mylove

I don't know about the whole sweetie thing!! haha j/k Well, this whole page is dedicated to just that, my love, Chris Letson. Ready for the sappy stuff!!?? He means so much to me you could only imagine. We actually met through a friend of my ex-boyfriend's. Me and a friend (Chelle) decided to go down to Camp Pendleton to visit this friend one weekend and later decided to go out that night. He ended up bringing about 9 of his Marine buddies with us, Chris being one of them. At first it was nothing but attraction, especially since I was still in a sense, taken! About a month later he started coming up with this friend to Bakersfield, where I lived at the time. Somehow we started dating and seeing eachother every weekend when they came up. I just knew he was different, but I didn't know what I was feeling or what would happen. Things developed and we actually became "an item" in August (but we concider July 23 the day since that is when we started dating). It took awhile for both of us to really open up to eachother, but I think we both just somehow knew. The thing that really held it all back was that I was going in the Air Force within the next couple months. I was all set to leave and we knew it wouldn't work. I shipped out that September, when we had only been together for 2 months, but something happened (long story) and I had to come home. It's amazing how things work out. It was meant to happen. I was devastated, of course, but again, everything happens for a reason. I went through a lot for a couple months, but we were together through all of it. That Christmas (1999) he asked me to go home with him to GA on his leave. I guess that's where it really started. I realized how much I loved him and wanted to be with him. We returned to Cali and for awhile I really didn't know where we stood because we both felt really awkward expressing ourselves still. I knew I had to do something with my life. I had been putting off going back to the Air Force because I thought we were going somewhere. By then, we had been together 7-8 months. I didn't know whether he really wanted me, but I knew I had to do something with myself. I decided that I was going to go back to the Air Force and at least do the Reserves to hopefully save our relationship. I told him about my plan and how I felt like we weren't going anywhere. That is the moment that changed everything in my life. He then told me "You didn't think I was going to take you home with me when I got out (of the Marine Corp)?" WOW!! I never knew. He said reserves was a NO so..... in a sense I gave up going back in the Air Force for him. My relocating happened sooner than I thought. He later asked me if I wanted to move back there, live with his family and get settled while he was on his last float with the Marines and later get married. Sooo.... July 2000, I moved to Lula, GA from California, where I was born and raised for the man I loved. He left July 29, 2000 to go back to Cali and prepare to go on his last deployment. He was gone from July 29 - February 16, 2000. That's about 7 months. I moved out there and three weeks later he left. I went through some really hard times that you probably can't imagine. The biggest change of my life happened in 7 months. Not only did I change, I matured and learned a lot about myself and my relationship. There were many lonely days and nights where I thought I would never make it. I had to adapt to everything new. The way things were out here, talk, traditions, getting to know his family, living somewhere I knew nothing of, were just the start of my daily routine. I can not express the feelings that went on inside because I can't even understand them. How do you act when the one person's hands you put your life and trust in, leaves? I have to say it was definitely a life changing experience. I NEVER want to go through it again, but I know it was the biggest learning experience, not only about my feelings, but the way I handled situations, my strength to keep it together and maintain a job, get to know people, adapt, etc. With the whole bombing of the Cole and the terrorist threats and with him in all that, it was hard enough to breathe, let alone the everyday trials. He is home now (thank God) and July 23 2001 will be 2 yrs. You never know you can love so much until that love is taken away, whether it be forever or just awhile. Anyway, I just wanted to share how much I love Chris. It better be obvious!!! haha He is my everything. There is my novel, "The Story of Us!" hehe :0)~