Tuesday March 2, 2004:
So far so good this past weekend. I have slacked off on getting in my required amount of water, its so hard to keep drinking something that is so tasteless. But eating at least is getting better. I have tried canned chicken with lowfat mayo and that is like a piece of heaven. i am playing around with trying a piece of a steakums to try and get more protein in me. My stomach does not tolerate the shakes at all, and at the moment because of lack of funds I can't afford to buy the procell protein supplements. I am going to stop at GNC to see if they have a supplement that is cheaper that I can take. As I write this I am trying to eat a fried egg (yes in Pam spray). It's been almost a good two weeks since I've tried an egg, but I am taking it slow.
To be quite honest I am exhausted. I was running all over the place yesterday. I went to a job interview and I know the first manager liked me but the second one, he was way too hard to read. I was very confident for the first time in a long while. I was wearing a new suit (a Jones of NY) that my sisters bought me this past Sunday and my hair way beautiful thanks to my lil sis straightening it out for me and plucking my eyebrows. I felt and looked great!!!! And it wasn't just the suit, I'm down two dress sizes!!!!! I was bordering on a 26W but now I can wear a size 20W !!!!!!! You know I hade a big grin on my face. I felt good, and you know what if that job doesn't want me, well than a better one is waiting fo rme.
i also went and had my one month check up and I am right on target. My scale matches my doc's so I can breathe a sigh of relief that I have lost what I have been writing. I can now start trying to eat more different types of food. Tonight I'm trying flounder and maybe some carrots ( I make fresh carrots boiled down so they are really soft). I also goy my workout DVD "Walking away the Pounds". The girls in the office swear by it, so no matter how tired I am right now, I am going to try it today, at least do 10- 15 minutes. I also went and saw my therapist. She even said for the first time in a long time I looked great. I did look great and it wasn't just the weight loss. It had a lot to do with how I was feeling and carrying myself. We talked about how hard it was and yet how easy my recovery was for me. We also talked about all the things that I can do now that I couldn't before. She has played such a big part in my life in helping me get over my rape and through the worst of my depression. She is like a guardian angel. To be honest I am not ready to let her go, not yet.
Well on another note I'm going to my first support group meeting since surgery. I hope to see Lynn, anya and my lawyer Gary there, I'd love to see their progress and see who else has had any problems. Tonight should prove to be very informative and hopefully fun. And on a side note for anyone who watched Average Joe last night and wanted to beat up Larissa for picking Gil, honk your horns. Stupid woman, she is more shallow than any hunk that was on that show. i can't wait to watch Adam get his turn...oh and lets not forget tomorrow night is the beginning of Kindom Hospital. Can you just tell that I am a tv junkie!!!!! Ciao!!!!
Oh and before I forget, I update my photo page. I'm sorry I didn't take a pic right before surgery, but you can tell a little difference from the earlier pick. There's a 10lbs difference between the first before and the first after. |
