Kelli's Tribute Page


Ours from March 1, 1983 until February 2, 1999


Two In A Row

Two in a row,
Two heartaches too soon.
Two cancers within you,
Too hard to get through.

One moment in time
For just one more prayer.
We need one more miracle
That just isn't there.

One phone call that came
six-thirty tonight,
To tell us once more
We've lost one more fight.

One night left with you,
Is all that we had.
Too little time,
And so very sad.


Diane 2/1/99


Kelli

You came to us broken,
You needed to mend.
You never complained
Of the wounds that we'd tend.

You wanted your daddy;
I felt in the way.
I tried so hard, Kelli,
But you kept me at bay.

You hated the thunder;
You hid from the rain.
I sat with you hours
On the stairs when it came.

You had many problems,
That bad U.R.I.,
You peed on the couch
for years... who knew why?

Some memories I have
Aren't pleasant, but true.
But through it all, Kelli,
I always loved you.

I hurt when you felt bad,
I worried at night.
I always felt guilty
For not making things right.

I don't ever think
I can put into words
How happy it made me
To see you watch the birds

I hope little Kelli,
That you always knew
That you were my "Puddy",
No matter what we went through.

You'll always be with me,
Even though we're apart.
I'll carry you here
Near the pain in my heart.


Diane 2/3/99


For Jeff for Kelli

I wanted to hold you
Once more yesterday,
The way that I held you
on Wantagh Parkway.

I wanted to feel
Your paws hug me again,
The way that they held me,
I never thought that would end.

I wanted to spare you
All the pain that you felt
I wanted to release you
From the hand you were dealt.

I needed to hold on
To you very tight
To keep you there with us
To help you to fight.

I held you the best
That I could yesterday
I held you in my arms
While you slipped away.

Releasing you Kelli,
From my arms, and your life,
And letting you go
Cut through like a knife.

I wanted to hold you
And I hope that you know
That the hardest thing I did
Was letting you go.

Diane 2/3/99



For Nearly Sixteen Years

I'm sitting here now
On the couch where you laid.
In the place that you loved;
Where I wish you had stayed.

I'm feeling your presence,
Even though you're not here.
We watched you and loved you
For nearly sixteen years.

My heart aches so much
And the pain that I feel,
Is the part you took with you;
Its the part that won't heal.

Diane 2/3/99


How Long Does It Take

How long does it take,
For a heartache to mend?
How long will it take,
'Til I feel well again?

For all I want now
Is to just go to sleep,
And not wake up again
'Til the pain's not so deep.

How long dies it take
For a heartache to end?
I think it will be
'Til I see you again.

Diane 2/3/99


The Pen Flows

I feel so numb inside
I don't know what to say
But somehow this pen flows
And it shows me the way.

It puts down here on paper
The grief and loss I feel.
I hope in some way it can help
All this pain to heal.

Diane 2/3/99


It Seems We Were Just Here

Daddy types and Mommy writes,
It seems we were just here
Last month, when we lost Biffy
And now the heartache's re-appeared.

This time it's for Kelli,
A loss that came too soon.
We thought we had more time;
But that ended just last noon.

There was too little hope,
And your suffering too deep.
And so now we released you
Into the land of "sleep".

The hardest thing for parents
When a "baby" leaves,
Is to go on without them,
With just memories and grief.

Diane 2/3/99

"Kelli in July 1998"



1983

If God came down to me today
And said these words to me
"If I could take you back again,
to 1983,

And Jeff was on the parkway,
And he saw Kelli then,
Would you choose to help her,
And rescue her again?

You'd know all that you know now,
And the heartache that's in store.
So would you want to have him stop,
And take her in once more?

She'd still have all the problems
She's had over the years,
And you would shed every one
Of your many tears.

So if you had the power,
And I would let you go,
Would you choose what you did,
Knowing what you know?"

I'd get down on my knees
And beg him to relive
Every single moment
That he had to give.

For living here, without her,
It's lonely, and I'm lost.
She was worth every moment
No matter what the cost.

Diane 2/4/99


Moments I Remember

There are moments I remember
That I'd much rather forget.
There are things I'd do so differently,
So much that I regret.

But there is not one single cat
I'd not take in again.
Even knowing all I know,
And the hurt when it all ends.

I'd cherish every moment
That they had to live;
For with a cat, you always get
Much more love than you give.

This poem is from a mother
Who's lost three this past year,
One only just two days ago,
And has shed many tears.

But even with this heartache
and all the grief and strife,
There isn't one I wouldn't choose
To have had in my life.

Diane 2/4/99


Eclipse

It isn't global warming
Making oceans rise,
I think that the overflow is from
all the tears I've cried.

And it wasn't an earthquake
That woke me up with a start,
It was just the pounding
Of my broken heart.

It wasn't a tornado
That tore through here with might
It was when you left us
And we put out your light.

It felt like there was an eclipse
Of the sun and moon
When you left us, Little Girl,
This Tuesday afternoon.

Diane 2/4/99


Pretty Little Calico

Pretty little calico
With markings so unique
How I wish God had given you
The ability to speak.

There's so much I would have asked you
So much I'd like to know
How'd you get on that parkway
Who was it that hurt you so?

Why did you hate the thunder,
Why did you fear the rain?
Was it like the headlights
That caused you so much pain?

Why did you pee on the couch
And the loveseat too?
What was it that made you stop?
I never really knew.

Why was it that you'd tap your tail
and purr while you were pet?
It seemed a contradiction
I never did quite get.

Why did you like the water
But only from the sink?
Did you know it pleased me so,
Just to watch you drink?

Did you suffer in the end?
Were you in any pain?
Did you feel my tears on you ?
Did they feel like rain?

Are you looking down on us,
From heaven up above?
Can you feel how sad I am?
Can you feel my love?

Diane 2/4/99



My "Kelli Girl"



Most of my best memories of Kelli have already been written in Kelli's Story. She was the first cat that I wanted to take in. I always wanted a long-hair cat, and she was a beautiful long-haired calico. I loved her from the moment I grabbed her from the top of the parkway divider and she clung on to me for dear life. And from that moment, she loved me, and trusted me.

Wantagh Parkway

I found Kelli on top of the center divider here


Since she was integrated into our home, Diane and I always felt that she didn't "fit in" too well with the rest. Kiki used to chase her around the house. He hated her for some reason, and went out of his way to antagonize her. Kelli became the "cranky cat", probably more for the sound of her meow than the fact that she showed little tolerance for the other cats. Her meow was like a nasal "naaaaahhhh!" than a meow.

Kelli liked me best, and always let it be known. Except when it rained. Kelli hated the rain. For some unknown reason, when there was even the slightest hint of rain, Kelli would huddle in a little ball in fear at the base of the stairs until Diane walked by; then if Diane would stay near her, she would come over to her, and huddle at her feet while she tried to console her. Often we wouldn't even know it was raining until we saw how Kelli was acting.

Kelli also loved to drink water. She insisted that the water be fresh. If the bowl of water on the kitchen floor hadn't been changed lately, she would walk away into the dining room, circle through the living room, then back into the kitchen to see if it had been changed. More often than not, Diane would have noticed her behaviour, and obligingly changed it. Then it was acceptable, and she would drink. She also used to like to drink from the bathroom faucet if a small stream of water was allowed to flow. She'd stick her head under the faucet, to drink, and usually wound up with a wet head in the process. When she started getting pretty sick over the last few weeks, she would jump up on the kitchen counter, and look for water to drink from the kitchen faucet. Unfortunately it was too far away to get a good drink. Diane found that by putting a large vase in the sink with the water running into it, that that was acceptable, and she'd drink from the vase as she crouched on the counter. We just recently bought a kitty water fountain that recirculates water through a filter, and makes a constant flowing stream of water. Kelli only had the opportunity to use it a few times; now Minni uses it.

When Biffy was undergoing chemo treatments, he would walk right up to where Kelli had her head in the water bowl, and stick his head right in the bowl right along side (and oblivious to) Kelli. Fortunately, Kelli decided to allow this activity, and let him in have it (the water, that is!). She wouldn't have stood for that from anyone else.

Cats almost always like to lay on whatever papers are lying around. I'm not sure how it started, but we've been putting 4 sheets of computer paper in front of the coffee table for years (obtained from the recycle bin at work). Kelli liked to lay on it there. It was "her spot". Once in a while, one of the other cats would lay there, and she'd give 'em the "stink eye": she'd walk right up to the offender, and just stare at him/her until s/he got the hint and walked away, saying to him/herself, "uh, I was just leaving anyway...". Biffy, however, was oblivious to the stare, and would just ignore her. Eventually Kelli would give up on Biffy, and find another place to lay down. I guess in her mind, Biffy was the exception to her "rules". I guess Biffy had a special place in all our hearts, even hers.


I wish we had been able to make Kelli happier in the time we had with her. I'm glad for the times we did have, even though it was way too short. I hope Kelli is happier now. I know she'll be even happier when I can join her at the Bridge. Until then, peace, Kelli. I love you.

Jeff 2/4/99



We were sent some beautiful things for Kelli. We wanted to include some of them on this page.



These were written for us by Linda:

Little cat, little cat treading on feet of down; where have you wandered?
Little cat, little cat I can't hear your meow; my heart calls for you but I get no answer.
Little cat, little cat shining among the stars, my soul sees you through my tears.
Little cat, little cat sitting in God's heaven, please visit and let me know how you are.
Little cat, little cat now healthy and beautiful, go in peace and love and wear my tears like diamonds.
Little cat, little cat say hello to others; tell them I love and miss them and will never forget our time together.
Little cat, little treading on feet of down, where have you wandered? I miss your purr and your love



You left too soon, little one.
Your time here wasn't done.
Your people are heartsore and sad.
They wanted so much for you to get better and live,
But that wasn't in God's plan.
They ask questions that have no answers,
Their tears flow from their souls.
You're gone now, and they ask why.
Your place in their hearts and home will be forever empty.



This was from Ellen (Momcat)

I'm so terribly sorry about your loss of Kelli this morning. The tragedies you have endured over the last year are devastating. I know you are shattered to you very souls by the losses of Fluffy, Biffy, and now Kelli.

It can be a terrible thing to be human, to love so deeply, and to endure to trauma of such losses; but what a wonderful thing to have been a cat in your family. Fluffy, Biffy, and Kelli were lucky cats indeed. Their illnesses were tragic, but their lives were so much more than their final months and days. From the day each of them found you they were blessed beyond feline dreams. Their lives with you were joyous and golden. They didn't anticipate the ends of their lives and so, even though they were sick, they still delighted in life because they were living it with you.

You two made miracles happen for these cats. Even Fluffy's terrible ordeal was lessened for him by your efforts on his behalf. You gave him much more time and a higher quality of life than many of us would have been able to achieve in the hit and miss treatments you were forced to try. In the end, though you were separated, I know his spirit was not in that operating room...he was with you.

In the moments you let Biffy and Kelli go they felt from you the intensity of all your love for all their lives. Though your pain was, and is, unbearable, they were overwhelmed with joy for the love of you.

Your sorrow is immense, endless, and terrible. But oh, to imagine the joy of the cats who have been loved by you...as great as is your sorrow, so great was their happiness. The cats who yet share your lives are very blessed for, even through your sadness, you continue to love and care for them with unimaginable devotion. Fluffy, Biffy, and Kelli must be overflowing with pride as they purr in God's lap, watching you, and saying "That's Jeff and Di...they're 'our' people."



We'll miss our "Baby Girl" forever.

Thank you Rev Di for making the framed image for us.


kitty chasing butterflies


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