite a lot
Outside the off licence at 9 on the dot
They blow all their Giro on ciggies and drink
They fight all night then don't remember a thing

I saw a man on the street today
His hair was dirty matted and grey
His shoes were old, his clothes were in rags
He was carrying his life in two plastic bags

I felt really sad as a young man stopped
He offered him chips and a bottle of coke
Then came two coppers, who just for the buzz
Said "Beggings illegal, You're coming with us"

Don't try to deny that all this goes on
Stop hinding your head in that bucket of sand
I only have one thing to say after that
Merry christmas. You out of touch middle class twats.

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ACID

I found myself in the cold nigh air
Not knowing when Not knowing where
Was I living? or was I dead?
This acid. Man it's fried my head

I only knew that I must step over
This rainbow bridge that spans the river
As I took a step I hit the water
The icy cold went on forever

The cold had brought me to myself
I found a ladder from this icy hell
Then I knew I was on the quay
Two men in black were waiting for me

I turned and ran in fear of my life
These men were demons with eyes of night
They followed me along the dock
These things weren't human, they ran like a horse

One of them jumped and caught my legs
The put me in chains of the living dead
They said "We're Police, now just keep calm"
I said "You can't save me. I'm already damned"

They said "Just slow down and think what you said"
"You're still alive, you're not really dead"
I thought for a moment to clear my head
Then I saw the badges they read "Waffen SS"

By this time their grip had eased a bit
So I tried to run, but managed to slip
As they tried to grab me, one of them fell
We rolled over the dock, back to Icy Hell

We fell over the quay and into the river
The icy cold was colder than ever
I couldn't swim because of the chains
So The SS dragged me out again

By this time they were really mad
They threw me hard into their van
I knew this time I was really gone
But they tried to convince me I was going home

I don't know what happened after that
I woke up in hospital, and felt like a prat
One nurse said "You're back with us then"
I looked for my watch, But it had gone

I asked the time. He said "3am"
I said "That's great Jarre's on the telly then"
The nurse just smiled and said "What's the date"
I said "January 1st, Turn it on we'll be late"

He smiled again, and looked at his mate
He "It's the 22nd you've been out for three weeks"
"We had to keep you well drugged up"
"With that acid you took, you were acting up"

A few days later I met the cops
You know the ones who pulled me out of the dock
I felt like a fool, and said "I'm really sorry"
The pair just smiled and said "It's all in our duty"
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