My dearest Mkayla,
Mommy is sitting at home thinking of how you would be 3 right now and how I would be taking you Christmas shopping and how I would be putting you into those frilly little dresses. Mommy wonders what you would look like all the time and sometimes mommy gets caught up thinking of you all the time and I start to miss you and i cry mommy crys alot for you dear baby i don't know why you had to go away. I wonder sometimes if it was my fault that you went away because I was working to make a living because I knew I was going to have you and I wanted you to have things in life and your daddy wouldn't work but mommy can't blame herself, it was your time God wanted you to be that special angel so mommy had to let you go even though it was the hardest thing Mommy ever did. I love you baby girl and I wonder if you would've looked like me more or your nana you know I look alot like her. Well baby christmas is coming again and it is another year with out you but I just wanted to let you know that I have never forgot about you and I think of you all the time daily. 3 years is a long time baby but Mommy loves you and I wanted to wish you a third merry christmas in Heaven. I love you baby love forever your mommy Jami Sue Murphy
My dearest Justin,
Well you would've been 5 months old this month but you had to go be that special angel God wanted you to be. I'm not sure why your daddy was so mean to mommy when I told him about you but he was and I'm sorry that he was like that. Mommy loves you dearly and never wanted anyone to hurt you and I would've gave my own life for you if I had to and sometimes I wonder why your daddy took you away when you were planned and so was your sister but you are in a safe place now a place where no one can harm you not even your daddy. Don't worry baby God will take care of daddy when he is called to judgement and ask him why he was so mean to mommy that it took your life. It almost took Mommys and Mommy is lucky to be alive but you weren't and I'm so so sorry my Justin oh how I'm so sorry I long to hold you and see you and feel your little baby cheeks. I miss you so much baby there is not a day that goes by that I'm not talking or thinking about you. I miss you more than words can say I wanted to say merry christmas baby boy mommy loves you and she will see you and your sister in heaven when God calls mommy home but until then sleep in the arms of he angels and sleep in heavenly peace. Love forever your Mommy Jami Sue Murphy
