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| January 7, 2006: Happy New Year everyone!!!!! Hope it's a good one for us all. We didn't do anything special to celebrate I was so sick it wasn't funny. I must have slept all weekend and then some...hahaha....five days away from work and I still need a vacation. So far my weight has been holding steady at 192. It kills me to be so close yet so far from hitting my 100 lb loss mark. I know all too well that I am only a couple of weeks away from reching my 2 year mark, but I know that I will hit that mark and I am going to push myself to lose at least another 20 to 30 lbs. Even if I never reach my goal weight of 140lbs, if I can make it to 165 for the wedding I will have accomplished something huge. I knew going into the surgery that I would be a svelt 125, and that's okay. As long as I am healthy and happy I will remind myself of the gift I gave myself by making this decision...giving myself a second chance at life. I intend to do my best to make this year a good one. We are booking the date for our wedding tomorrow,,,yeah!!!!!! And I will be getting the wreaths that will make part of the center pieces next week too. I am going to apply for a promotion at work and continue to look either for a second part time job or a whole new job altogether. And most importantly I am getting my fat rear end back into the gym. I have made too many excuses and I have wasted so much time and money in not freezing my membership. But it's no one's fault but my own. So with a new attitude and dinner almost ready...enjoy the rest of your weekend. Till next week ciao!!!! |
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| Monday January 16, 2006: Sorry I didn't update last week, I can't understand why I'm always so tired. It's weird and i really need to talk to my doc soon. On another note I haven't gained anything but I haven't lost anything either. It kills me to be sooo close to losing 100 lbs but I feel like I never get there. I've been cheating and checking out the scale during the week and if it stays the same I may be able to note one pound closer to my goal. Funny how quickly the time goes by. In a couple of more weeks I will be two years out and believe me I am not giving up. I even started doing my crunches at home, and man do my stomach muscles hurt. I forgot that I had muscles there....hahaha!!!!! On more good news, we finally booked the wedding and the chapel. October 29, 2006!!!!! I can't believe it. We are actually doing it. We even picked out the save the date stickers which we should be getting in another week or so. I can't believe how involved he's been with questions and decisions. Let's see if i can keep his interests peaked. Well dinner is almost done and I need to wake up the sleeping bear. till Wednesday....ciao!!!! |
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| Friday January 27, 2006: Happy 2 yr anniversary to me...or should I say happy 2nd birthday? Either way, it's been a hell of a journey and I have come a long way. There is still much to do and I know from what I had planned I am completely off track. But that's okay because I'm back!!! Since I last posted I have been back to the gym, just doing the treadmill, for now. And I have been faithfully doing crunches every other night. I have had a lot of pinching in my abdomen so I don't want to push it. that doesn't mean I am going to slow down, it just means that I don't want to hurt myself. I did not realize how weak my stomach muscles had become since well before surgery. It must be years since I actually had a four pack...no really when I went to Puerto Rico back oh,,,clsoe to 10-11 yrs ago I did 175 crunches every night for 4 weeks and man I had a belly to die for. My ass and legs were flabby but I wore tank tops and didn't have to suck the gut in. I'm really serious this time out. I have surpassed my 2 yr window, but that's okay because my dad is right if I can tone up and drop another 20 to 25 lbs I can look like I lost 30 or more. Hey I have a dress and pictures to get ready for in 10 months and reality finally bit back. So in other news my pc sucks!!!! I think I may have justt fixed it tonight (crossing my fingers) we'll just have to wait and see. In other news I am full steam ahead to find a new job. My sh*thead of a director wont give me the promotion and decided to hire outside the job all because back in October I was cronically late. I made a huge effort to be on time or even earlier and showed him that I rose and jumped out beyond the challenge. But nope, everyone says it's because he doesn't want me to show him up. He still doesn't know after all this time what we really do out there. Well now he is on his own. This new chick is in for a reality check because I am not giving up any knowledge I have. I know this may sound harsh to some people, it's not her fault and no I won't be nasty but I am going to let him fall all on his own with his "hand picked team". My desk is already packed and no longer personalized. I'm just waiting for the moment I find a new job and I can walk out. No notice nothing, just I quit have a great f*cking life. It just kills me because I earned that position, I busted my ass and you know what I was promised that position. But he knows I can take over and that's what he doesn't want. So anyone knows of a job opening in Long Island I'm available. I work hard, I'm a team player and I learn fast :). Hahaha!!!! Wish me lots of luck I need it. Ciao!!!! |
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