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| Wednesday August 9, 2006: It has been another rough two weeks. I don't know how I am managing working these nights in that oven. And the not sleeping well, it's nuts. But at least it's only another 3 weeks after this week to go. Not that i want to rush this summer by because there is still so much wedding planning left to do it's insane. At least the extra money is helping, I got my haircut and my contacts. And believe me there is still much more to take care of...lol. I just don't know what is going on with my body. I'm not eating much at all, I can't because I'm working nights and I'm lucky enough to eat an eggroll, I know it's not healthy but it's all I have time to eat and grab. My weight has maintained, and I can't seem to drop anymore weight. It's really frustrating. And this Titan lift, some days it looks like it's made a difference and some days no. I go for my 5th treatment next weekend and then I have one more. After the last one I'll post the before & after. Hopefully the money I invested on this will have been worth it. Well I am home amazingly enough, is that really a word? Oh well it's one now. I called in sick today, I just couldn't bring myself to get out the door, I was exhausted and last night at the laundry mat wasn't bad. Though I was feeling really weak last night and I did fall asleep right away. Maybe everything is catching up to me. Well I need to clean my place as much as I can before I head out to the laundry mat. I will try and update soon. Thanks for stopping by... |
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| Sunday August 27, 2006: Wow it feels like forever since I last posted. I am finally done with the laundry mat, thank God. I feel like I am completely exhausted and my body is worn out completely. I have been done for a week, |
| and I still don't think I have recouperated. I actually spent all day yesterday in bed. I'm sure that wasn't great for me, but I couldn't get myself moving. If it wasn't for the fact that I had to do laundry today and do some house cleaning I probably would have been in the same poition...hahaha!!! Anyway on to the good news.... I am done to 191 lbs!!! Woohoo, I am finally starting to lose again. I pray this keeps going in this direction. I really truly believed that workiong in the laundry mat sweating and all that lifting was going to do something for me and it didn't. My weight didn't budge till I left that place. I don't get. My body is just so freaking weird that I am beyond understanding. But I don't care if I can at least hit 100 lbs lost. That would just be plain amazing. On other news, my invitations are out and gone. Holy crappers this is really happening. I've been having alot of doubts these past couple of days. Not that I'm doubting marrying him, as seeing myself in that dress and hoping everything comes out in the reception as I hope it will. The whole idea of it being disappointing has really gotten to me. That it is not going to be this fantastic day and that everything that can go wrong will. Is that strange? Am I just losing my mind? I have not turned into a bridezilla, not even close, but I am starting to feel so unsure of so many ideas that I have had. Maybe I'm just tired, and just so overworked that it's all getting to me. It is starting to stress me. Wondering how it will come together, trying to get the money up to pay for it all. I did take a break from it all this week, no wedding planning no nothing about weddings. The closest thing I did to wedding planning was to go through all the magazines one last time and toss them out. And now next week is back to the grind. My sisters and I are going back to the drawing board on the centerpieces. Oh lord help me...lol. Well, I need to clean up the dinner dishes and get ready for tomorrow. One more week then September rolls in and one more month to go. Can we all say freak out!!!!! Ciao!!! |
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