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| May 2004 continued... |
| Tuesday May 18, 2003: Man oh man do bad habits die hard. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I wont be a bit surprised if I find that I have gained weight. I did nothing but munch out all day at work. I need to learn to learn to calm my nerves and keep myself from snacking. It's so easy too, because carbs are so easy to eat. But I have noticed that somethimes when I have eaten something I shouldn't have I feel flushed. Thats' a good thing, maybe it will help strenghten my reserve to fight the good fight. I didn't eat any protein until dinner, a piece of chicken cutlet. I had half a apple muffin and a cup of mixed fruit for lunch. I'm getting bad with my water intake again too. I tell ya this isn't easy. You can easy step off and go right back to where you started. But I'm not going to do it. I have been feeling really crappy though. I never did hear about my blood results so I am going to call tomorrow and find out if everything is okay. Maybe I'll go see my doc for some B12 shots. I really want to get into a gym but with the way I'm feeling, I would fall flat on my face from exhaustion. It's weird because I have been like this since my period last week. I don't know if that has anything to do with it, or if my body is still trying to adjust to the lack of protein I would normally have been able to eat. Speaking of protein, I am surprised I am not bald yet. If you saw what was coming out of my head you would die!!!! My BF is flipping out too. I'm just hoping this ends before you can really begin to tell. I am doing my best to eat only protein, but I can only fit so much. Maybe I can find another to get in more protein, being that the shakes just dont do well in my tummy. Maybe my doc can figure something out. Well wish me luck tomorrow when I weigh in. I pray I haven't gained. |
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| Wednesday May 20, 2004: Booo....weigh in day....:(. I only lost 1 lousey lb. I know I only have myself to blame, but I am soo swollen it's ridiculous. So maybe that has something to do with it. But I did talk to the PA at my surgeon's office and spoke about me feeling so lathargic. My iron is a little low, but stil with in the normal range and the same for my potassium. I don't need any B12 shots because thats in the picture perfect zone. She recommended that I should start exercising more, so I am going ahead with joining the gym. i am going to be more proactive, and that started this morning with my water. It's the one thing I have been horrible with, so as of right now I am almost done with my second bottle of water (makes 40 oz) and I will make sure I get in a third before the night is over. I will beat myself over the head with this every day. My BF said that if we join the gym together his old boss will give us a discount, so I'm just waiting for him to get paid next week so we can join. So I really want to get in gear to lose at the least another 15lbs before we leave for Laconia next month. I have a little less than one month to do it. I know I can do it. I wish I could say I would be under 200lbs at that pint but I will settle for meeting that goal by my 6th month anniversary, hopefully it will be more than that. And yes I promise I will update my pics soon. I just need to buy some more space to upload the pics. So please bear with me.... oh and for anyone trying to email me, please include WLS in your subject. If I don't know who it is or what the email is about I will delete it. Night everyone. |
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| Sunday May 23, 2004: Okay so I've been good, really good. I'm drinking my water and watching what I eat. I walked all over this outdoor mall with my mom yesterday and today I cleaned the house from top to bottom without stopping. I'm surprised, especially since it is real hot up here, or should I say humid. A part of me wishes I had had surgery last year so I would be celebrating my one year anniversary and be way closer to my goal if not already there so I could really enjoy the summer. There were so many clothes I saw when shopping yesterday that I wnated to buy, but what's the sense? They wont fit in another month or two down the road and I am by no means rich....lol. I did buy some nice shoes from payless. Really sexy sandals to wear at work. And even a nice small bag, I need to stop carrying around my backpack, it's killing me. I didn't spend much at all. Actually for 3 pairs of shoes, 4 pairs of ankle socks and a bag I spent about $50. Cheap huh? Maybe I'll go to Target and pick up some cheap capris and shirts. I'd rather spend the money than eat it. Well I'm beat, didn't get much sleep last night. Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend. See you guys in a few days. |
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