Myselfish Me
I push you away
protect myself
save myself
From what?
I fear the black hole
of emotion
I see
surrounding you
I feel it drawing at me
reaching for me
and pulling me in
I've been here before
can't return
won't
won't return
I refuse to lose myself
in you
I liked who I was
I hate what I've become
selfish
petty
fearful
need you, never did
Or did I?
I regret
the pain you feel
I regret
I regret
nothing
save myself
protect myself
I survive
intact
whole, complete
without you
and I wonder
about you
about the black hole
did the void
Swallow you whole
like it once nearly did
to
Me?
-jk (10/20/98)
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