�What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride/from these bad dreams. And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I/sit here and try to stand it? Or do I/try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust someone and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can�t hold on/when I�m stretched so thin, I make the right moves but I�m lost within, I put on my daily fa�ade but then, I just end up getting hurt again� By myself (myself) I ask why, but in my mind, I find I can�t rely on myself��- Linkin Park "By Myself"
Prologue
I looked at him, and smiled. �What�s up?� I asked as I sat on the couch Indian style. He sat down beside me, and said nothing just looked at me. �What�s wrong?� I asked a look of concern flashed across my face. He said nothing. He looked at me for a long while and put his head in his hands. �AJ�your�your scaring me,� I said.
�Nick�� He managed to get out.
�Baby�what�s wrong with Nick?� I asked.
I could hear him crying, whimpering. �AJ�� I hugged him, and he rested his head on my chest. �Baby what�s wrong with Nick?� I repeated once again. He sniffled, and looked up at me with teary eyes. I wiped away his tears.
�Nick�Nick�s been cutting himself� OH GOD� *sob*,� He choked out.
�Oh my God,� A look of horror crossed my face. �Well� can we see him?� I asked.
He nodded. �Only family,�
�Well� I can see him right?� I asked.
He nodded again.
�Come baby,� I said pulling him up. I led him to his car. �Where are your keys?� I asked. He threw me his keys, and I opened the door.
How could I not have seen this coming? I�m so stupid! He�s my cousin� he tells me everything�why didn�t he tell me this?
We drove in silence to the hospital, where Nick was.
Chapter One