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| Sunday January 19, 2003 Well I finally after two days figured out how to load my pics on the site. So if you haven't eaten yet, be my guest You will notice that as I post more pics all of them will have blocks on my face. This is for my privacy. I know I am posting my life out here, but I would like some anonymity, you never know what creep is stalking the websites....I know from experience. Well I am looking forward to next Thursday. I am hoping that Friday morning when I call the Dr I can get an appointment asap. I hate feeling this way. I may not be 300 or 400+, but there are so many things "skinny" people take for granted that is so hard for me. Simple things like putting sneakers on, or wiping my behind. I know that sounds gross, but how many of you have a wash cloth by the toilet after you wipe, because you know the toilet paper is not going to do the job without leaving little balls of tissue paper in your butt crack? No one like to talk about it, but its true. Or shaving your legs? I have to manipulate my boobs out of the way just to lean over to do anything. Bending over is always a task I do not look forward to. My knees can't take the weight either. And they are beginning to hurt more and more every day. What's worse is my lower spine, I have had quite a few accidents, including a horseback riding accident that almost left me paralyzed. It feels like there is so much pressure right there when I'm standing up. I can't stand or walk for long either. And I know that other people think we are just lazy because we don't move around much....Hello....you carry this weight and see how your body feels. Well enough bitching for today, I'll update you on the seminar next week. |
| Friday January 24, 2003 Well I finally went to the seminar. It came sooner than I expected it to. And it was one less thing to take care of. The seminar while it was informative was a snore in the first 2/3rds. I mean I already knew everything he spoke about. What I did not expect was the amount of people there and some of the questions being asked. I mean really how many questions people had regarding cheating and pushing the limits. It was ridiculus. This is not a miracle fix, its only a tool.....sounds professional right? Hahahaha!!!! But really if you are not commited to the life change then don't do it, it's not worth the time and energy and you're also standing in my way. Obnoxious? Yes but true. I am happy to say that I have my appointment booked with Dr Vohra for March 3rd and the 5th (I'll explain the 2 parts appoint in the section on the seminar). So I have just a month to finish getting my prelims from Dr Gadaleta done. Plus a few letters from doctors just to put the icing on the cake. Dr Vohra says that from the time of his appoint till surgery takes three months due to prelims, but if I have everything done I'm hoping to be booked by April or early May. Hell that's better than July!!! Well that's it for now, I'm at work and I want to get out on time. I'm going to do a whole page on the seminar itself, for anyone looking to prepare or looking for additional information. Oh and if you like what you see please sign my guest book, if you are looking for certain information I'd be more than happy to send it to you. Or just send me your encouragements, pretty please.......Ciao!!!! |
| Wednesday January 29, 2003 Sorry I haven't updated, I've been miserably sick and I haven't gone in to work the past two days. I've tried a couple of times to get online and work on my seminar page but every time I sign on, I just can't muster the strength to even think of anything intelligent to say. So hence, I vegged in front of the tv watching maury, and oprah. I slept through jerry springer and jenny jones (fake).... Well I'm back, not a 100% but I'm alive and kicking and I've got work to do. I first need to get a hold of the letters both the dietician and my endocrinologist wrote and sent to Dr G, so I can have it ready for Dr Vohra. I also need to get on the ball with My shrink, she is going to have to mail me the letter of approval. I don't think I should wait till next month. I also need to talk with my regular Dr. I need a letter from him as well documenting my diet efforts and his opinion regarding having surgery. I also need to get on the ball and make appointments for the rest of my prelims, I've gotten lazy about it, and they need to get done. There are a few more things, like sending Dr Vohra my questionaire and calling my oncologist in manhattan. I have so much to do in such a short month. But if I don't do it I can't have the surgery, god I'm such a procrastinator. I really need to start hauling my behind. I know it's because it's gettiing closer that I'm actually getting a bit afraid of the procedure. This is it, once it's done, it's done. It's a big deal and it's a scary thought. Well I'll touch more on that later. Bye for now. |
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