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| Wednesday March 23, 2005: Well things are still going strong at the gym, although I did take a 4 day break. But I am staying consistant with working out at least 4x a week, and so far for these past two weeks I have kept up with it. I actually booked a 1/2 hr session for Friday with a trainer. I was thinking of doing it for an hour, but why? All I need is for him to show me what machines I should be using to maximize the effect. I haven't lost anything else this week either. But it doesn't help that I have been eating like a mad woman. I have these uncomtrollable urges to eat at night, to the point I can't sleep without first snacking on something really bad. And if I don't eat what I'm originally craving, then its worse. I know a lot has to do with my own depression. A lot of it dealing with the fact that if I was still pregnant I would have given birth last week. so it hasn't been an easy week.emotionally. Not to mention things haven't been too okay between me and my BF. I have a lot to work through, but I will work through it. Anywho, I have an interview tomorrow and I am psyched about that. I am hoping against hope that this pans out to be something really good for me. Wish me luck. |
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| Sunday March 27, 2005: Happy Easter everyone!!! Hope the easter bunny brought everyone something good to nibble on. As for me, I am exhausted. I worked out with the trainer for the first time on Friday and man did he ever work me out. I did great, but I have been sooo sore and in sooo much pain for 2 days. good thing I didn't have much to do. I am going in tomorrow. If I am still in this much pain I will just do the treadmill, but hopefully I will be able to do some weights. I went on the interview on Thursday, and I feel like things went well. I am hoping he will call tomorrow. On the big chance he does, I bought a new answering machine to make sure I don't miss the call. Please pray and keep your fingers crossed that I get the job, I really really need to start working again. Ciao!!!! |
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| Thursday March 31, 2005: Hi everyone, its a beautiful day today and I am hoping to get a chance to enjoy it. I haven't lost any more weight, but it could be all the bloating from getting my period just on my weigh in day. But that hasn't stopped me from going to the gym. I have been faithfully going 4x a week since I have started three weeks ago. I am starting to feel the difference in my arms and in the back of my legs. There are muscles there that I haven't seen there in a long time. I'm waiting for my BF to come home, it's his birthday today and he took the day off to run and do some errands. He's also coming with me to visit with my grandmother, shes in the hospital and it is not looking very well at all. I had a dream last week, that my tooth fell out, and that means someone close is going to die. I am afraid it will be my grandmother. I just have to be there for my mom, I know she is not going to be able to handle things. I think this is why I haven't found a job yet, maybe because I am going to need to devote time to my family where it is needed the most. I'll touch back in a few days. |
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