| Tuesday August 19, 2003: Well the weather has finally broken and the electricity seems to be fixed for now. Hopefully this trend will continue, lord knows I can't take much more of this heat. It's been a really quiet summer for me. I haven't had much of of choice, with the weather, not having enough money to just get out and about, and no available jobs. I spoke with my lawyer yesterday. I was wondering what happened to him, he had some complications with his surgery....dehydration and an ulcer. He said he was in the hospital for a few days and will have to go back for a minor procedure. So remember everyone drink your water. No news on my appeal, I may not have approval by either them or the state until sometime in September. This really sucks. I could have had a job and been working instead of losing money. Not to mention the waiting game. I know I will have it, it's just its very trying. Especially when this weather hits, I really begin to feel my weight. I avoid mirrors now. I just hate looking in the mirror and seeing my reflection. My boyfriend can't understand how it is that I have gained weight instead of losing it, since I'm barely eating anything anymore. I guess with being locked in the house, between the weather and no money, anything and everything I eat gets sucked into my fat. I just have to remember soon enough this too shall pass. Well I'll let you know if there are any developments. Thanks for checking!!! |
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| Sunday August 31, 2003: Hello everyone, I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend. Here in New York, I am sitting back and doing my best to take it easy. I was in the hospital last week. I had some pain the week before but it went away but that night it didn't and the pain was worse. Welif I was a man who walked in with my blood pressure at 152/115, rapid heart beats, pain in my chest radiating to my chest and my neck, and shortness of breath I would not have waited one hour and ten minutes. I know its laughfable now. Greatfully it was no heartattack, I had hypertension and costochondritis (thats when the muscles and bones in your chest become irritated and painful). And boy was I in pain, I'm still hurting over a week later, and it is still sore over my heart. My doctor says if I cant work on mmy own to keep my pressure down and get diagnosed with hypertension I will end up being denied for the surgery for good. Just great. On a better note, guess where I was yesterday..... I was at the beach!!!! Holy Crap!!!! It was nice, but I wore shoirts and a tanktop of course. I wnated so bad to go play in the water, but i guess there is always next year. Well i'll let you know when I speak to my lawyer next week. Hopefully we will have an answer by the latest the week after next. I want to be able to make it to the spring classes next year. Ciao!!!! |