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June 28, 2004; Voting day: So did everyone go out and use their right to vote for whomever party they wanted to vote for? :P I did after I went shopping and bought some impulse buys. *Impulse buy, impulse buy!* Ah but it felt so good to go shopping after everything that's been going on lately..
but anyways, enough with moping! :) I voted today well tonight. :) And I didn't have much of an approach this year. I didn't even look much into the election. What's the point? Because as soon as they get into government they don't do what they say anyways. I mean they may have legitimate reasons but don't make a promise you won't keep. That drives me crazy! If you promise me something, you better go through with it. dammit! :P heh But yeah a lil' off topic. :P
So I decided today that I didn't want to vote Liberal, or PC. So that brought it down to NDP or the Green Party. And then I thought well we need someone completely new in the government so I leaned towards the Green Party.
Then I thought well Green = good environment. Good environment = good place for our future to grow up in. :) Even though I'll probably never be able to have kids.. :'(
So I decided on the Green Party. :) There you have it. My voting strategy this year. :P heh Not much but oh well. ;P I wonder who will win this year.:) Happy voting! :P

June 23, 2004; A couple songs I liked;
Holding Out For A Hero - JENNIFER SAUNDERS

Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and I turn and I dream of what I need

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Larger then life

Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There's someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I could swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me

Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life

Seether - Broken(I like the version featuring Amy Lee the best)

I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

June 21, 2004; And so begins my life, as a Hermit...
I've made up the layout of my Hermit home, the different kinds of decor I want. And the type of location I want. I just need to find the location and the money. Next year I should be able to start saving for it.
You know, I really don't understand. Do I have some sort of sign that is on my forehead that reads, "HURT ME!"?

June 18, 2004; Tomorrow's friday... For once in, I think, my entire life I don't want it to come..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I just deleted everything..... good thing I backed up the text at least. ;p...... well that was a close one, I saved all my pictures in the nick of time;p

June 15, 2004; 2000 hits!! I can tell you I'm pretty shocked! ;p Well I guess I should start by giving the poll numbers out. Here they are:

1.How would you rate my site?

Answers Votes Percent
1. Excellent 12 55%
2. Good 6 27%
3. Poor 2 9%
4. Terrible 0 0%
5. No Opinion 2 9%

Total Votes: 22

2.What disease, viral infection, sickness or what not, will I get this summer?

Answers Votes Percent
1. Strept Throat 2 9%
2. Phenonia(sp?:P) 0 0%
3. Osteoperosis 0 0%
4. Depression 1 5%
5. Your just fucked up anyways ;p 11 50%
6. Asthma 0 0%
7. Bronchitus 0 0%
8. Other? (please feel free to explain your answer in the guestbook) 8 36%

Total Votes: 22

3.It's my Birthday!(July 4) :) How old am I? :P

Answers Votes Percent
1. 15 0 0%
2. 16 0 0%
3. 17 0 0%
4. 18 0 0%
5. 19 0 0%
6. 20 9 82%
7. 21 0 0%
8. 22 1 9%
9. 23 0 0%
10. Who the frig cares?:p 1 9%

Total Votes: 11

4.How old do I look?:p

Answers Votes Percent
1. 50 0 0%
2. 30 1 8%
3. 100 1 8%
4. 20 4 31%
5. 15 3 23%
6. 13 1 8%
7. YOu LoOk OnE BiLlIoN yEaRs OlD YoU oLd HaG! ;p heh 1 8%
8. as old as dirt! 0 0%
9. 3 0 0%
10. Who gives a %@*&!? 2 15%

Total Votes: 13

5.Today was the Nova Scotia elections, how did you vote?

Answers Votes Percent
1. Liberal 0 0%
2. PC 2 17%
3. NDP 0 0%
4. I cannot vote yet... 3 25%
5. I'm not fucking voting for ANY of thoooose parties! 3 25%
6. There was an election today? o.O 1 8%
7. Why do you make me keep voting on your dumbass polls? 1 8%
8. I hate politics........ gr.... 2 17%

Total Votes: 12

Commentary on the polls:

Question #1: YAY 55% think my website is "Excellent." Although I don't blame those 2 people who voted "Poor" because well it is poor. :P I don't like my website it takes forever to load and the layout is terrible.

Question #2: A bunch of you think I'm fucked up(50%!). Well you're definately right there.. heh :P But the funny thing is I NEVER got sick! Imagine that! :P I got a job(YAY!), met really awesome people. Made friends with even more people. Even got a new nickname heh :P "Quiet Storm" Don't ask... it's a long story... ;p heh And some people even tried to 'bug me'(even though it didn't bother me :P It just made me smile more:) ) so that I would talk about it on my website. heh Here's to you! ;) You know who you are. :)

Question #3: Well almost everyone knew I was 20(almost 21 now! YAY! :D) Except one voter actually thought I was 22. Maybe they tripped and they're mouse moved? :P Because as we see in the next poll it's hard to believe anyone would see me as 22. ;p

Question #4: For a long while this poll was dominated by the dreaded "you look 15 years old" answer. ;p Which ya know... with my Little Mermaid purse, the little kid candy, and the way I walk...(I was told it's not sexy enough.:P Apparently I 'waddle!' ;p) it does make sense. :p But I have wrinkles!:P Damn you wrinkles! So I guess that's why some people think I look 30 or 100. ;p heh

Question #5: Apparently not many people voted that year. :P

Thanks for voting everyone. You guys made my day when I'd see more votes. :) And for all of you who absolutely HATED the polls, good news! I just deleted them! :D Bad news(or good news;p) is there are going to be more.... heh ;) But I want more feedback no one ever explained what "Other" meant for question #2. Aw well, least ya voted! :D
I guess this is all for now but if I think of anything cool I'll update again later tonight. :) Thanks again everyone for 2000 hits!:)

June 14, 2004; WOW! I'm almost at 2000 hits! I can't believe it! I really didn't think people would actually go here. ;p It's not like there's anything to this site that makes it interesting. For me it's mostly to get my emotions out and for my friends who are living outside of Yarmouth to find out how I'm doing. Ya know make sure I didn't die or fall off the face of the planet. heh ;p Maybe I should do something special for 2000 hits? I'll have to think about it.:P I have to figure out what I want to do soon though because as of right now there is 1998 hits. :) Well have a great night everyone! *hugs*

June 10, 2004; *sings* "And the cat came back the very next day!" Sorry for the bad singing :P heh But YAY she came back! :)

June 9, 2004; Has anyone seen our 19 year old kitty? :( She went missing after someone let her outside last night..
Her mom left that way, we let her out one day and then she just never came back. Like she knew it was time.... As much as I complain about my cat(she leaves her hair and kitty litter everywhere it's so gross...;/), I love her. Right now I don't want to lose another person in my family. I still miss Sandy, our puppy we had to put to sleep(he was blind and I think he had cancer tumors on his legs:(.......).
Her name is Precious, we call her Presshy for short. She's black and white, and on her nose she's got a black smudge. So if you see her, bring her home..

June 6, 2004; Oowwie :P heh I got a lil' sun burn this weekend when I went out to sun tan :) It's not too bad though. :) Hopefully it'll be a nice sun tan by the end of the week. :) That'd be nice, instead of my deathly pale features I usually have heh. This weekend was nice, it was a little scary at first. I've never really been home alone for an entire weekend before. I went through the entire house to make sure no one was there and locked the doors and windows. :P I don't think I've been home alone for an entire night heh. But it felt nice to actually be by myself and think a few things through, with some help of my awesome friends. You know I love you guys. :) I was hoping to get myself good and drunk and maybe go out to the bar and dance(but that would mean I'd have to have a ride there and back 'coze I can't drink and drive. :P) but I didn't want to take the care to town again to go to the liqour store to get my vodka(The car isn't feeling all that well. ;p It needs a check up soon.:P). So instead, I remembered "HEY! We have two very large speakers sitting in the living room and I have chocolate!!!"(chocolate affects me alot better then alcohol ever will :P Alcohol is a depressent, chocolate... well lets just say I can get pretty giggly and way hyper heh :P) SO, I danced to very loud music at home! :D Much to the distaste of my neighbours I assume. :p I even did a bit of house work while I danced(vaccuming and sweeping). :) I was going to invite some people over but I thought hey I don't have a chance to do this at home all by myself. :) I kinda wanted to go to the Red Knight before they closed it but meh I've never really had the best time there and my friends weren't available to go. :P So it wouldn't have been fun without them. :P Although it kinda would have been fun to go and act all mysterious. heh ;p oh well another time! :)

June 5, 2004; I'm HOME ALONE!!! :D You'd think sommeone would come and visit ;p Well maybe soon!! :D I realllly hope! :D

May 30, 2004; One more day until it'll be June.... it's almost like it took forever to get here but now that it's here, it honestly doesn't feel that it took that long. I just tried to keep myself really busy and wrapped up in work to not think about what day it was and how much longer until the end of May. I just wish that I knew more of what was happening now that it's pretty much June now.
My parents want to go to Halifax this weekend coming. I kinda want to go, ya know get out of Yarmouth and back to Halifax for a weekend. But I'm afraid I'd buy too much stuff in Halifax. :P I loooove shopping there... so many stores.. so much neat stuff.. But I don't have the money yet and I'd be so tempted to go on a shopping spree there... plus I'd really like to have the house to myself for a weekend, that'd be really cool. :) Blast tunes, go hang out with friends and not come back until extremely late, or even not come back until the next day. :) Have all kinds of fun without having parents ask a billion questions and sometimes they don't even let me go.. I mean geez I'm going to be 21 in about a month, I know I'm still a child in their eyes.. but let me have some fun... at least once in a while! :P
Anyways it's late and it's time for bed.. :P Have a good night everyone, lots of sweet dreams. Cross your fingers for me, now that it's the end of May. :) *hugs!* :)

May 23, 2004; 8 more days until June. :) Sorry about that last entry everyone, it's wednesday week, I get upset easy for a couple days out of the month. ;p I should be okay now... :p heh I wish there was a way to make that go away. :P because it just plain sucks ass. Someday :P well I'll write later if anything exciting happens. Not likely though.:P ttyl :)
P.S. I edited the last entry. I just deleted most of it out of there. ;p I should have just written it down and deleted it to begin with just to get out some hormones.:P During wednesday week I get really upset over things I shouldn't. And even with the things I should get upset with I shouldn't take them to an extreme level. When I was younger I used to grab a piece of paper and just start writing all of my emotions out. Most times I'd just rip up the paper afterwards or hide them away in my diarys. But sometimes I keep them. It really helps to write them all down. It's as if all of it just flows right from my body into my fingers and out onto the paper/screen. I feel so much better afterwards. Once after a break up with a boyfriend I was so upset I wrote down what the perfect guy would be for me. After I wrote it I said I wasn't going to date any guy unless he fell under the list of ten things. Because if he had all ten checks on him, he'd never hurt me. I'll have to see if I can find it again and put it on here.:P I found it once last year sometime. It was kinda cute because when I wrote it I didn't really know much about guys at all. Well I still don't but that's not the point! :P Well anyways I should start getting ready for bed. I hope you all had a great weekend. I didn't really care for the weekend, yeah it was a break from work but I just want May to get over already... ;p heh That's what I want sooo bad and it's what I've been looking forward to for what feels like an enternity.. Well night night everyone. :)

May 20, 2004; Be warned: Wednesday Week, read at your own risk. The views written here are not necessarily shared in my own mind but they are the concerns of the dreaded fucking Wednesday Week.
Edited May 23, 2004
You know what? Wednesday Week sucks.. why do women have to go through this shit month after month? It's not fair that we have to deal with so many extreme emotions/pain and guys don't... bah ;p
On a great note though... I LOVE my job. :) I just wish it was permanent.

May 19, 2004; WAY TO GO CALGARY!!! :) I'm so happy we've got a Canadian team advancing! :)

May 17, 2004; We have really bad luck with cars. :p ours broke again. ;p I'm trying to convince my dad that we should get an Echo Hatchback. :P I'm going to get one myself next year when my loan is paid off. :) It's really good on gas and well with the gas prices so high right now... we sure as heck need good gas mileage.. I haven't looked recently(too scared to:P) at the gas prices but it's pretty much $1 a litre now. :( And it's supposed to get even higher over the summer months.. great huh? ;p
I really don't understand how gas prices can go up so high. It's not like they're not making a ton of money already off of the billions of people who have vehicles. Anyways I should get to bed. ;p Have a good night and a good day tomorrow everyone. :)