a beautiful mind
friday, january 18, 2002
i couldn't sleep very well last night. just as i settled in, my roommate and a guy stumbled in. it's not unusual, though i'm relieved to say it only happens perhaps once a week. and usually, they just very quietly settle in and go to sleep. unfortunately, i can't.
our two closets divide our room into slightly uneven halves, with a wall separating each half, so it does allow for quite a lot of privacy. but despite that, every sigh, every cough, ever twist and turn on the bed sheets becomes greatly audible. and i become incredibly self conscious.
i have allergies which render it difficult for me to go to sleep because my nose is chronically stuffy. i cannot go to sleep if the room/bed is too hot, and my pillows have to be bunched up just so, or i'm too uncomfortable. picky, picky.
now, after half a year, i have no problem settling in with just princess in the room. she snores, so that took the pressure off of me, since i snore as well. but when she has company.. i try and not to make a sound, i try to shift, and twist, and shift around without making a lot of noise, and i have to find a way to drape my bedspread about so that it does not get overly hot, yet still cover up enough for me not to feel embarrassed should somebody need to walk past me to the bathroom.
so. what i'm trying to say is--i didn't sleep very well last night. hrm. fascinating. because i was so tired, i got very little work done. i spent hours half-sleeping in my office chair, trying not to make it tip over backwards. just as i was falling asleep, the computer guy stopped by for the afternoon to fix our computers. heh. so much for sleep.
eventually i was getting to my sleepy state again when my boss decided it was the perfect time for me to have my introductory lesson in photography. he hauled out the 35 mm camera and the lenses and the books, and suddenly my head was swirling with aperture and shutter speeds. so i gave up. no sleep for me.
so i decided to go see a movie. i went and saw a beautiful mind. and i saw, and i cried, and i smiled, and i loved. simply enchanting and heart breaking. ed harris was amazing! they were all pitch-perfect. beautiful, beautiful movie. i think the courtship between nash and alicia was the most wonderful i've seen depicted on screen in a long time. you don't get to see awkward people so much.
i was really amazed to reach the theater and find that the showing was sold out. it made me very happy. it deserved a packed house. and i cried for nash, and i cried for alicia, and i was stunned by the patterns that appeared. very, very welldone. very, very sad. and real.
my only question is... how many of us associate a schizophrenic math genius who often forget to eat and stay inside to work on theories with a tanned crowe with bulging forearms? i think i would have made an extra effort in math class if that had walked into the room, ever. hee.
actually, that's a lie--math is not my friend, but i like to watch movies about people who are close associates of math. like pi, or cube, and whatnot. and i want to write on glass too. hee. (funny sidenote: i went to the imdb.com card and read: Rated PG-13 for intense mathematical material, sexual content and a scene of violence. huh? i re-read and.. Rated PG-13 for intense thematic material.. OOOH.. ha ha.)
anyway. i'm obviously just babbling. i bought a box of fresh blueberries. yum. and tomorrow i'm starting my photography training. i have two projects to work on this semester to complete my independent study in photojournalism. i will make a photo-essay on the preparations of our theater department to put on one of their plays, and i'm making another photo-essay on the architecture and campus of this university. i can't wait.
and ruck, our photo editor has promised to bring me along for training shoots when the track stars are practising, so i can study how to take good pictures of bodies in motion. sigh. can't hardly wait.
but i've got blueberries. and i rented a few movies. and the roommate is blissfully gone for the weekend. so. cin cin. and perhaps go see that movie? yes. i wanna date jennifer connelly toooo! whine. �� 10:28 p.m.
