Journal

Saturday Septemeber 8, 20001 8:42p.m.
Damnit, my computer won't arirve until monday, so untill then I'm forced to have to use these inferior machines *sigh* My appointemnt with the personal rainer was rescheduled b/c he was sick today *what are the chances*. People, lets face it, I wish to remain forever young and beautiful;-) but that's not gonna happen if that personal trainer doesn't show up next time. They appear to be doing some kind of reanactment of something from the past either colonial or b4 I'm not certain *this is a weird town* the only up side is that I might just get that zip drive that I wanted, and I found one for just under $70. I miss my clubs back home, th eones here are like filled with old people *no offense but the ones I'm used to going to was 18 - 20 something* occasionally someone in their 30's would slip in though. Here it's like people are mostly in thsir 40's and 50's, so different than I'm used to *I didn't even think that such clubs existed* That reanactment that I was talking about just a sec ago, they just started playing some loud drums. It's called the battle of plattsburgh, that's what they are reanacting. Perhaps i'm just really really drunk and this is a side effect and the next thing I know I'll wake up with a bitchen hangover. Ok so that's not the case but I wish it was. THey had fireworks last night celebrating the tow so I was like I'm going to do my best to avoid any kind of town spirit. I might go to school here but I'm not living here for the rest of my life, that's for damn sure. Laterz people. P.H.C. for everyone.

Thursday September 13, 2001 8:48p.m.
Nehelenia is comming, Nehelenia is comming. Okay that made like no sense at all but I just felt like saying it. At the moment I'm still sore from the gym but I feel stronger than b4. I can't wait, soon I'll be at perfection and then I can go swimming again. I'm like so self aware of my body and though I'm not bad I'm also not perfect so I refuse to go anywhere without a shirt on. If only I had the body of Antonio Sabto Jr. then I would be so happy I would walk around nude, but I don't have perfect like that so that's not happening anytime soon. Speak to you later. P.H.C for everypne.

Saturday September 15, 2001 11:18p.m.
Well I'll be a son of a mofo. My arms are still sore from the gym but at the same time I've gotten stronger I'm certain of it, at least in my right arm. I can't belive it I'm actually watching grease. My how that brings back memories of the musical. I miss my elmont folks but I have to move on, thaty's the way that life works. I only have one H.W. assignment for the weekend. I went out to backstreet with some of the guys on wednesday and I have to say that I had a great time. But I still want to go to Montreal hopefully soon. With this stupid terrioristic attack which has happened it could be a bitch to go to Canada and come back so I've decided to hold it off untill a later date.Perhaps I should take up yoga in the near future, some flexability can't hurt and it could help cut down the ammount of healing time that I use. Well laterz everyone. P.H.C. for everyone.

Thrusday September 20, 2001 12:33p.m.
Oy I need a job and I need it soon. I can't belive that after all of these years I have yet to get a job, cool:-). But I shall not remain forever young and beautiful unfortunatly so I need to get that job ASAP. Ugh, it's not fair I don't wanna work, ok I do, but just to have the experience of actually working for once in my life. How is it that people who aren't as smart as me *and that's saying ALOT right there* can get jobs, and yet I seem unable to get on. Damnit I'm not pleased about this. Oh by the way, I haave cut off all my hair at 4a.m. yesterday morning. I did it totally on impulse. It feels different but I like it. I had to schedule lab differently this week only so I have to show up at 2p.m. today. Well laterz people. P.H.C for everyone.

Friday October 16, 2001 2:18a.m.
OK if you haven't noticed by now from my journal entries than I'll just say it out loud. I'M GAY!!! Isn't it just so cool to say that:-) It just rocks. Yesterday was national coming out day and I had a great time tabeling. I'm restless, I need a man and I need one now, lol j/k. I just have this lab report that I'm suppose to have done but I need the results part which was suppose to have been done by another member of my group but it wasn't done b/c she needed a graph from another memner of my group (don't worry it's only a 3-person group). I'm going to call them at like 6:30 a.m. to get teh info, without it I can't complete my section of it and I don't want to do their parts of the assignment. Once I ave their parts I can have this typed up in under an hour. Ugh I also have psychology H.W. that I reallly need to do but I really don't feel like oding it. I know the book is around here somewhere. Well I definately have more that I want to write but I HAVE to get started on the psychology H.W. P.H.C. for everyone.

Monday October 15, 2001 12:53a.m.
OK here is the thing. I'm going to sign up for some kind of sensitivity training training thingy, so I can teach others to be more sensative towards gays. Ever since that meeting with the OWE which I have to say I was VERY upset over, we have been trying to increase awareness of homophobia on campus. I was tabeling for coming out day last week when this guy comes up to the table and points to the "lesbian, gay, bisexual alliance" sign and he said "which one are you"? So I was like I'm a lesbian, then he said "isn't a lesbian a girl that likes another girl" so I said I'm a woman and I'm a lesbian and damn proud of it. I wouldn't have been so rude to him but he was being a jackass so he definately deserved it, the prick. I'm OUT in plattsburgh and I'm so much happier than I have ever been I'm so happy for the first time in like ever. I KNOW that pthers already know I'm gay and not instead of not caring like 20% of the time I don't care like 100% of the time. I know there are some small minded people but as long as they keep their comments to themselves then I don't care b/c if I hear it then I'll call them on it and basically shut them down in front of thir friends. usually I'm quiet in such situations but if you say something that's going to be stupid and you know I can hear it and it refers to me than I'm going to call you upon it. I know that there are some people that don't like me at the moment since I came out but all I have to say to them is that they can take the silence glaive, shove it up their asses and turn around 360 degrees. You red that little thingy that I amde up on the home page "love me love me hate me ..." well I came up with it and I stand my it, if you have a problem then that's just it YOU have the problem b/c I won't EVEN bother with it, it's your problem not mine. Well that's it for now. P.H.C. for everyone.