~Memories~

When the word "memories" crosses one's mind
The word conjures up thoughts that are warm ~
thoughts that are kind.

But ~ no ~ that theme isn't always just so,
For some aren't the kind that will make your heart glow.

Some memories you dwell on are of the sort
That eat at your mind and start to distort
Your image of life and what happiness should be
And soon tears fill eyes that can no longer see,

The day to day life that should go on living
And you find that your heart just can't go on giving.
The children you brought into life to share
You find singly raising them too hard to bear

But folks say to you ~ "Wait, think, he never did care
For he never loved or helped even when he was there."

So what can one do when one thinks of the past
And wants to re-live thoughts that were happy ~ that last?

The day that the first little daughter was born
Think, smile, heart feels warm?
Then visions of him ~ and the heart feels forlorn!
How can I keep those happy scenes in my mind
And weed out the ones of the hurting kind?

But life is so strange, and I one day find
A man in my world who turns out to be warm ~ to be kind.
At first when it started, this "little affair"
I felt that we two had so little to share.
So life it went on day by day,
And little by little the old life past away

But fully can I escape from a world I don't want?
No! for there are days when old memories taunt!
I've tried to go on and live life anew,
But only too often the old past seeps through.

And wrong, though I know, I start to compare
The old life I had, and the new one I share.
Then blues trickle in and soon I find The only thing going around in my mind...

Is loving someone right ~ is loving someone wrong?
Oh God, how I find it so hard to be strong.